Mental Illness Happy Hour

"A perversely safe place in which he and his guests talk about their fears, addictions and traumatic childhoods." - NY Times "Normalizes what so many others feel but have been too fearful or ashamed to express...remarkable" - Psychology Today "A vital, compassionate gem that fills a desperate and under-addressed need in our society." - Esquire "Gilmartin makes a conscious effort to explore stories that aren’t black and white" - Slate Magazine "Praised by listeners all over the world"...more


  • #494 Best Of - Greg Cheever 1 of 2

    Jul 03 2020

    Originally recorded in the podcast's first year (2011) Paul sat down with his support group friend; a former fugitive, ex-con drug dealer, heroin-addict 60’s hippie, who has divorced four times, what’s not to love?   So many stories this one is a two-parter.  Part 2 next week. Support Our Sponsors! This episode is sponsored by BetterHelp online counseling.  To get a free week go to www.BetterHelp.com/mental  Must be 18.  For th...more

  • #493 Listener Struggles

    Jun 26 2020

    Paul reads submissions from listeners about the challenges in their lives.

  • #492-B Introducing Imani State of Mind

    Jun 25 2020

    Imani State of Mind is a new podcast from Stitcher that demystifies mental health and wellness in an accessible and approachable way. Dr. Imani Walker (Bravo’s Married to Medicine) equips listeners with the right language and tools to normalize this stigmatized topic, in addition to finding laughter and light in navigating these struggles. Listen now in your favorite podcast app!

  • #492 Susan P

    Jun 19 2020

    Paul's support group friend shares about her experiences as a black woman in America, her addiction to unavailable men, the wreckage of her acting out sexually and being a child in Atlanta during the Atlanta child murders. Support Our Sponsors! This episode is sponsored by BetterHelp online counseling.  To get a free week go to www.BetterHelp.com/mental  Must be 18.  For those under 18 you will be redirected to or can go directly to TeenCounseling at&nbs...more

  • #491 Ted Lyde Returns

    Jun 12 2020

    Paul's friend and fellow comedian/podcaster (Learning Not To Swear) returns to talk about George Floyd's murder, systemic racism, the police, looting, being a black father in America and the pandemic. Follow Ted on IG and TW @TedLyde FaceBook https://www.facebook.com/tlyde1 Learning Not To Swear Podcast  www.TedLyde.Libsyn.com Support Our Sponsors! This episode is sponsored by BetterHelp online counseling.  To get a free week go to www.BetterHelp.com/menta...more

  • #490 Best Of - Dr Melanie Watkins

    Jun 05 2020

    The board-certified psychiatrist answers questions about personality disorders, medication, problems in the mental health system and mental health in the black community. Support Our Sponsors! This episode is sponsored by BetterHelp online counseling.  To get a free week go to www.BetterHelp.com/mental  Must be 18.  For those under 18 you will be redirected to or can go directly to TeenCounseling at  www.teencounseling.com  This episode is spo...more

  • #489 Psychiatrist Dr. Esther Park MD

    May 29 2020

    The psychiatrist shares her experience in deciding when it's appropriate to prescribe meds, diagnosing ADD/ADHD, the difference between role and identify, being Korean-American and children who want to transition. Links provided by Dr. Park www.OAK.care  www.AACAP.org   www.nami.org Support Our Sponsors! This episode is sponsored by BetterHelp online counseling.  To get a free week go to www.BetterHelp.com/mental  Must be 18. This episode is spon...more

  • #488 Katie Vernoy Answers Your Questions

    May 22 2020

    The licensed therapist @KatieVernoy returns to answers listener's questions about a variety of topics but mostly about ways to handle the pandemic emotionally and mentally. More About Our Guest  katievernoy.com mtsgpodcast.com social: https://www.facebook.com/KatieVernoyManagementConsultant  https://twitter.com/KatieVernoy  https://www.instagram.com/katievernoy/ For Modern Therapists: https://www.facebook.com/therapyreimagined/ https://www.facebook.com/groups/therapyreim...more

  • #487 BiPolar I - Graphic Novelist Rachel Lindsay

    May 15 2020

    The graphic novelist (Rx) opens up about her battles with Bipolar I, being involuntarily committed, and having been an ad account executive creating a campaign for the very pill she was taking, participating in the "commercialization of my own suffering." More about Rachel.  Instagram: @rlindsay_comics , twitter: @RLindsayComics  and her website is:www.RachelLivesHereNow.com Support Our Sponsors! This episode is sponsored by BetterHelp online counseling.  To get a&nbs...more

  • #486 Dr Shaili Jain - PTSD

    May 08 2020

    Having studied and worked with thousands of people with PTSD from combat, sexual, physical or emotional trauma, the Stanford faculty psychiatrist shares her 20 years of insights on PTSD. Dr. Jain's website is www.DrShailiJainMD.com Her book is called The Unspeakable Mind. Support Our Sponsors! This episode is sponsored by BetterHelp online counseling.  To get a free week go to www.BetterHelp.com/mental  Must be 18. WAYS TO HELP THE PODCAST _______________...more

  • Shame

    May 01 2020

    Paul shares some stories of people battling shame (especially around their bodies) and reads from the Loves, Happy Moments and Awfulsome moments surveys. Support Our Sponsors! This episode is sponsored by BetterHelp online counseling.  To get a free week go to www.BetterHelp.com/mental  Must be 18. This episode is sponsored by Best Fiends puzzle app. Download it free on the Apple App store or Google Play. This episode is sponsored by GravityBlanket.  For 20% off go to www.GravityBlankets.com and...more

  • Pandemic 4

    Apr 24 2020

    Paul reads listener experiences around their mental/emotional struggles and victories -some serious some humorous- including the Covid crisis. Support Our Sponsors! This episode is sponsored by BetterHelp online counseling.  To get a free week go to www.BetterHelp.com/mental  Must be 18. This episode is sponsored by  Archer & Olive notebooks and planners.  For 10% off visit www.ArcherandOlive.com/mental and use offer code HAPPY WAYS TO HELP THE PODCAST ______________________ Subscribe via iTunes...more

  • Being Broke & In Debt - Nathan Rabin

    Apr 17 2020

    The blogger/author returns to open up about dealing with the strain of being fired, perpetually broke and in debt while trying to provide for his family. More About Our Guest  www.NathanRabin.com Check out his podcast Travolta/Cage www.NathanRabin.com/TravoltaCage and buy his books www.NathanRabin.com/shop Support Our Sponsors! This episode is sponsored by BetterHelp online counseling.  To get a free week go to www.BetterHelp.com/mental  Must be 18. This episode is sponsored by  Archer & Olive n...more

  • Coping w/the Pandemic 3

    Apr 10 2020

    Another installment of Paul reading anonymous surveys submitted by listeners about their mental and emotional ups and downs during the pandemic as well as things they love. Support Our Sponsors! This episode is sponsored by BetterHelp online counseling.  To get a free week go to www.BetterHelp.com/mental  Must be 18. WAYS TO HELP THE PODCAST ______________________ Subscribe via iTunes and leave a review.  It costs nothing. https://itunes.apple.com/us/podcast/mental-illness-happy-hour/id427377900...more

  • Coping and the Pandemic 2

    Apr 03 2020

    The second installment of listeners sharing their loves, happy and awfulsome moments and struggles during the pandemic via surveys read by Paul. Support Our Sponsors! This episode is sponsored by BetterHelp online counseling.  To get a free week go to www.BetterHelp.com/mental  Must be 18. This episode is sponsored by Roman.  For a free online visit and free two day shipping go to www.GetRoman.com/mental This episode is sponsored by the mobile puzzle game Best Fiends. Download it for free from t...more

  • Coping in a Pandemic

    Mar 27 2020

    Listeners share their loves and struggles during the pandemic via surveys read by Paul. Support Our Sponsors! This episode is sponsored by BetterHelp online counseling.  To get a free week go to www.BetterHelp.com/mental  Must be 18. This episode is sponsored by  OMGYes.com.  For a special discount go to www.OMGYes.com/mental This episode is sponsored by Ettitude bamboo sheets.  For 20% off your sheet set and free shipping text MENTAL to 64-000. This episode is sponsored by Native deodorants & t...more

  • Things We Love

    Mar 20 2020

    Who couldn't use some positive vibes this week? No guest, just things that people love, submitted via the show's Loves Survey. Support Our Sponsors! This episode is sponsored by BetterHelp online counseling.  To get a free week go to www.BetterHelp.com/mental  Must be 18. This episode is sponsored by Roman.  For a free online visit and free two-day shipping go to www.GetRoman.com/mental This episode is sponsored by OMGYes.com   For a special discount go to www.OMGYes.com/mental   WAYS TO HELP TH...more

  • Hell's Kitchen Kenny

    Mar 13 2020

    Paul's support group friend recounts his childhood and teenage years growing up in NYC's Hell's Kitchen and the cycles of violence, addiction, crime and poverty that he is struggling to break. Support Our Sponsors! This episode is sponsored by BetterHelp online counseling.  To get a free week go to www.BetterHelp.com/mental  Must be 18. This episode is sponsored by SquareSpace.  For a free trial and 10% off your first purchase of a website or domain go to www.SquareSpace.com/mental and use offer...more

  • Ask a Sex Crimes Detective - Don Howell Returns

    Mar 06 2020

    The retired sex crimes detective and speaker/author answers listener questions about the mentality of serial killers and  sex offenders, the legal system, victim rights and famous cases past and present. For more about Don go to www.DHLectures.com Support Our Sponsors! This episode is sponsored by BetterHelp online counseling.  To get a free week go to www.BetterHelp.com/mental  Must be 18. This episode is sponsored by Roman.  For a free online visit and free two day shipping go to www.GetRoman....more

  • Sleep Deprivation - Teresa Strasser Returns

    Feb 28 2020

    The host/performer @TeresaStrasser returns to talk about her misdiagnosed, involuntary stay in the psych ward after breaking down as a severely sleep-deprived, mother battling shame and perfectionism. She and Paul share their fears and loves.   More About Teresa www.TeresaStrasser.com www.Facebook.com/OfficialTeresaStrasser Follow her as @TeresaStrasser at www.Instagram.com/TeresaStrasser and www.Twitter.com/TeresaStrasser Check out her new podcast Easy Listening.   Support Our Sponsors! This e...more

  • Secrets & Trust - Sam Dingman

    Feb 21 2020

    The writer/performer (winner of The Moth GrandSlam) opens up about the family secret that harmed his ability to trust and the eventual airing of it that improved his relationship with them. He also shares about his struggles to feel validated, included, respected and seen. More info about Sam and his podcast Family Ghosts Family Ghosts Apple Podcasts link: https://podcasts.apple.com/us/podcast/family-ghosts/id1217657323 Family Ghosts Spotify link: https://open.spotify.com/show/6ZRMeBKDrifipZBfO4...more

  • Physically Transitioning - Fallon Chavez

    Feb 14 2020

    Fallon talks about her life as a trans woman; her desire to be "passable", how she feels about her voice, her experiences pre-op and post-op, the fetishizing of trans women, having bottom surgery and the bathroom dilemma.   More about Fallon: https://www.thetrevorproject.org/ , (they deal with lgbtq youth - they have a suicide hotline).   Her Instagram is @fallonchavezhair and her work website is tonichavez.com Support Our Sponsors! This episode is sponsored by BetterHelp online counseling.  To ...more

  • Moral Injury - Veteran Tom Voss

    Feb 07 2020

    The Iraq war veteran, author and advocate talks about PTSD and moral injury he battled after returning home and the positive effects meditating has had on his struggles. Tom is the author of Where War Ends: A Combat Veteran’s 2,700-Mile Journey to Heal — Recovering from PTSD and Moral Injury through Meditation For more on his experiences with meditation check out www.TheMeditatingVet.com Support Our Sponsors! This episode is sponsored by BetterHelp online counseling.  To get a free week go to w...more

  • Ask A Therapist - Katie Vernoy Returns

    Jan 31 2020

    Therapist Katie Vernoy returns to answer listener questions about therapist/patient boundaries, when to report a client (in response to a very dark survey), what therapists get wrong and how to know when we're overwhelmed. More About Katie: website: katievernoy.com social: FB: https://www.facebook.com/KatieVernoyManagementConsultant/ Insta: https://www.instagram.com/katievernoy   Support Our Sponsors! This episode is sponsored by BetterHelp online counseling.  To get a free week go to www.Bette...more

  • Smothered & Entitled - Al Lubel

    Jan 24 2020

    Al has always been a comedian's comedian, but mainstream success has always eluded him. Raised by a smothering anxious mother, fear and lack of independence have stunted his emotional growth. He talks about the fear of independence, sense of entitlement and narcissism that hinder his growth. More About Our Guest  For more about Al go to www.AlLubel.com Support Our Sponsors! This episode is sponsored by BetterHelp online counseling.  To get a free week go to www.BetterHelp.com/mental  Must be 18....more

  • From Chaos to Purpose - Wendy Adamson

    Jan 17 2020

    Despite her traumatic upbringing and becoming the woman (her mom) she swore she'd never be, Wendy went from an alcoholic PTA mother shooting at her husbands mistress to jail to getting sober and finding her life's purpose helping others and halting the cycle of intergenerational abuse.  She is an author and certified drug and alcohol counselor. More About Our Guest  Her new book is Mother Load: A Memoir of Addiction, Gun Violence & Finding a Life of Purpose. Visit her website https://wendyadams...more

  • Chronic Health Issues - Karolyn Gehrig

    Jan 10 2020

    Karolyn suffers from Ehlers-Danlos Syndrome, a connective tissue disease that affects her joints and internal organs as well as being diagnosed with an inoperable brain tumor. She rarely goes more than two weeks without a visit to the hospital.  She's the creator of #HospitalGlam, a movement that utilizes photography and fashion to create awareness of invisible injuries and help empower patients. Topics discussed are PTSD, sexism, the difficulties of dealing with chronic pain and unresponsive do...more

  • Native American Ellen Blackcloud

    Jan 03 2020

    Ellen (a pseudonym) shares about shares about discrimination, growing up poor, living on a reservation, riding the line between native culture and "white people things" and tells her story of grooming and sexual abuse from her father, being "trapped" in her own bedroom for years to avoid him, and how getting sober herself was the catalyst for healing and forgiveness. She speaks about the open wounds that remain from generations of government mistreatment towards Native Americans and the stories ...more

  • Best Of: Hank Adams

    Dec 27 2019

    Prostitution, alcoholism, fetishes, swinging, abandonment and being stabbed by a bayonet.  Handyman Hank Adams has experienced them all.  Paul’s friend has to literally pause to count how many stepdads he has had.  This episode originally aired in 2011. Support Our Sponsors! This episode is sponsored by BetterHelp online counseling.  To get a free week go to www.BetterHelp.com/mental  Must be 18. WAYS TO HELP THE PODCAST ______________________ Subscribe via iTunes and leave a review.  It costs n...more

  • Brian Simpson

    Dec 20 2019

    The standup comic (Lights Out) (aka @BSComedian) and Iraq War vet opens up about his unstable childhood - being lied to and moved from foster home to foster home - and how it has affected him, what he learned about white people while serving in the Marines, battling Major Depressive Disorder and his thoughts on cultural appropriation. Follow Brian on social media @BSComedian Check out his FB page www.Facebook.com/BSComedian Support Our Sponsors! This episode is sponsored by BetterHelp online cou...more

  • Being Non-Binary - Gobbie Dixon

    Dec 13 2019

    The 29 year-old Second City writer/performer @GobbieDixon shares about being gender-fluid, growing up believing there was nobody else going thru the feeling of not being in the right body, and their suicide attempt at 13. They share about their anxiety using public restrooms, dysphoria during sex and what their younger self could have benefitted from hearing. For more about Gobbie: Centered Web Series Episodes: https://www.centeredwebseries.com/episodes Instagram: @gobbiedixon Twitter: @GobbieDi...more

  • 464 - Surviving Domestic Violence - Gold Medalist Ruthie Bolton

    Dec 06 2019

    The 2-time Olympic gold medalist and Women's Basketball Hall of Fame inductee shares about surviving domestic abuse and becoming an advocate for other survivors. She also shares about being one of 20 children, being a preacher's kid and learning how to stop trying to "rescue" broken partners and take care of herself. For more about Ruthie go to www.MightyRuthieBolton.com Contact her at teammightyruthie@gmail.com Follow her @MightyRuthie Domestic Violence resources: National Coalition Against Dom...more

  • Best Of - Paul F Tompkins

    Nov 29 2019

    The talented stand-up comedian, podcaster (The Neighborhood Listen) and writer/actor (HBO’s Mr. Show, Bojack Horseman, Room 104, Comedy Bang Bang) talks about the role therapy played in helping him turn his pain and rejection into being a happier person and a better artist.  He opens up about the shame of having parents who didn’t find him funny or necessarily interesting, and the beauty of being given a second chance by a peer who was ready to write him off for his past bitterness.  A bitternes...more

  • Body Image & Sexuality - Jessi Kneeland

    Nov 22 2019

    Paul and Jessi talk about the mean voices in our heads - especially towards our bodies; how childhood sexual trauma affects sexuality, self-objectification, difficulty orgasming and being your body's friend. More About Jessi Website: https://jessikneeland.com/ FB: https://www.facebook.com/jessikneeland/ IG: https://www.instagram.com/jessikneeland/   The books she mentioned: The Body Keeps the Score Waking the Tiger Health at Every Size Intuitive Eating   Support Our Sponsors! This episode is sp...more

  • Living With Epilepsy - Alisa Kennedy Jones

    Nov 15 2019

    The writer and NPR contributor @IAmGothamGirl shares about developing epilepsy at 40 (as a single mom), bad doctors, shattering her face during a seizure, the myths around her condition and the hope she has found accepting her new reality. More About Alisa Book links or alisajones.com  https://livingwellwithepilepsy.com/ https://endepilepsy.org/ https://www.epilepsy.com/ Support Our Sponsors! This episode is sponsored by BetterHelp online counseling.  To get a free week go to www.B...more

  • LGBTQ Battles & Milestones - Dr Perry Halkitis

    Nov 08 2019

    The public health psychologist opens up about the mental, emotional and political battles both personal and cultural that the LGBTQ community has fought especially since the 1969 Stonewall riots. More About Our Guest Perry N Halkitis, Ph.D., M.S., MPH is a public health psychologist, researcher, educator, and advocate who is Dean and Professor of Biostatistics and Urban-Global Public Health at the School of Public Health at Rutgers University.  You can learn more about him at www.PerryNHalkitis....more

  • Wildfire Trauma & Loss - Nick H

    Nov 01 2019

    Nick talks about being a social worker clinician working with victims of the wildfires as well as combat veterans. Topics covered: types of PTSD, vulnerability, how to reach out for help and hyper-masculinity.  Support Our Sponsors! This episode is sponsored by BetterHelp online counseling.  To get a free week go to www.BetterHelp.com/mental  Must be 18. WAYS TO HELP THE PODCAST ______________________ Subscribe via iTunes and leave a review.  It costs nothing. https://itunes.apple.com/us/podcast...more

  • What A Body Remembers - Karen Stefano

    Oct 25 2019

    Despite being attacked as a college student, the author of What A Body Remembers went on to become an attorney defending violent offenders. She talks about the various ways trauma ripples thru our later lives and finding her voice despite anxiety, hyper vigilance, PTSD & shame. More About Our Guest http://stefanokaren.com/ https://www.facebook.com/karen.stefano.5 https://twitter.com/kstefano1   Support Our Sponsors! This episode is sponsored by BetterHelp online counseling.  To get a free week g...more

  • Joshua Peck

    Oct 18 2019

      The actor (Josh and Drake) and podcaster (Curious) opens up about being the anxious "fat kid", never knowing his father, being raised by a single mom, getting sober and learning how to cope with uncomfortable feelings. Check out Josh's podcast, Curious https://podcasts.apple.com/us/podcast/curious-with-josh-peck/id1378163166 https://open.spotify.com/show/3mL5MBinArRLgG0qy8rVCU Support Our Sponsors! This episode is sponsored by BetterHelp online counseling.  To get a free week go to www.Better...more

  • Introducing: The Next Big Idea Podcast

    Oct 15 2019

    Ideas are coming at you every day from all directions. How can you process it all? You can start with The Next Big Idea. Host Rufus Griscom and legendary thought leaders Malcolm Gladwell, Adam Grant, Dan Pink, and Susan Cain, will be your personal “idea” curators. Open your mind and get ready for something big, because the right idea--at the right moment--has the power to transform your life. Listen now at http://wondery.fm/TNBIHappy

  • How To Disagree - Oren Jay Sofer

    Oct 11 2019

    The communications trainer, meditation teacher and author talks about his history of stuffed anger and how he learned to use non-violent communication to better his life and relationships. They also discuss Somatic Experiencing for releasing trapped trauma from the body.  He is the author of the book Say What You Mean: A Mindful Approach to Nonviolent Communication.   Oren’s website: https://www.orenjaysofer.com/ The book: https://amzn.to/35kPLxa Twitter: https://twitter.com/orenjaysofer Faceboo...more

  • Narcissists & Psychopaths - Dr Ramani Durvasula

    Oct 04 2019

    The clinical psychologist and author shares her insights and the studies on narcissists (and recognizing one in your life) and psychopaths as well as contributing factors like childhood emotional neglect, social media and our culture at large. More About Our Guest  Audible: https://www.amazon.com/Dont-You-Know-Who-Entitlement/dp/B07YLC7P7P/ref=tmm_aud_swatch_0?_encoding=UTF8&qid=&sr= Print edition: https://www.barnesandnoble.com/w/dont-you-know-who-i-am-ramani-s-durvasula-phd/1130711212?ean=97...more

  • James Ransone

    Sep 27 2019

    The actor @JamesRansone (IT: Chapter 2, The Wire, Generation Kill, Ken Park, Tangerine) opens up about his difficult upbringing, searching for a sense of self, and breaking the cycle of dysfunction as a sober dad. Follow James on Twitter @JamesRansone Support Our Sponsors! This episode is sponsored by BetterHelp online counseling.  To get a free week go to www.BetterHelp.com/mental  Must be 18. This episode is sponsored by Jetson Probiotics.  For 30% off your first month go to www.WeAreJetson.co...more

  • Caitlin Doughty Returns - Death, Anxiety & Workaholism

    Sep 20 2019

    The mortician and bestselling author reads from her new book and opens up about her fascination and fear of death, her battles with anxiety and workaholism and the sense of purpose she gets from her work.  Her new book (which she reads from) is Will My Cat Eat My Eyeballs. More About Our Guest www.CaitlinDoughty.com www.twitter.com/thegooddeath www.instagram.com/thegooddeath www.facebook.com/thegooddeath www.youtube.com/user/orderofthegooddeath Find where to buy her new book Will My Cat Eat My E...more

  • Jamie Tworkowski - To Write Love On Her Arms

    Sep 13 2019

    Jamie aka @JamieTworkowski is the founder of "To Write Lover on her Arms," a non-profit movement dedicated to presenting hope and finding help for people struggling with depression, addiction, self-injury, and suicide. Paul and Jamie discuss the power of empathy, community, and sharing personal stories about mental health.    More About Jamie Instagram @JamieTworkowski Twitter @JamieTworkowski  To Write Love On Her Arms website www.TWLOHA.com https://youtu.be/xFu8IXDSy1s https://give.twloha.com...more

  • Reclaiming Desire After Assault - Julie Peters

    Sep 06 2019

    Julie explains the steps to recovering desire, passion, and pleasure after her sexual assault.  Discuss how being catcalled and sexualized at age 11 informed her value in society, sexual harassment in the workplace, struggles with anorexia and a complex relationship with food, desire vs craving, being sexually assaulted by a trusted friend and how she learned to recovery through mindfulness, therapy, and yoga.  Paul and Julie discuss societal issues like the MeToo movement, toxic masculinity, in...more

  • Zane Helberg - Getting Sober

    Aug 30 2019

    Zane Helberg performs stand-up comedy in an unlikely setting - rehab clinics. He and Paul discuss how getting sober lead to living an authentic life, personal development, and the importance of spiritual progress (not perfection). More About Our Guest  www.facebook.com/ZaneHelberg www.twitter.com/ZaneHelberg www.Instagram.com/ZaneHelberg www.youtube.com/user/ZaneHelberg Support Our Sponsors!  This episode is sponsored by BetterHelp online counseling.  To get a free week go to www.BetterHelp.com/...more

  • Covert Incest - Tony M

    Aug 23 2019

    Sexual abuse and incest can often fly below the radar because there isn't overt touching but as Tony M shares, his being raised in a sexually charged home has impacted his ability to trust and be intimate. Support Our Sponsors!  This episode is sponsored by BetterHelp online counseling.  To get a free week go to www.BetterHelp.com/mental  Must be 18.  This episode is sponsored by Baze personalized vitamins.  For 20% your first purchase go to www.Baze.com and use offer code MENTAL This episode is...more

  • How Do I Choose A Treatment? - Patient Advocate Adrienne Nolan-Smith

    Aug 16 2019

    The patient advocate who was diagnosed with Lyme disease at 11 offers advice for navigating the complex world of healthcare and mental health.  She discusses experimental/non-approved treatments (hyperbaric oxygen therapy and bovine colostrum therapy), integrative medicine, the complicated world of pharmaceuticals vs eastern remedies, the struggle to get to the "root cause" of health issues, and how to find a doctor that will be your best advocate.  She also discusses losing her mother to mental...more

  • Introducing We Love You (And So Can You)!

    Aug 15 2019

    Part reality show, part self-love school and the best makeover podcast out there. Hosts Kristen Meinzer and Jolenta Greenberg (from By The Book) draw on their extensive knowledge of self-help to provide guests with a prescription for their next life challenge, whether it's getting back into dating or starting a new career. The goal: for the guest to find the outstanding person who was there all along, and learn to love themselves more. We Love You (And So Can You) is out NOW - listen wherever yo...more

  • Mixed Race & Intra-Racism - Daniel Evans Nakamura

    Aug 09 2019

    "Dan From The Internet" aka @DanFromTheWeb discusses intra-race racism, growing up mixed-race (Latinx/Japanese/African-American) and sexually fluid in an emotionally neglectful household with a judgmental and homophobic father, and how he renewed a relationship with his mother after learning self-advocacy. More About Our Guest Follow Daniel at @danfromtheweb on Twitter his website danfromtheinter.net and his music news & reviews podcast called Audioface that can be found at www.audioface.show  ...more

  • Behind The Laughter - Anthony & Brigitte

    Aug 02 2019

    The comedian (Anthony Griffith) and doctor of psychology (Dr. Brigitte Travis Griffin) open up about losing their 2-year-old daughter to cancer and how they learned to navigate the grief process through faith, love, and humor. They are the authors of the new book Behind the Laughter.   More About Our Guest  Anthony's Instagram handle is @TheRealAnthonyGriffith Anthony's Twitter handle is @MrLaffaLot  Buy their book Behind The Laughter here.   Support Our Sponsors!  This episode is sponsored by ...more

  • Best Of: Ex-Con "Murph" (2011)

    Jul 26 2019

    From the first season (2011). Paul interviews “Murph”, a retired serial felon who opens up about prison, the guilt of his crimes and leaving it all behind. Six years ago you might have labeled him a psychopath. Paul calls him a trusted friend.   Support Our Sponsors!  This episode is sponsored by BetterHelp online counseling.  To get a free week go to www.BetterHelp.com/mental  Must be 18.  This episode is sponsored by the new podcast Crazed.   Other Links Mentioned   WAYS TO HELP THE PODCAST __...more

  • Best Of: Jen Kirkman

    Jul 19 2019

    From 2011.  Jen @JenKirkman (Chelsea Lately, Drunk History) and Paul have an epic “Fear Off” that leaves both of their souls emptied. Jen shares about her panic attacks and what it was like to be in New York on 9/11. Paul shares about the horror of being in an earthquake. More About Our Guest  www.JenKirkman.com  @JenKirkman   Support Our Sponsors!  This episode is sponsored by BetterHelp online counseling.  To get a free week go to www.BetterHelp.com/mental  Must be 18.  Other Links Mentioned  ...more

  • Best Of: Rob Delaney (2011)

    Jul 12 2019

    From 2011 - actor Rob Delaney (Catastrophe) opens up about his hilariously horrifying alcoholic bottom and how he has adapted to live with what might have killed most people. Follow Rob @RobDelaney or visit www.RobDelaney.com Support Our Sponsors!  This episode is sponsored by BetterHelp online counseling.  To get a free week go to www.BetterHelp.com/mental  Must be 18.  This episode is sponsored by the Calm app, SquareSpace and the new podcast Crazed.   Other Links Mentioned   WAYS TO HELP THE ...more

  • Best Of: Teresa Strasser

    Jul 05 2019

    Listener-Voted #1 episode of 2011 and for good reason. The Emmy-nominated writer/performer brings it. She opens up about her struggles, insecurities and fear of not being cut out to be a mother. Find her on social media @TeresaStrasser Teresa is the author of the awesome and hilarious book Exploiting My Baby.  For more about her go to www.TeresaStrasser.com Support Our Sponsors!  This episode is sponsored by BetterHelp online counseling.  To get a free week go to www.BetterHelp.com/mental  Must ...more

  • Surviving Prison & Gang Life - Bobby Martinez

    Jun 28 2019

    The 53 year-old former gang-member has spent most of his life in prison and much of it in solitary confinement. He addresses his shame over the harms he caused, surviving prison, getting sober, going back to school and regaining custody of his children. Support Our Sponsors!  This episode is sponsored by BetterHelp online counseling.  To get a free week go to www.BetterHelp.com/mental  Must be 18.  This episode is sponsored by  VariDesk standing desk solutions.  For more info go to www.VariDesk....more

  • Repressed Memories - Aaron Woodall

    Jun 21 2019

    Repressed sex abuse memories are difficult especially when the perpetrator is a female relative. The comic & podcaster talks about uncovering his memories, leaving Mormonism & trying to erase his belief that he deserves bad things to happen to him. More About Our Guest  Check out Aaron's podcast with former guest Jessa Reed - Mormon and the MethHead  Support Our Sponsors!  This episode is sponsored by BetterHelp online counseling.  To get a free week go to www.BetterHelp.com/mental  Must be 18....more

  • Finding Our Core Emotions - Hilary Jacobs Hendel LCSW

    Jun 14 2019

    The certified psychoanalyst, author of It's Not Always Depression:Working the Change Triangle to Listen to the Body, Discover Core Emotions, and Connect to Your Authentic Self and AEDP psychotherapist opens up about her struggles with perfectionism and equating value with achievements, mistakes she has made as a parent, listening to our bodies, discovering our core emotions, how depression can misdiagnosed and advice on bringing about change in our lives using the change triangle. More About Our...more

  • Alec MacDonald aka @AlecWithPen

    Jun 07 2019

    The popular cartoonist @AlecWithPen shares his history with depression, anxiety, failed relationships, a wealthy but distant family, his type A Olympian dad, low self-esteem, trying to find his passion & how he finally channeled it into his drawings. More About Our Guest  Follow him on Instagram @AlecWithPen  Support Our Sponsors!  This episode is sponsored by BetterHelp online counseling.  To get a free week go to www.BetterHelp.com/mental  Must be 18.  This episode is sponsored by Varidesk sta...more

  • Aging and Happiness - Dr Andrea Brandt

    May 31 2019

    The 77 year-old veteran psychotherapist, teacher and author shares her insights into how we can embrace aging and mortality to deal with feelings of irrelevance and anger and find contentment thru acceptance, mindfulness and purpose.  Dr. Brandt is the author of Mindful Aging: Embracing Your Life After 50 to Find Fulfillment, Purpose and Joy  Note: this ep was recorded in 2018 but not previously released   More About Our Guest Follow her on Twitter @AndreaBrandtPhD For a full list of her books ...more

  • Healthy Love - Christina Howard

    May 24 2019

    Her lifelong fear of commitment was masked behind an obsession with emotionally available men - Christina shares how she personally changed and healed her pain to be able to recognize and accept healthy love including self-love. More about our Guest Follow Christina on Instagram @TinaComedy Find her videos on YouTube under the name Christina Joy Empowered. Support Our Sponsors!  This episode is sponsored by BetterHelp online counseling.  To get a free week go to www.BetterHelp.com/mental  Must b...more

  • Anxiety & Humor - Jordan Reid

    May 17 2019

    The hilarious blogger/author of Ramshackle Glam and The Big Activity Book For Anxious People shares about her battles with anxiety, relationships and being replaced as the creator and lead actress on It's Always Sunny in Philadelphia. She and Paul also get into some fun Fears and Loves.   More About Jordan Reid http://www.ramshackleglam.com https://www.amazon.com/Big-Activity-Book-Anxious-People/dp/0525538062#byline_secondary_view_div_1557335105824 https://www.instagram.com/ramshackleglam/   Su...more

  • Depression, Fear & Alcohol - Ry Doon

    May 10 2019

    The comedian shares about his battles with depression, fear of failure, huge financial and professional setbacks (he had a huge following on Vine before it was retired), having a mother with BiPolar I, and alcohol. More About Our Guest Follow Ry on Twitter and Instagram @RyDoon Support Our Sponsors!  This episode is sponsored by BetterHelp online counseling.  To get a free week go to www.BetterHelp.com/mental  Must be 18.  This episode is sponsored by VariDesk.  For more info go to www.VariDesk....more

  • Janet Varney Returns - Depersonalization Syndrome

    May 03 2019

    Paul's former Dinner and a Movie cohost and very first guest on the podcast returns to share about fears, loves, panic attacks, people pleasing, hurt feelings and her battles with personalization displacement syndrome. More About Our Guest Find her on Twitter @JanetVarney Find her on Instagram @TheJVClub Check out her website www.JanetVarney.com And Check out her awesome podcast The JV Club  Support Our Sponsors!  This episode is sponsored by BetterHelp online counseling.  To get a free week go ...more

  • Heartache & Obsession - Elle Huerta

    Apr 26 2019

    The IT entrepreneur and writer who created the Mend app talks about her struggles with obsessions and letting go especially after breakups or loss, how she is creating a community online to deal with the shame, isolation, obsession and feelings of rejection and not being enough.  She also talks about the sickness of working to extreme exhaustion and trying to find validation outside of her accomplishments. More About Our Guest On leaving Google: https://medium.com/this-happened-to-me/why-i-left-...more

  • Rich But Sad & Video Games - Keith Kingbay

    Apr 19 2019

    The comedian and podcaster (New Player Has Joined) opens up about his financially privileged but emotionally barren childhood, verbal abuse from youth hockey coaches, and discovering himself thru video games. More About Our Guest Find more about Keith at: https://twitter.com/NewPlayerPod  https://twitter.com/KeithKingbay https://www.instagram.com/newplayerpod/ https://www.instagram.com/keithkingofbays/  Support Our Sponsors!  This episode is sponsored by BetterHelp online counseling.  To get a f...more

  • Our Own Worst Enemies - Therapist Lori Gottlieb

    Apr 12 2019

    The licensed therapist and author of Maybe You Should Talk to Someone shares about common issues people deal with in therapy and ways that we are our own worst enemy. Paul shares about adopting a dog, plus great listener descriptions of their food issues anxiety and depression. More About Our Guest    MAYBE YOU SHOULD TALK TO SOMEONE now available at bookstores everywhere!   Contributing editor +  "DEAR THERAPIST"   columnist   @TheAtlantic  Follow her: Website  +  Facebook + Twitter   Support...more

  • Trust Issues, Ideation & Food - Leo Flowers

    Apr 05 2019

    The comic, life coach, & ex-athlete shares about his lifelong suicidal ideation, struggles with food, abandonment by his dad who fathered him via an affair, learning trust, self-care, conflict resolution and even trying the suicide hotline. More About Our Guest www.LeoFlowers.com www.Twitter.com/LeoFlowers4Real www.instagram.com/LeoFlowers2000 www.Facebook.com/LeoFlowers2.0 www.Youtube.com/LeoFlowers Support Our Sponsors!  This episode is sponsored by BetterHelp online counseling.  To get a free...more

  • Trading Sex For Love - Marigny Goodyear

    Mar 29 2019

    The 42 year-old mother reads the open letter she wrote to the men who took advantage of her as a young teen, discussing gray area issues like consent, alcohol, objectification and trading sex for love, attention or to avoid abandonment. More About Our Guest https://www.marignygoodyearart.com/blogs/artventures   https://business.facebook.com/marignygoodyearart/   https://www.instagram.com/marignygoodyearart/?hl=en   Private FB group for sexual trauma survivors https://www.facebook.com/groups/3584...more

  • Best Of: Adoption & Religious Abuse - Julie J

    Mar 22 2019

    Funny and vulnerable, Julie was born to a drug-addict teenage mom, was given up for adoption and raised by a stoic military dad and Fundamentalist mom whose obsession with demons comes close to resembling the mother from “Carrie”.  From 2013 I forgot to mention it in the episode but the monthly-donor raffle for this cutting board is thru Wed Mar 27th.  Donors get one guess per $5/month donation.  So a $10 donor would get two guesses etc.  I have chosen a number between 1 and 500 and the person w...more

  • Grief Support Mistakes - Megan Devine LPC

    Mar 15 2019

    The licensed therapist shares about the well-meaning but misguided "cult of positivity" after tragedies, emotional dissonance, grief support, having difficult conversations and how she dealt with the sudden death of her partner 10 years ago. More About Our Guest Check out her Refuge in Grief website Her Grief Revolution page on Patreon  the writing your grief course and the How to Help a Grieving Friend animation.    Her book It's Okay That You're Not OK: Meeting Grief and Loss In a Culture That...more

  • Remembering Jenn Golick

    Mar 08 2019

    Weeks after recording this episode last year, therapist Dr. Jennifer Golick was killed by a combat veteran with PTSD whom she was helping. She talks about her work with vets, covert incest and codependence. Support Our Sponsors! This episode is sponsored by BetterHelp online counseling.  To get a free week go to www.BetterHelp.com/mental  Must be 18. This episode is sponsored by MadisonReed home hair coloring kits.  For 10% off your first kit plus free shipping go to www.Madison-Reed.com and use...more

  • Remembering Brody Stevens

    Mar 01 2019

    One of the most unique voices in comedy ended his life last week. Paul shares some thoughts on it, reads a listener email and replays episode 100, an interview with Brody from Feb 2013, in its entirety. Support Our Sponsors! This episode is sponsored by BetterHelp online counseling.  To get a free week go to www.BetterHelp.com/mental  Must be 18. This episode is sponsored by ThirdLove bras and underwear.  For 15% off your first purchase go to www.ThirdLove.com/mental This episode is sponsored by...more

  • Catholic Black Sheep - Joe Bill

    Feb 22 2019

    Paul's longtime friend and improv teacher talk about his violent ex-Notre Dame football player dad, his mentally unstable and sexually abusive mother and how he found his voice in creativity but still struggles with shame, codependency and self-love. Links Mentioned To fill out the listener demographic survey (anonymously) and help the show attract advertisers go to www.PodSurvey.com/mental More About Our Guest Joe Bill Teaches FB Group: https://www.facebook.com/groups/182602909978/   BASSPROV: ...more

  • Religious & Sexual Orientation OCD - Kimberley Quinlan LMFT

    Feb 15 2019

    Licensed therapist (LMFT) Kimberley Quinlan returns to talk about two types of OCD; Scrupulosity - a fear of sinning or having sinned, and Sexual Orientation OCD - an obsession about one's present or future orientation. She and Paul share their own fears and "fuckups" Kimberley also hosts her own podcast Your Anxiety Toolkit. More About Our Guest cbtschool.com   Kimberleyquinlan-lmft.com   https://itunes.apple.com/us/podcast/your-anxiety-toolkit/id1098792502?mt=2 Support Our Spons...more

  • Amy G - Male Attention & Safety

    Feb 08 2019

    Paul's support group friend opens up about being addicted to male attention while also fearing them, feeling unsafe, love addiction, growing up without her bio dad (without explanation) and the power of vulnerability in healing.   Support Our Sponsors! This episode is sponsored by BetterHelp online counseling.  To get a free week go to www.BetterHelp.com/mental  Must be 18. This episode is sponsored by BlueChew.  To try it for free plus $5 shipping go to www.BlueChew.com and use offer code MENTA...more

  • Psychiatrist/Writer Dr. Paul Puri

    Feb 01 2019

    The psychiatrist and tv writer (Chicago Med) shares about his childhood, why some of his peers overprescribe medications, the importance of talk therapy, some info on hypnosis and Paul opens up about his health fears especially around meds and long-term health.   More About Our Guest http://paulrpurimd.com Support Our Sponsors!  This episode is sponsored by BetterHelp online counseling.  To get a free week go to www.BetterHelp.com/mental  Must be 18. This episode is sponsored by BlueChew.  Get y...more

  • Feeling Like An Outsider - Glenn Lutz

    Jan 25 2019

    The author (Go F*%#, I Mean Find Yourself) opens up about being mixed race and battling depression and feeling like an outsider as far back as childhood. He and Paul share things they're grateful for and read inspirational quotes from his book. More About Our Guest Buy Glenn's book here Follow him on Instagram @Glenn_Lutz  Support Our Sponsors!  This episode is sponsored by BetterHelp online counseling.  To get a free week go to www.BetterHelp.com/mental  Must be 18. This episode is sponsored b...more

  • Bonus Ep - Listener Struggles/Secrets

    Jan 21 2019

    Some "Shame and Secrets" surveys and some "Awfulsome" and "Happy Moments" surveys as well.   This episode is sponsored by StitchFix online personal styling service.  Get started at www.StitchFix.com/mental and get 25% off when you keep all 5 items in your box.  

  • Fears & Loves w/Nora McInerney Live

    Jan 18 2019

    The author (It's OK to Laugh and No Happy Endings) and host of the podcast Terrible Thanks For Asking returns in front of live audience in Minneapolis. She, Paul and the audience share their fears and loves and answer some questions. More About Our Guest Check out her books and where to buy them at www.noraborealis.com/book Follow her on social media @NoraBorealis And of course check out her great podcast Terrible Thanks For Asking  Support Our Sponsors! This episode is sponsored by BetterHelp o...more

  • Bonus Ep - Maternal Incest - Daniel M

    Jan 15 2019

    After hearing mens' stories about experiencing incest (overtly or covertly) by their mothers, Daniel reached out to Paul with his story and has come to share it (with his girlfriend for support as well.)   This episode is sponsored by StitchFix online personal styling service.  Get 25% off when you keep all 5 items in your box.  Go to www.StitchFix.com/mental This episode is sponsored by Himalaya podcasting app.  You can download it at the App store or Google Play store.  

  • Our Inner Critic - Cartoonist Lucy Bellwood

    Jan 11 2019

    The cartoonist (100 Demon Dialogues) delves into her struggles with the mean/critical voice in her head and how she is confronting the lies it tells her about herself. She also shares about her dad, the author of The Highlander, and their complex relationship.   More About Our Guest lucybellwood.com 100demondialogues.com  patreon.com/LucyBellwood www.twitter.com/LuBellWoo www.instagram.com/LuBellWoo   Support Our Sponsors! This episode is sponsored by BetterHelp online counseling.  To get a fre...more

  • Facing Her Fears - Courtenay Hameister

    Jan 04 2019

    The writer/performer opens up about her anxiety, panic attacks, OCD, shame and body issues. She also reads excerpts from Okay Fine Whatever: The Year I Went From Being Afraid Of Everything to Being Afraid Of Most Things, her hilarious new book about taking risks and challenging her fears, especially social phobias. More About Our Guest For more on Courtenay go to www.CourtenayHameister.com  Follow her on Twitter @Wisenheimer Support Our Sponsors! This episode is sponsored by BetterHelp online co...more

  • 2018 Year Ender - Awfulsome Traditions

    Dec 28 2018

    No guests, just some of Paul's thoughts on traditions and holidays; how we hide our feelings and some great, very honest (and one very dark) listener surveys including the best holiday Awfulsome moment yet.   Support Our Sponsors!  This episode is sponsored by BetterHelp online counseling.  To get a free week go to www.BetterHelp.com/mental  Must be 18.    WAYS TO HELP THE PODCAST ______________________ Subscribe via iTunes and leave a review.  It costs nothing. https://itunes.apple.com/us/podca...more

  • Struggles w/Moderation, Identity & Survivor Guilt - Akshay Nanavati

    Dec 21 2018

    Born in India, raised in Texas, 33 year-old Iraq War veteran, ultra-runner and global philanthropist talks about his lifelong struggles with moderation, getting his identify from his accomplishments or dangerous/crazy/extreme behavior, feeling unworthy and battling survivors guilt after losing a fellow soldier.  He also talks about spirituality especially finding purpose through sacrifice and service. Akshay is the author of the book Fearvana (with a forward by the Dalai Fucking Lama!) More Abou...more

  • Dating Anxiety & Reproductive Issues - Becky Feldman

    Dec 14 2018

    Coming from an anxious family, coupled with not fitting in, being bullied by her ballet teacher (and having red hair), then as a young teen, developing vaginismus, Becky spent her 20s resigned to never dating or having a partner. Surgery, talk therapy, physical therapy and giving dating another try has proved to be more helpful than she expected. Older episodes can be found ad-free exclusively at Stitcher Premium for $4.99/month.  Get one month free with offer code MENTAL at signup at www.Stitch...more

  • Back in My Parents' F-ing Basement - Live in MN w/Kjell Bjorgen

    Dec 07 2018

    Recorded live in Minneapolis at Sisyphus Brewing, Paul and Kjell reunite and share stories of bombing onstage, panic attacks, depression, meds, feeling lazy, future tripping, anger at partners, living in parents' basements, self-doubt, dead-end jobs and self-sabotage. Older episodes can be found ad-free exclusively at Stitcher Premium for $4.99/month.  Get one month free with offer code MENTAL at signup at www.StitcherPremium.com/mentalpod   past guests include people like people like Tiffany Ha...more

  • Cartoons & Murder - Tonya McKenzie

    Nov 30 2018

    One of her first memories is seeing her mother's boyfriend shot dead in front of her at four years-old. The mother she adored was fiercely protective of her except when it interfered with her dangerous lifestyle. A great chat about mental health - especially among POC -, complicated relationships with mothers, the cycles of generational dysfunction and trauma in the black community and the challenges raising her teenage son in a mostly white community. Older episodes can be found ad-free exclusi...more

  • LeeAnn Kreischer - Rural Southern Family Trauma

    Nov 23 2018

    The former screenwriter, mother and podcaster shares about her relationship with her "party-animal" husband Bert Kreischer and her tumultuous childhood split between a mentally-ill narcissistic mother, a lovesick broken father, and a grandfather with severe combat PTSD from being the one of the first soldiers to enter Nagasaki after the atomic bomb detonated. She describes how she faced her pain, changed her life and is trying to grow into the person and mother she never had.     Older episodes ...more

  • FOMO, Shame & People Pleasing - Mary Holland

    Nov 16 2018

    The improviser/actor (UCB's Wild Horses) opens up about her struggles with feeling like a fraud, people pleasing, shame, FOMO, feeling undeserving or that her authentic self is just too much for people. Older episodes can be found ad-free exclusively at Stitcher Premium for $4.99/month.  Get one month free with offer code MENTAL at signup at www.StitcherPremium.com/mentalpod   Hear guests like: Tiffany Haddish, Marc Maron, Maria Bamford, Melissa Villasenor, NHL Legend Theo Fleury, Aisha Tyler, S...more

  • Chris Mancini - A Buffet of Anxiety

    Nov 09 2018

    The filmmaker (Earbuds) podcaster (Comedy Film Nerds and Conversations From the Abyss) writer (Pacified: A Handbook For the New Freaked-Out Dad) and comedian sits down to talk about anxiety, depression, parental stress/anxiety and feeling career disappointment/frustration/doubt.  He also talks about the Earbuds documentary and the importance of human connection not only in dealing with mental struggles but between podcasts and listeners.   Older episodes can be found ad-free exclusively at Stitc...more

  • Mania, Cancer, Communism & #MeToo - Sofiya Alexandra

    Nov 02 2018

    The writer (Danger & Eggs) standup (Comedy Central: This is Not Happening) & podcaster (Reality Bytes) shares about her childhood under communism in the Ukraine, her battles with bipolar (loving the mania), surviving cancer and how to help or talk to someone with it and how all of us can help the #MeToo movement, especially powerful people who caused harm. Older episodes can be found ad-free exclusively at Stitcher Premium for $4.99/month.  Get one month free with offer code MENTAL at signup at ...more

  • Lazy, Scattered & Other ADHD Labels - Jessica McCabe

    Oct 26 2018

    "Bored", "lazy", "scattered" "hyper"; Are these fair or accurate labels? Is there anything we can do to help our brains or motivation? Jessica shares about her past struggles with these labels and how we can find what our brain likes so we don't fight it's natural impulses, rather work with them instead applying a quick and dismissive label. She dispels some myths about ADD/ADHD and reveals some truths that aren't commonly known about it.  She also talks about her childhood and how negative even...more

  • It's Okay To Be Weird - May Wilkerson

    Oct 19 2018

    The standup & cohost of the "Crazy in Bed" podcast opens up about being an only child & a "weird kid" who couldn't appreciate her uniqueness and desire to belong until college. She shares about her battles with social anxiety, bulimia, drinking, insomnia, racing thoughts, being left out and feeling guilty for coming from privilege.  She and Paul also talk about their histories of taking meds and their side effects and finding a home in support groups despite thinking they wouldn't work. Older ep...more

  • OCD Rituals, Loss & Empathy - Adam Cayton-Holland

    Oct 12 2018

    The standup, actor and author shares about familial loss, his lifelong OCD rituals, and growing up in a home where the harsh and often brutal realities of the world were discussed with the kids, helping them empathize but also took an emotional toll. Older episodes can be found ad-free exclusively at Stitcher Premium for $4.99/month.  Get one month free with offer code MENTAL at signup at www.StitcherPremium.com/mentalpod   Hear guests like: Tiffany Haddish, Marc Maron, Maria Bamford, Melissa Vi...more

  • Mariel Hemingway

    Oct 05 2018

    The actress, mental health activist and author (Out Came the Sun: Overcoming the Legacy of Mental Illness, Addiction and Suicide in My Family) and granddaughter of writer Ernest Hemingway shares about the him, her family, acting, generational trauma, mental illness, addiction/alcoholism and dysfunction and how she has learned to deal with her codependence and fear of letting go especially thru her relationships, nature, supplements and lesser-known therapies. Older episodes can be found ad-free ...more

  • Dealing With Hopelessness - AFSP Psychiatrist Dr. Christine Moutier

    Sep 28 2018

    The psychiatrist and chief medical officer for the American Foundation for Suicide Prevention shares insights into dealing with hopelessness both personally and with loved ones. The Suicide Hotline number is 1-800-273-TALK Older episodes can be found ad-free exclusively at Stitcher Premium for $4.99/month. Get one month free with offer code MENTAL at signup at www.StitcherPremium.com/mentalpod Hear guests like: Tiffany Haddish, Marc Maron, Maria Bamford, Melissa Villasenor, NHL Legend Theo Fleur...more

  • Paul in Ireland VI - Terror, Hate & Forgiveness - Sponsored by BetterHelp

    Sep 21 2018

    Belfast native James Murray shares his story of surviving a terrorist attack, spiraling into drinking and anger then getting sober and finding peace & forgiveness and how he maintains it. He also shares about the benefits of ayahuasca. Older episodes can be found ad-free exclusively at Stitcher Premium for $4.99/month.  Get one month free with offer code MENTAL at signup at www.StitcherPremium.com/mentalpod   Hear guests like: Tiffany Haddish, Marc Maron, Maria Bamford, Melissa Villasenor, NHL L...more

  • Paul in Ireland V - Ex IRA Prisoner Jake MacSiacais - Sponsored by BetterHelp

    Sep 14 2018

    The former IRA fighter/volunteer shares his people's history, his years of imprisonment & torture by Protestants and the British govt, the responsibility he feels for civilian lives that were taken by his organization, watching fellow prisoner Bobby Sands die by hunger strike, finding ways to survive mentally and how the emotions surfaced unexpectedly years later.  Older episodes can be found ad-free exclusively at Stitcher Premium for $4.99/month.  Get one month free with offer code MENTAL at s...more

  • Paul in Ireland IV - Emma - Sponsored by BetterHelp

    Sep 07 2018

    The English architect (and yoga teacher) talks about navigating relationships being bisexual, finding solutions for her lifelong bouts with anxiety, recurrent depressive disorder, abusive partners and bottoming out with a suicide attempt. Older episodes can be found ad-free exclusively at Stitcher Premium for $4.99/month.  Get one month free with offer code MENTAL at signup at www.StitcherPremium.com/mentalpod     Support Our Sponsors!   This episode is sponsored by BetterHelp online counseling....more

  • Paul in Ireland III- Caitlin - Sponsored by BetterHelp

    Aug 31 2018

    The 29 year-old Dubliner opens up about her struggles with depression, psychosis, cutting/self-harm, alcohol, anger, learning disability (seeing letters mirrored) & spatial/motor control; also her suicide attempt and it finally expressing her pain despite feeling numb. Older episodes can be found ad-free exclusively at Stitcher Premium for $4.99/month.  Get one month free with offer code MENTAL at signup at www.StitcherPremium.com/mentalpod     Support Our Sponsors!   This episode is sponsored b...more

  • Paul in Ireland II - Sponsored by BetterHelp - Michael Corr/Belfast

    Aug 24 2018

    Born in Belfast, Northern Ireland to a Catholic father and Protestant mother. He had the rare perspective of seeing all sides of the conflict both inside and outside his home, where he was raised Catholic in a violently Protestant neighborhood.  He shares stories of having to endure violence walking to school every day because of his easily identifiable Catholic uniform.   Today he is an architect who works on global projects that try to bring together communities torn apart by differences and v...more

  • Paul in Ireland I - Sponsored by BetterHelp - Bipolar & BDP in Dublin

    Aug 17 2018

    21 year-old M emigrated to Dublin from China at 8. With a history of abuse and neglect, she learned to stuff her sadness or unleash it thru anger. She battles Bipolar I, BPD, Complex PTSD & co-dependence but is developing tools & support.  She talks about growing up with conditional love and physical violence where emotions like sadness weren't allowed.  Her girlfriend A sits in and talks about supporting her and how they formed a bond in their all-girl secondary school over sharing mental illne...more

  • ECT aka "Shock Therapy" - Beth May

    Aug 10 2018

    At 27 Beth has had 68 ECT treatments aka "Shock Therapy" and while she attests to it's effectiveness in helping her with her bipolar episodes it has also taken a toll on her memory; including not recognizing her boyfriend of several years. Older episodes can be found ad-free exclusively at Stitcher Premium for $4.99/month.  Get one month free with offer code MENTAL at signup at www.StitcherPremium.com/mentalpod     More About Our Guest Social media: @heybethmay Email: tobethmay@gmail.com -Articl...more

  • Fetish Shame, Meds & Martial Arts - Dylan Brody

    Aug 03 2018

    The writer/storyteller discusses the lifelong struggle to make peace with his amputation fetish, his ups and downs with taking meds, inheriting his dad's pomposity, suicidal ideation and the benefits of martial arts in dealing with depression and anxiety. Older episodes can be found ad-free exclusively at Stitcher Premium for $4.99/month.  Get one month free with offer code MENTAL at signup at www.StitcherPremium.com/mentalpod     More About Our Guest www.DylanBrody.com www.twitter.com/DylanBrod...more

  • Dealing With Addicts - Dr Cali Estes

    Jul 27 2018

    Cali's specialty is speaking the truth to high-profile or wealthy people trying to get sober, especially when they're being enabled by family, hangers-on or the people they make money for. Topics are : codependency, low self-esteem & boundaries Older episodes can be found ad-free exclusively at Stitcher Premium for $4.99/month.  Get one month free with offer code MENTAL at signup at www.StitcherPremium.com/mentalpod     More About Our Guest Click here for more information on Dr. Cali Estes. Face...more

  • Art & War - Vietnam Vet Michael Duffy

    Jul 20 2018

    He was just a kid who wanted to get into art school but when he was rejected, he instead got sent to Vietnam. Later he would use painting to process the traumas he experienced. Older episodes can be found ad-free exclusively at Stitcher Premium for $4.99/month.  Get one month free with offer code MENTAL at signup at www.StitcherPremium.com/mentalpod     More About Our Guest Here is some of the artwork by Michael http://collection.nvam.org/index.php?artist=Duffy%2C+Michael Additional artwork can ...more

  • Meredith Erin - Trolls & SJWs

    Jul 13 2018

    Paul and Meredith share their stories and thoughts about encountering internet trolls, Social Justice Warriors gone awry and self-righteous bullies.   Older episodes can be found ad-free exclusively at Stitcher Premium for $4.99/month.  Get one month free with offer code MENTAL at signup at www.StitcherPremium.com/mentalpod     More About Our Guest For more info on Meredith Website: https://www.boredwalktshirts.com/ Twitter: https://twitter.com/boredwalktees Instagram: https://www.instagram.com/...more

  • Brian Huskey - Codependency & Love

    Jul 06 2018

    The improvisor/actor (Comedy Bang Bang, UCB, Adult Swim - Mr. Neighbor's House) shares about dealing with his co-dependency, urge to fix other people, play the resentful victim and how support groups help him. Older episodes can be found ad-free exclusively at Stitcher Premium for $4.99/month.  Get one month free with offer code MENTAL at signup at www.StitcherPremium.com/mentalpod     More About Our Guest Follow Brian on Twitter @TheBrianHuskey Check out Mr. Neighbor's House and Mr. Neighbor'...more

  • Sexism PTSD & The Body - Elizabeth Menzel

    Jun 29 2018

    Elizabeth Menzel's life's work is understanding and healing trauma trapped in the body - including her own. Originally a trained physical therapist she became intrigued by the link between clients with fibromyalgia and a history of trauma.  She found help in Somatic Experiencing and other modes of releasing trauma.  She talks about the science of releasing tension and stress, PTSD and sexism - including sharing her own struggles coming from a childhood with an overtly misogynistic father.   Olde...more

  • Female Domestic Violence Against Males

    Jun 22 2018

    Daniel looks back at his relationship with his soon-to-be-ex-wife; turning from the woman of his dreams to a dangerously violent and unpredictable stranger. He talks about the myths around female on male DV and his experiences before leaving her   Older episodes can be found ad-free exclusively at Stitcher Premium for $4.99/month.  Get one month free with offer code MENTAL at signup at www.StitcherPremium.com/mentalpod     Support Our Sponsors! This episode is sponsored by BetterHelp online coun...more

  • Social Anxiety - Dr Ellen Hendriksen

    Jun 15 2018

    The author of How To Be Yourself: Quiet Your Inner Critic and Rise Above Social Anxiety, and Harvard Medical School Psychologist shares not only the science of Social Anxiety and ways to deal with it but some of her own battles with it.       Older episodes can be found ad-free exclusively at Stitcher Premium for $4.99/month.  Get one month free with offer code MENTAL at signup at www.StitcherPremium.com/mentalpod     More About Our Guest Retailer link for Dr Hendriksen's book: https://www.amaz...more

  • Jessa Reed - Trailer Park Survivor

    Jun 07 2018

    Few guests have revealed as much of themselves as Jessa, a comic and podcaster (Mormon and the Meth-Head)  We touch on being molested, fear of intimacy, addiction, mending relationships, sobriety, anger, psych wards, rejection, sexual fantasies most people would never share publicly (rape, being cheated on), psychosis, binge eating and the lengths we will go to get attention.   Older episodes can be found ad-free exclusively at Stitcher Premium for $4.99/month.  Get one month free with offer cod...more

  • Clutter, Hoarding & "Stuff" - Tracy McCubbin

    Jun 01 2018

    Decluttering expert Tracy McCubbin shares about her experiences being raised by a hoarder and how she helps clients part with their stuff. She and Paul get into the topics of materialism, cheap-goods consumerism, compulsive shopping and using "stuff", especially collecting to avoid feelings or issues in our lives. Older episodes can be found ad-free exclusively at Stitcher Premium for $4.99/month.  Get one month free with offer code MENTAL at signup at www.StitcherPremium.com/mentalpod   Subscri...more

  • Unspeakable Trauma to Meth Psychosis - Todd G

    May 25 2018

    Paul's friend shares about the co-dependent relationship with his longtime lover that ended in tragedy & Todd's PTSD, porn & meth binges tailspinning into a showdown on his roof vs a SWAT team, before finally having a moment of clarity and getting his life together piece by piece. Episodes older than one year can be found ad-free exclusively at Stitcher Premium for $4.99/month.   Get one month free by using offer code MENTAL at signup at www.StitcherPremium.com/mentalpod. Subscriptions include e...more

  • Best Of: Tiffany Haddish

    May 18 2018

    One of our best episodes - recorded in 2015 before she was famous (Girl's Trip, Saturday Night Live) - Tiffany opens up about her horrific family life, being shuttled around the foster care system and finally finding her voice doing comedy.   The full archive of MIHH shows one year and older can be found exclusively on Stitcher Premium. For a free month of listening, go to stitcherpremium.com/mentalpod and use promo code 'MENTAL'.   This episode is sponsored by BetterHelp.  To get your first wee...more

  • Singer-Songwriter Chris Smither

    May 11 2018

    The blues-based singer-songwriter who has written for Bonnie Raitt and other artists started out in the epicenter of the NY/Boston folk scene among contemporaries like Bob Dylan and Eric Von Schmidt reminisces about his career, the art of songwriting, jamming with blues legends like Son House, his battles with alcoholism and what success means both professionally and personally. He performs Train Home and Leave The Light On. This week's post-interview surveys and Chris' performance of By The Num...more

  • Melissa Broder aka @SoSadToday returns

    May 04 2018

    The hilarious author and uber-popular Tweeter @SoSadToday delves into subjects covered in her latest book, The Pisces (and reads from it). She and Paul talk about romantic obsession, sexual compulsion that leads to shame and regret; the overall search to fill the nothingness in a futile attempt to know the unknowable and the animal part of the brain that overrides logic. Follow Melissa on Twitter @SoSadToday Buy her newest book The Pisces This episode is sponsored by BetterHelp.  To get your fir...more

  • Andy Richter

    Apr 27 2018

    The comedic actor, improviser and longtime Conan O'Brien sidekick opens up about his battles with depression, worry, anxiety and sadness and how he has learned to manage them with talk therapy. He also shares about the illusion he held that acquiring money and getting married would "fix him". He talks about growing up in a combative, eventually-divorced house where humor was prized and how he felt shortly after that, learning his father had come out as gay. Follow Andy on Twitter @AndyRichter Ch...more

  • Nora McInerny - Live in Minneapolis

    Apr 20 2018

    The host of the Terrible Thanks For Asking podcast and author of It's Okay To Laugh (Crying is Cool Too) sits down with Paul before a live audience to talk about how she processed (and still is) the grief of losing family members and dealing with her depression and anxiety. A funny and touching conversation. For more on Nora go to www.NoraBorealis.com Follow her on twitter @NoraBorealis Follow her on Instagram @NoraBorealis Follow her on Facebook at www.Facebook.com/NoraBorealis Check out her po...more

  • Cy Amundson Live in Minneapolis

    Apr 13 2018

    The actor/comedian (Comedy Central Presents: Cy Amundson) opens up in front of a live audience about his OCD, anxiety and how the loss of his teenage sister affected him and his family. For more on Cy visit   www.cycomedy.com www.twitter.com/cyamundson Cy's Facebook Page Cy's Comedy Albums This episode is sponsored by BetterHelp.  To get your first week of online counseling free go to www.BetterHelp.com/mental  Must be 18 To become a monthly donor for as little as $1/month (and qualify for bonus...more

  • Judging Our Feelings - TED Talk speaker Dr. Susan David

    Apr 06 2018

    The Harvard Medical School research psychologist's recent TED Talk "The Gift and Power of Emotional Courage" went viral a month or so ago and here she sits down with Paul to talk about the human habit of judging ourselves for our feelings, how it affects us, the science behind it and how we can move away from toxic self-judgement. She also shares some of her personal life; being born and raised in South Africa during Apartheid and losing a parent when she was a child. For more about her check ou...more

  • Polyamory - Daisy & Cory

    Mar 30 2018

    Daisy (with Cory for support) shares about her emotionally absent parents, Taiwanese culture, her anxiety, need to control, fear of making mistakes, struggling to find a sense of self and the imprint left on her by pleasing her emotionally withdrawn/critical mother at any cost. They share about the specifics of their polyamorous relationship and agreements/boundaries vs open ones and monogamous ones. Daisy talks about the struggle of being a jealous person in a poly partnership and her need for ...more

  • Workaholism & Anxiety - Jordan Harbinger

    Mar 23 2018

    The hilarious, self-depreciating podcaster (Jordan Harbinger Show) and ex-lawyer opens up about a recent professional crisis that left him with extraordinary anxiety, insomnia and panic attacks.  He talks about often feeling like a fraud, (also known as imposter syndrome), workaholism and difficulty in finding who he is outside of his work.   For more on Jordan: Website: www.jordanharbinger.com Twitter www.twitter.com/jordanharbinger Instagram www.instagram.com/jordanharbinger Facebook www.faceb...more

  • My Brain Hates Me - Jessie Dean Altman

    Mar 16 2018

    The writer (Lady Parts, The Onion) and dog walker shares about the lifelong battle she has had with her brain and emotions including: Intrusive thoughts, OCD, treatment-resistant depression, procrastination, self-judgment, and anger. She shares how REBT was a game changer for helping her cope. Follow Jessie on Twitter at www.twitter.com/NicCageMatch This episode is sponsored by BetterHelp.  To get your first week of online counseling free go to www.BetterHelp.com/mental  Must be 18   To become a...more

  • The Devil & James Bond - Michael Cannan

    Mar 09 2018

    Paul's support group friend, recovering heroin addict and author shares about his upbringing on the Isle of Mann (UK) and the shame and anxiety he felt about secrets in his family and within himself. He opens up about his psychosis that convinced him that not only was he the devil he was also James Bond. He touches on his battles with depression, anxiety, panic attacks, codependency, religious delusions and grappling with the idea of what it means to be a man. For more on Michael Website: michae...more

  • CC Sheffield - Fame, Money & Abuse

    Mar 02 2018

    Originally recorded while speaking under the pseudonym "Daisy" to protect her from her abusive ex-fiancee, CC, a successful model, DJ and actress describes the abusive relationship she struggled to leave with a wealthy, powerful and manipulative drug addict/alcoholic who had turned increasingly violent and controlling. She talks about the emotionally difficult Mormon household she ran from at 17 to find herself sleeping in her car on the streets of LA, surviving a rape and using music to express...more

  • Heartbreak - The Science & Coping - Dr. Guy Winch

    Feb 23 2018

    Renowned author & TedTalk speaker Dr. Guy Winch talks about different kinds of heartbreak, especially the ones some people  minimize (loss of pets or non-married breakups). He gets into the science of how our brains react to loss, how we experience this emotionally and some tips for coping or supporting someone.   More About Guy His new TED Talk about heartbreak: https://www.ted.com/talks/guy_winch_how_to_fix_a_broken_heart How to Fix a Broken Heart book on Amazon: https://www.amazon.com/How-Fix...more

  • Horror & Beauty - Witnesses to a Shooting

    Feb 16 2018

    Paul is joined by two support group friends, Jonathan & Mukunda, to talk about their experience 3 weeks earlier when a shooting victim stumbled into their meeting and began bleeding out at their feet. Jonathan and Mukunda, both sober and ex-criminals, talk about how they were able to respond differently today than they would have when they were gangbangers. This episode is sponsored by BetterHelp.com  To experience a free week of online counseling go to www.BetterHelp.com/mental  Must be 18.   T...more

  • Female Sex Addiction - Erica Garza

    Feb 09 2018

    The Salon contributor and author of Getting Off: One Woman's Journey Through Sex and Porn Addiction shares about her sex addiction, which began at age 12 after discovering masturbation as a way of soothing her anxiety and not having to deal with her feelings but over time escalated into riskier and more addictive behavior which she eventually sought help for. She shares about the odd relationship shame and pleasure have for her when acting out and how today she can have sexual experiences that a...more

  • The Dark Grip of OCD - Dr. Jenny Yip

    Feb 02 2018

    She battled OCD as a child but when she gave birth to twins it gripped her again despite being a trained psychologist who specializes in...yes...OCD. A great episode about the power fear, dark thoughts and shame in fueling OCD but also the power of getting help. She tearfully recalls her obsessive monitoring of her newborns despite being exhausted; being gripped by fear, almost certainty of their imminent deaths if she left their side. Dr Yip shares about her postpartum OCD and OCD in general, h...more

  • Food Owns Me, Anger & Dad Issues - Jay Larson

    Jan 26 2018

    The writer (HBO's Crashing) and stand-up (Me Being Me) opens up about his dad abandoning his family when he was 2 years-old and how that has effected his view of the world, himself and now his children. He talks about his struggles with food, anger, making mistakes, letting people into his life for fear of them disappointing him and he also discusses his need as a child to care for his overburdened mother after his father left. For more on Jay, including his new special "Me Being Me" go to www.J...more

  • Couple Troubles - Jen Elmquist LMFT

    Jan 19 2018

    Couple's therapist Jen Elmquist sits down with Paul and answers questions about the most common mistakes and hurdles couples face and offers advice on how to value your partner and relationship without devaluing yourself. There are no surveys in this episode as Paul will explain in the opening 20 minutes. Moments before he sat to record he was at his usual Thursday night support group meeting when it was interrupted by a shooting outside their building and the bleeding victim taking refuge in hi...more

  • Network Anchor Panic Attack - Dan Harris

    Jan 12 2018

    Imagine having a panic attack live on-air while anchoring ABC news. That happened to Dan Harris in 2004. The Nightline anchor, Good Morning America Weekend Co-anchor, war correspondent and author (10% Happier) opens up about his history of anxiety, depression, drug abuse (he's now sober) and witnessing horrific scenes while reporting in conflict zones. He talks about being skeptical at first about meditating but after researching it like a reporter, interviewing scientists and trying it himself ...more

  • My Fair Junkie - Amy Dresner

    Jan 05 2018

    The author (My Fair Junkie) details her jaw-dropping and often hilarious descent from a nice (but spoiled) Jewish girl from Beverly Hills to shooting coke into her neck, bottoming out on meth and sex and being assigned to a chain gang after threatening her ex-husband with a knife and ultimately having to rebuild her life.  She shares on her struggled with self-harm, BDD, depression, anxiety, sex addiction, suicide attempts, psych ward stays, fear of growing up, the danger of relying on her fathe...more

  • Asperger's, Nerd Culture & Anime - Luke Palmer

    Dec 29 2017

    The young writer/director (2 Kawaii 4 Comfort) shares about the intersection of people on the autism spectrum (especially Asperger's) and nerd culture especially anime. He opens up about his diagnosis as a child, different therapies his parents tried and what it feels like to be on the spectrum. He talks about a lot of the myths and stereotypes of people on the spectrum and how he has changed from an angry, withdrawn non-verbal child to an adult who is able to function easily in mainstream socie...more

  • Born Into A Notorious Criminal Family - Nicole Y.

    Dec 22 2017

    Born mixed-race to a white prostitute mother and a black, pimp father, Nicole grew up belonging to one of the most notorious families in the Boston underworld. Having seen and experienced unimaginable things, she found an outlet in music and finally gained a sense of self until drugs and alcohol stepped in. She shares about her new path in healing the PTSD, staying sober and trying to realize her artistic dreams. She also touches on being a lesbian, having a nervous breakdown and a dogged belief...more

  • Military PTSD & Sexism - Marc & Sonja Raciti

    Dec 15 2017

    Marc and Sonja Raciti both served in the military; he as a medic, she as a psychologist. They talk about PTSD myths and the PTSD he struggles with from fearing for his life to seeing unspeakable carnage to having survivor's guilt. She weighs in as his supportive partner, a therapist, and an ex-officer who witnessed and experienced both overt and subtle sexism while she served. They also address how Marc has been able to heal thru exposure therapy and EMDR.   Buy Marc and Sonja's book about his b...more

  • High School Tornado/Author Seamus Kirst

    Dec 08 2017

    In a live show recorded in Oakland, the 26 year-old writer (Shitfaced) discusses the loving but strained atmosphere growing up and his teenage years attempting suicide, drinking his way to rehabs and an eating disorder. He shares about making peace with being gay, therapy and the importance of writing and using other emotional tools today to keep him sane. Buy ‘Shitfaced’ on Amazon: https://www.amazon.com/Shitfaced-Musings-Former-Seamus-Kirst/dp/069282281X   Follow Seamus on Twitter and Instagra...more

  • The Absent Father Wound - Daria Polatin

    Dec 01 2017

    The award-winning playwright, t.v. writer (Jack Ryan)and author (Devil in Ohio) opens up about feeling abandoned by her father and the effect it has had on how she views herself, her place in it and the conscious decision she has made to become the hero of her own story by dealing with her fears of not being enough or taking chances. She shares about the catharsis of putting dark parts of herself in some of her characters and she and Paul talk about the awful feelings of jealousy or envy towards...more

  • Alt Depression Treatments - Shane Mauss

    Nov 24 2017

    The standup/podcaster (Here We Are podcast) shares about taking unconventional approaches to his battles with depression and hopelessness. He opens up about his kind but very religious and uncommunicative parents and the hometown where things weren't questioned and getting help was considered weak or weird. For more about Shane and his A Good Trip tour go to www.ShaneMauss.com Follow Shane on Twitter at @ShaneComedy Listen to his podcast at www.HereWeArepodcast.com or on Apple Podcasts here  Thi...more

  • Kelly's Shame and Secrets

    Nov 17 2017

    Growing up Kelly McCarron's home life wasn't chaotic or abusive but she still struggles mentally and emotionally. After filling out the show's Shame and Secrets survey she reads it aloud, touching on the issues of self-esteem, the aftermath of being sexually assaulted by a co-worker at 18, binge eating, social anxiety, BiPolar, loneliness, being bullied in middle school and giving up on a painful relationship with a sibling. Follow Kelly on YouTube  Check out her standup on Open Comedy Follow he...more

  • Success-Obsessed Parents & The Scapegoat Child

    Nov 10 2017

    30 year-old Mary M. left America for Europe to escape not only an American culture that was wearing on her but a family where she was tired of being the scapegoat to her golden-child brother.  An all-too-common scenario where her parents can only seem to support her financially but not emotionally. She discusses the prejudice she experiences as a queer woman of color, what she has learned by having a fiancee who is a trans man and the subtle politics of skin color within the black community. Oth...more

  • #355 Afraid To Leave The House - Sam Harriman

    Nov 02 2017

    Panic attacks, agoraphobia, anxiety and depression had brought Sam to a very dark place a few years ago and he decided he needed help. Bit by bit he began to see how his childhood and negative self-beliefs had to be re-examined. A new clarity on the dysfunction in his family (a disinterested workaholic dad and a controlling, angry mother) gave him the hope to began protecting himself from the pain of having them in his life. A great episode on self-care, cutting contact with parents, re-parentin...more

  • #354 Surviving Suicide - Kelechi Ubozoh

    Oct 27 2017

    The 32 year-old poet, mental health advocate and daughter of a Nigerian immigrant father and Brooklyn mother opens up to Paul about her emotional and mental turnaround after years of feeling suicidal and several times attempting it. She details the ways her depression, disconnection and fear of taking off her "mask" as the perfect, popular girl played in leading her to believe it was a good idea. She and Paul discuss possible ways loved ones can reach out to someone who is talking about suicide ...more

  • #353 Andy Kindler - OCD, ADD, Twitter Fights & More

    Oct 20 2017

    Paul's longtime friend, standup (Letterman) and actor (Everybody Loves Raymond) shares about his struggles with OCD, ADD and feeling the need to control people's opinions about his behavior even after lashing out at someone. He talks about his childhood and the negative self-beliefs and self-hatred that he's now understanding have been driving his behaviors and fears.   For more on Andy go to www.AndyKindler.com  www.Facebook.com/AndyKindler or www.Twitter.com/AndyKindler   This ep is sponsored ...more

  • #352 Caitlin Doughty: Death, OCD & Being a Mortician

    Oct 13 2017

    The mortician, TED Talk speaker and author of Smoke Gets In Your Eyes, talks about her childhood OCD and fascination with death as a result of witnessing a tragedy, how she'd like to see the American funeral industry change and how death is viewed/embraced around the world via a read excerpt from her new book From Here To Eternity: Traveling the World To Find The Good Death.   Follow Caitlin on Instagram @TheGoodDeath Follow Caitlin on Twitter @TheGoodDeath Check out her website www.CaitlinDough...more

  • #351 Fears, Loves, Filth & Mortality w Greg Behrendt

    Oct 05 2017

    The comedian, co-author of He's Just Not That Into You and longtime friend of Paul drops by to lighten his day up. They laugh at their fears, loves and thoughts about mortality and getting older.   Check out Greg's PODCAN podcast network Here is the episode with Paul that he talked about Follow him on Twitter @GregoryBehrendt Check out his website http://www.gregorybehrendt.com/ Visit his Facebook Page   This ep is sponsored by BetterHelp online therapy.  To try a week of counseling for free go ...more

  • #350 Intrusive Thoughts OCD aka "Pure OCD" - Kimberley Quinlan LMFT

    Sep 29 2017

    Specializing in treating clients whose self-judgement of their thoughts results in obsession and compulsions, Kimberley sits down with Paul and talks about the different forms OCD can take and how to treat it or support someone you love without enabling their compulsions.  She and Paul also play a game she plays with clients called "One Up" where they try to outdo each other in sharing "disgusting" things that pop into their brains to show we all have thoughts pop into our heads that make us unc...more

  • Manipulative or Coercive Sex

    Sep 22 2017

    Paul's support group friend Meredith opens up about being raised by parents who lacked a sense of privacy or sexual boundaries; being sexualized by her father, mother (who has a long history of "accidentally" showing her vagina) and step-mother in covert but damaging ways, being comfortable giving help but not taking it or asking for it; being a perfectionist, self-harm, being attracted to emotionally unavailable men ( #loveaddiction ) and being on both ends of manipulative/coercive sexual exper...more

  • #348 Manhattan Party Girl - Fielding Edlow

    Sep 15 2017

    Raised in financial privilege but emotional poverty, the actor/writer/standup reflects on her "don't give a fuck" eating disorder, drug and alcohol years trying to stuff the real feelings of abandonment, not being good enough, anxiety, anger and feeling invisible especially in comparison to her golden-child brother. She gets honest about the "self-centered demon inside me" that drove her actions until sobering up almost 20 years ago and learning to deal with her insecurities, fears and anger by ...more

  • #347 Paul Rust - Anxiety, OCD & Embarrassment

    Sep 08 2017

    The actor/writer/comedian known for the Netflix show Love, the movie Inglourious Basterds and IFC's Comedy Bang! Bang! opens up about his battles with anxiety, OCD, taking on other people's emotions, people pleasing, wanting attention, shame, fear of letting people down and the role vulnerability and therapy have played in him finding emotional stability and peace.   Follow Paul on Twitter @PaulRust Follow Paul on Instagram @PaulRust   This episode is sponsored by BetterHelp online counseling.  ...more

  • #346 Plane Crash Survivor: Carol E Miller

    Sep 01 2017

    The author (Every Moment of a Fall: Recovery Thru EMDR Therapy) opens up in front of a live audience in Oakland about the years she abused herself through bad relationships, booze and sex before therapy and EMDR helped her confront her true feelings about her predatory father, passive mother, abusive step-father and the plane crash she survived as a 16 year-old. Visit Carol's website www.Carol-E-Miller.com Buy her book Every Moment of a Fall: Recovery Thru EMDR Therapy This episode is sponsored...more

  • #345 Food, Porn, Shame, Vulnerability & Losing a Sibling - Matt Shepherd

    Aug 24 2017

    Paul's support group friend shares about recovery and battles with binge-eating, shame, compulsive exercise, not knowing what he looks like, porn addiction, love addiction, fear of leaving relationships, feeling like he "is enough", growing up in a family where one sibling takes up all the parents' attention and energy, surviving the suicide of his brother and the huge impact learning to be vulnerable has had on his healing and life in general. Find out more about Matt at: Youtube: www.youtube.c...more

  • #344 If Only You Knew This Secret

    Aug 18 2017

    YouTube personality Sarah Sterling is 26 and was obsessed with Harry Potter (and Disney) since day one. At a convention she met a singer who captivated her. He was 24 and she was 16. Looking back, she sees it as statutory rape and is processing that. What's possibly even harder to process for her is that she still hasn't told her overly-protective easily-overreactive mom. Sarah talks about how she has always felt the need to protect her mom from information that would set off her anxiety and the...more

  • #343 British Therapist Louise M

    Aug 11 2017

    Louise (a pseudonym) shares about the moment in her otherwise mostly happy childhood that things changed.  She shares about the abuse at a posh Harry-Potteresque school when she was six by a headmaster who walked the dark halls with a torch; her mom's drinking, letting go of childhood shame, fear of conflict, how parents can support an abused child, when kids sexually abuse other kids, inner child work, Britain's NHS, and trying to cope with past trauma thru drugs and sex.   This episode is spon...more

  • #342 When Your Trauma Informs Your Turn Ons

    Aug 04 2017

    Why do some people enjoy physical pain or become aroused by it? For Kal, the discovery came with a lot of complications; he was a young boy and it was at the hands of a powerful and sadistic pedophile Rabbi (Heshy Brier) who is now a fugitive living in Israel. Kal shares about his years of self-destruction and bottoming out before eventually getting sober and starting the process of healing and advocating for other survivors. This episode is sponsored by BetterHelp online therapy. To try a week ...more

  • #341 80's Childhood Shitshow! - Dana Eagle

    Jul 28 2017

    Imagine getting gay hate mail from your own family.  Or finding a letter where your parents talk about you in a way that confirms your worst fears.  How does Bipolar 2 compare to having something like cancer?  Comedian and author (How To Be Depressed: A Guide) Dana Eagle opens up about being a lonely kid in the 80s whose parents couldn't relate to her perhaps b/c her dad was alcoholic or her mom was thriving in her corporate job.  Or is it genetic?  Paul and Dana talk about art, comedy, shame, m...more

  • #339 I Wrote A Hit Now What?!! - Seth Swirsky

    Jul 14 2017

    He's authored Grammy-nominated hits for the biggest artists, put out his own albums, written best-selling books on baseball, and directed a documentary on the Beatles.  And for as long as he can remember he has struggled with anxiety, panic attacks and feeling disconnected.  What happens when you're achieving your dreams but you haven't dealt with the feelings underneath the drive to be recognized?  Seth got his masters in clinical psychology.  He opens up about his life and his approach to deal...more

  • #338 Dear Food: I Want To See Other People

    Jul 07 2017

    Fat-shamed as a child by her mother and classmates, writer-performer Chelsea Frank, now 24, opens up about the complex role food plays in her life.  She talks about her struggles with weight, self-hatred, bingeing and restricting, going to "fat camps", life inside an eating disorder rehab and cutting contact with her abusive mother. Follow Chelsea on Twitter @ChelseaSFrank and on Instagram @ChelseaFrank This episode is sponsored by BetterHelp online counseling.  To try a free week go to www.Bett...more

  • #337 - Raised in Repression & BPD - Anne from Berlin

    Jun 30 2017

    Creative and sensitive, born and raised in 1980's communist East Germany by a dysfunctional family, Anne's abuse was not dramatic, more like death by 1000 cuts.  Bearing the brunt of being a first child and resented for her intelligence, she developed BPD (Borderline Personality Disorder) but has always turned the anger inwards, rarely if ever lashing out.  She talks about the benefits of learning DBT (Dialectical Behavior Therapy) as well as her struggles with anorexia, bingeing, cutting and be...more

  • #336 Jealousy & Internet Affairs - Mila

    Jun 23 2017

    What goes on in someone when they're jealous, possessive, obsessive or need to create drama?  Mila was born into a family where her parents "couldn't live with/couldn't live without each other"  and she found herself as an adult becoming like them, She also began snooping on her partners and engaging in online and in-person affairs despite knowing better and wanting to stop but unable to leave her cold and uninterested husband.   This episode is sponsored by BetterHelp online counseling.  To try...more

  • #335 From Hostile to Peaceful - JT

    Jun 16 2017

    19 year-old JT shares about the crippling anxiety, panic attacks and fear of abandonment he tried to alleviate for years through being hostile and controlling (of course it backfired) before finally deciding to get help. He shares with Paul the painful working-class childhood he had including the death of his parents when he was 8 and embracing his sexuality at 16. He talks about the importance mindfulness has played in helping him find the peace that has allowed him to deal with his anxiety. Th...more

  • #334 Abused By Her Therapist - Christina L

    Jun 09 2017

    Christina L (a pseudonym) shares about learning to stand up for herself after an abusive rehab therapist preyed on her as she was getting sober and the confusion of not knowing what he was doing was wrong.  She shares about her dysfunctional family, being bullied by boys in middle school, binge eating, and always being the "good child" by never making waves (unlike her sister who got most of the attention through speaking up or getting in trouble) but also never learning how to talk to her paren...more

  • #333 - When Sex Abuse Victims Become Adults & Avoiding Help/Work Burnout - Katie Vernoy LMFT

    Jun 01 2017

    LMFT therapist Katie Vernoy and Paul respond to listener questions around the topics of 1) How childhood sexual abuse affects the survivors when they become adults and 2) How can people avoid job or helping burnout. They talk about the specifics of self-care and coping tips, acceptance vs approval, forgiveness, anger, misguided generosity, overprotective parents, people who can't say no and is it possible for a younger child to sexually abuse an older child? Katie's website: www.evolvetothrivec...more

  • #332 Obsessive & Secret World of Classical Musicians - Ben Turner

    May 26 2017

    The Australian professional trombonist shares about the mental, emotional and logistical rigors of making a living as a classical musician and some insights into what drove him (and his peers) to such obsessive lengths. We get a peek behind the curtain into the dysfunction and sickness that can fester in such a high-pressure workplace and the poor coping mechanisms used by people who were raised to stuff emotions and just achieve to receive love. We touch on depression, anxiety, therapy, people ...more

  • #331 The Worst Day of My Life - Rhonda Britten

    May 19 2017

    Rhonda says "It took me 20 years to get thru that day" as she opens up about the event that changed her life forever when she was 14 years old.   She talks about how it changed her view of God, herself and the world around her, sending her on a path or self-destruction she barely survived until finally dealing with the pain and anger, eventually healing and finding her life's purpose. Follow Rhonda on twitter @RhondaBritten Check out her websites for the course she mentioned www.fearlessliving.o...more

  • #330 Co-Dep & Boundaries - Dr. Natalie Feinblatt

    Apr 30 2017

    Dr. Feinblatt shares her experience as a therapist in working with co-dependent clients; how is co-dependency defined, what are some characteristics and how can it be treated or managed? She also shares about the importance of codependents learning about setting, enforcing and respecting boundaries. This episode is sponsored by BetterHelp online counseling. To experience a free week go to www.BetterHelp.com/mental  In addition to her private practice Dr. Feinblatt also works at Westside Treatmen...more

  • #329 My Lovely Wife in the Psych Ward - Mark & Giulia Lukach

    Apr 30 2017

    Rarely do we talk about the spouse of someone battling a serious mental illness. Mark and Giulia had never heard of Bipolar I with psychosis until she broke from reality well into their marriage. Taped in front of an audience in Oakland, they bare their souls about the pain and confusion of her treatment and Mark realizing how much help spouses also need. Check out Mark's new book My Lovely Wife in the Psych Ward Visit his website www.MarkLukach.com  This episode is sponsored by Blue Apron. To g...more

  • #328 - Crack, Fights & Trying to Find Love - Charlie King

    Apr 28 2017

    Paul's support group friend has led an astoundingly painful life especially in regard to his mother (schizophrenia, depression), father (workaholic, hoarder), and sister (drug addict). He describes his descent into drugs (crack), emotionally damaged women and violence before finding the key to understanding his behavior. This episode is sponsored by BetterHelp. To see if online counseling is right for you go to www.BetterHelp.com/mental and experience a free week. Must be 18. This episode is spo...more

  • #327 Leaving Domestic Violence - Jenna Brister

    Apr 21 2017

    The comedian/storyteller (The Moth) shares about her whirlwind 86 day romance that led to a Vegas wedding to a man who soon turned into a man she didn't recognize, leaving her in fear for her life.  Jenna talks about her experience escaping from domestic violence and stalking, especially how family and friends reacted in terms of supporting her (or not).  She also shares about having to cut her mercurial, often emotionally abusive mother out of her life and the freedom she feels in learning how ...more

  • #326 I Was Born Afraid - Jenny Jaffe

    Apr 14 2017

    The comedic writer/performer and mental health advocate who started www.projecturok.org shares about the tremendous support she received from her family when depression anxiety and OCD had her close to suicide by age 10, and even more despondent from 15-17. Her story is a great example of parental support, the power of coping skills, and proof that even people from safe supportive homes with no trauma in their lives can suffer from mental illness because the issue is often one of chemical imbala...more

  • #325 I Am The Worst Person Ever: Mike Levine

    Apr 06 2017

    For most of his life Mike has been wracked with shame and self-hatred, convinced he was the worst person ever and fantasizing about suicide when he was hospitalized at 15. He and Paul talk about where his self-hate may come from as well as his ADHD, emotionally sterile and achievement-focused childhood, body dysmorphia, cross-dressing, kink as a submissive male, and how he finally summoned the courage and self-love to end an abusive friendship. Mike is a great example of someone learning to embr...more

  • #324 Literally Pulling Her Hair Out From PPD - Jennifer Tracy

    Mar 31 2017

    It wasn't until she began to literally pull chunks of her hair out she knew she might be battling something out of her control; postpartum depression. She talks about her battles with cyclical depression starting at an early age, being an only child with depressed, anxious and angry parents, not feeling seen or heard and being a high-bottom alcoholic who finally sobered up instead of self-medicating. She also touches on her body issues and how it was exacerbated during her few years as a model. ...more

  • #323 Family Secrets & Hiding Depression - Patricia McKee

    Mar 24 2017

    How does a family deal with its secrets? The PhD opens up about the inter-generational rage brewing beneath the surface of her extended family and the difficulty in trying to cope when favorites are played, a mother feels jealous of her daughter, trauma isn't discussed, emotions are stuffed and through depression a smile is mustered for the unsuspecting outside world. Patricia can be reached at her website www.PatriciaMcKee.com and on Twitter @Patricia_McKee This episode is sponsored by Stamps.c...more

  • #322 Being Trans in a Red State: Olivia Haidar

    Mar 16 2017

    The 29 year-old trans woman dispels myths about what it means to be trans, including those she used to believe. She shares about hormone therapy, gender reassignment surgery, the prejudice and stigma of "passing", feeling dysphoric growing up, coming out in her Indiana hometown and her upbringing by an overprotective mother, an absent father, an alcoholic and emotionally abusive stepfather. Follow Olivia on Twitter @hitherehaidar Follow her on Instagram @ohaidarling Follow her on Facebook at www...more

  • #321 Herpes from Date-Rape: Laura J

    Mar 09 2017

    Laura J. shares about contracting herpes by being date-raped and how she has navigated managing it logistically, sexually and emotionally with partners, including her husband. She was raised in an emotionally cold home by a psychiatrist father and image-obsessed mother. Her mother's response when Laura would say "I love you" has only ever been "thank you". Laura shares about having Bipolar 2, codependency, fear of intimacy, occasional paranoia, an eating disorder (compulsive eating), multiple st...more

  • #320 Fantasy & Love Addiction - Maia Akiva

    Mar 03 2017

    Paul's fellow support group friend shares about the huge role fantasy has played in her struggle to accept life; especially her love addiction. She talks about being unable to watch lesbian films in moderation (she is a lesbian) and how the CPTSD from her physical (and emotional) trauma at birth and being raised in an emotionally stifled home (where success was the only thing that mattered) have made intimacy and trust difficult especially with her struggles with low self-esteem. Inspired to hel...more

  • #319 - I Worry I'm Unlovable - Pauly David

    Feb 22 2017

    The co-host of YouTube's Pauly & Monks show shares about feeling unlovable, not being a good enough partner, trying to always "fix" other people, having to be an adult in his family at nine, learning to equate money with love and being rejected by relatives for being gay. Oh and his Bruce Willis-admiring grandfather shooting his grandmother.   Follow Pauly on Twitter @PaulyDavid and Instagram @PaulyDavid1 Check out the Pauly & Monks show on YouTube and on Twitter @PaulyandMonks Visit them on Fac...more

  • #318 I Can't Stop Worrying! - Giulia Rozzi

    Feb 17 2017

    The Moth Grand Slam winner, standup and podcaster (Hopefully We Don't Break Up) shares about being raised by Italian immigrant parents who worried a lot and her "high school brain" that still worries about being left out or gossiped about. Follow Giulia on Twitter @GiuliaRozzi Visit her website www.GiuliaRozzi.com  Check out her podcast www.HopefullyWeDontBreakup.com  Follow her on Instagram www.instagram.com/grozzi  This episode is sponsored by Young Health's Probimune. Sign up for automated d...more

  • #317 - Misophonia: Rage at Certain Sounds

    Feb 10 2017

    35 year-old barista (and listener) Charlynn Schmiedt shares about having misophonia which is a "fight or flight" physical response to certain everyday sounds, such as gum chewing, throat clearing etc. and the complications and misunderstanding that arise out of having to interact with people who don't think it is a "real thing".  Charlynn also shares about having an eating disorder in her 20s as well as depression and anxiety.  Her husband Patrick sits in to also share what it is like to live wi...more

  • #316: Kevin Allison on Owning Your Weirdness & Flaws

    Feb 03 2017

    The podcaster (RISK!) and sketch actor (The State) talks about learning to "own his weirdness".  From being a gay kid in a conservative town to being the black sheep in The State he has battled the paralysis and fear of not being perfect or even good enough.  He shares about his attempt at being a prostitute, the 12 year gap between The State ending and him starting Risk! and how he learned to find his authentic voice when he was at his lowest and how he still struggles to act and feel like a gr...more

  • #315 Jenny R - Raised in Wealth, Sadness & Anxiety

    Jan 27 2017

    The anxious only child of a drunk/rager mom and a passive dad shares about her family's combination of material wealth and emotional ignorance/poverty. She talks about her fear of "just being" instead of always "doing", including triathlons & rock climbing, her ongoing battles with disordered eating -especially binging- , her all-or-nothing thinking and struggles with intimacy while being married and having a family.   This episode is sponsored by BetterHelp online therapy.  To learn more (and g...more

  • #314 - Working With Sexually Violent Predators: Renee G-M

    Jan 20 2017

    The 40 year-old public administrator talks about "losing her humanity" being assigned to work on a criminal defense unit on behalf of sexually violent predators and the anxiety, panic and breakdowns that followed.   She also talks about her chaotic and abusive upbringing which included her father molesting her brother, domestic violence and her coping by becoming a rescuer.   This episode is sponsored by the online therapy provider BetterHelp.com  To try out a week of counseling for free go to w...more

  • #313 Neal Brennan

    Jan 13 2017

    The writer and director of Inside Amy Schumer, co-creator of Chapelle's Show and standup comic (3 Mics coming soon on Netflix) talks about being one of ten kids raised by a violent alcoholic father and his struggles today with trusting his feelings and needs and dealing with his anger especially with partners.  He also talks about his relationship with Dave Chapelle and the conflicts and emotions he experienced when Dave decided to stop doing the show. Neal's standup special 3 Mics debuts Jan 17...more

  • #312 Why Am I A Mess? My Parents Loved Me - Amanda Bloom

    Jan 06 2017

    The 30 year-old freelance journalist and Pilates teacher doesn't have anything dramatic to point to in her life, yet she has struggled to find her voice in life with bad relationships, eating disorders, depression, body dysmorphia, and intense fears of rejection and feeling excluded.  Paul and Amanda peel back the layers to try to find out what's underneath. To learn more about Amanda, go to www.AmandaBloom.com  Follow her on Twitter @AmandaJBloom This episode is sponsored by ZipRecruiter.com Li...more

  • #311 Punk Rock, EMDR & Trauma w/Dr Stephen Dansiger

    Dec 30 2016

    At 16 he was playing drums at CBGB and Max's Kansas City as the punk scene exploded. After destroying his career (Pianosaurus, King Missile) he got sober. The PsyD & MFT explains his extensive work with treating trauma victims (especially those with addictions) by using EMDR. He talks about the difficulty people have in calling what happened to them "trauma" and why the label isn't important.  He shares his personal experiences and insights about bullying, Buddhism, self-sabotage, spirituality, ...more

  • #310 Glamorously Dying: Nikki DuBose

    Dec 23 2016

    The 31 year-old ex-model (Vogue, Vanity Fair) discusses surviving incest by her mother (who was also an alcoholic with BiPolar and DID aka Multiple Personality Disorder) and a lifetime of battling eating disorders (binging, bulimia, anorexia), psychosis, Body Dysmorphic Disorder, depression, anxiety, alcoholism and drug and sex addiction. She reflects on the physical and emotional bottom that finally made her walk away from modeling and seek help, ironically as her emaciated body was more desira...more

  • #309 Mini Ep - Producers of HBO's Every Brilliant Thing

    Dec 22 2016

    Fenton Bailey and Randy Barbato have produced and/or directed some of Paul's favorite documentaries, including Mapplethorpe: Look At The Pictures, 101 Rent Boys and Monica in Black & White. They sit down with Paul to talk about their newest film, Every Brilliant Thing which debuts on HBO Dec 26th and tackles the subject of finding joy in life's little things when we're surrounded by darkness.  Paul also talks to them about their days as struggling artists in the East Village during the beginning...more

  • #308 A Letter To My 16 Year-Old Suicidal Self - Katie Hirshberg

    Dec 16 2016

    The 19 year-old college sophomore opens with a letter she wrote to her 16 year-old self who was so tired of the years of depression, anxiety self-hate, bullying, co-dependence, perfectionism, Crohn's Disease and feeling like a burden that she was on the verge of taking her life.  Her dad, Alan sits in on the session to occasionally share his perspective on her struggles, their family dynamics and what he might have done differently.   This episode is sponsored by American Public Media's podcast ...more

  • #307 Basketball Player Royce White live at ITTFest

    Dec 09 2016

    The 25 year-old professional basketball player opens up to a live audience about mental health issues not only in his life (OCD, panic attacks and anxiety) but societally, especially in the NBA where he played, and in the relationships between POC and police officers. Royce shares about being raised by a single mom in a culturally diverse extended family.   Check out Royce's mental health foundation www.anxiousminds.org Follow him on Twitter @Highway_30 This episode is sponsored by http://www.tr...more

  • #306 Sexual Fluidity, Energy Healing, & Hypnosis - April Adams

    Dec 02 2016

    Author/life-coach April Adams clarifies what an "energy healer" actually does despite it sounding like new-age b.s.  She talks about techniques she has used to deal with her childhood trauma and heal others.  She opens up about her experiences with swinging, sexual fluidity, embracing her attraction to women fairly late in life and possible love addiction/fear of intimacy in her same-sex marriage. April's book is Essence: Ending Emptiness, Finding Fulfillment Her websites are www.AprilAdams.org...more

  • #305 Daddy Issues - Luisa Omielan

    Nov 25 2016

    The 34 year-old British writer/comedian/performer shares about the pain of her parents' nasty divorce when she was a kid, especially her father using her as a pawn and poisoning her mind about her mother. She also shares about her depression and only being turned on by men who treat her badly or are in some way unavailable. She talks about her struggle to not equate her self-worth with her career ups and downs and overcome her fear of not being enough. This episode is sponsored by MVMT watches. ...more

  • #304 My Suicide Attempt Wakeup Call - Paul Goebel

    Nov 18 2016

    The actor/comedian (@Midnight) opens up about his recent suicide attempt, psych ward stay  and how it is motivating him to seek help and try to be a better husband, father and friend.  He shares about trying to break the cycle of bad parenting and untreated addiction/mental illness in his family and learn how to identify and express his emotions instead of coping with his anxiety and depression by getting high.  He also expresses his regret in being a bad parent to his 2 daughters, a bad husband...more

  • #303 Feeling Invisible & BPD - Celia Finkelstein

    Nov 11 2016

    The actor/improvisor (Horrible Bosses, American Horror Story) shares about learning to manager her Borderline Personality Disorder, and fears of abandonment or not being enough. She also shares about her weight struggles , depression, suicidal ideation, and being in a psych ward but hiding it from her mom. Post-interview Paul reads surveys and shares his thoughts on the intersection of our new political reality and mental health, especially for survivors of sexual trauma. This episode is sponsor...more

  • #302 Behind The Good Girl Mask

    Nov 04 2016

    Only hugged once in her life by her mother, 25 year-old Yohana is the daughter of conservative East African war refugees from Ethiopia & Eritrea.  All her life she has buried her rage by wearing the "good girl" mask to try to placate her narcissistic mother and having to be someone else to survive as a kid growing up in Oakland where there were some fixed ideas of what makes someone an "authentic African-American".  She shares about living with a learning disability, having physically disabled s...more

  • #301 Sex and Politics - Jamie Varon

    Oct 28 2016

    The 31 year-old writer discusses feminism, sexual violence and misogyny in the context of partisan politics, and her personal life. She shares about the complexities of marrying a Muslim, growing up being told "you're too sensitive", avoiding her emotions by achieving, hating her body, fighting the drill sergeant in her head and learning the power of being vulnerable and letting go of shame.   Jamie's links Facebook: facebook.com/jamievaron Twitter: twitter.com/jamievaron Instagram: instagram.co...more

  • #300 Jeff Rosenthal

    Oct 21 2016

    Jeff is Paul's friend of 28 years and the son of former guest and Holocaust survivor Kristine Keese. He shares about her recent passing, their deep but complicated relationship, how he made peace with her being "a terrible mom but a great friend" and the book she wrote Shadows of Survival: A Child's Memoir of the Warsaw Ghetto.  Buy Kristine's book here. Follow Jeff on Twitter @Jeff_Rosie Visit Jeff's Facebook page   This episode is sponsored by Meundies.  For 20% off your first order go to www...more

  • #299 College Freshman Meltdown: Jen Curran's story

    Oct 14 2016

    The writer/improviser shares about the mental/emotional breakdown her freshman year of college at NYU that left her living in her car and squatting in empty buildings in New York City.  She looks back on her childhood and the familial love that was so often conditional, based on her weight and appearance.  She opens up about the body shaming women in her family unconsciously modeled for her, her relationship with food, difficulty setting boundaries with toxic people and finding out what she real...more

  • #298 Lora B

    Oct 07 2016

    The 33 year-old listener was the woman who comforted Murray Valeriano during our live episode last week.  From a blended family with every kind of abuse imaginable, including her church elder step-grandfather who molested her, her descent into meth and drinking, finding sobriety, and getting therapy for her traumas. This episode is sponsored by Casper Mattresses.  Visit www.casper.com/mental This episode is sponsored by Criquet Shirts.  For 20% off your first purchase visit www.criquetshirts.com...more

  • #297 Murray Valeriano Live at LAPodfest

    Sep 30 2016

    The comedian/writer/podcaster had never talked much about losing his virginity at 15 to a 32 year-old tutor.  Tonight that changed and so did his view of the event and aftermath.  He also opens up about being a preacher's kid (who wasn't even allowed to see Footloose), being a father and the role "forbidden" music played in helping him cope as young man.   If you would like to watch video of this episode, it will be archived at www.lapodfest.com (with all the other shows at the festival) until O...more

  • #296 Glynn Washington

    Sep 23 2016

    The producer/host of WNYC's Snap Judgment shares about being raised in a fundamentalist Christian cult, strategies he's used to survive racism, what he learned by visiting Japan as a college student, his struggles with bipolar and his family's history of mental illness especially his late brother. This episode is sponsored by Young Health's Probimune.  For your first bottle free (plus $6.75 shipping) go to www.Probimune.com and use offer code MENTAL. For more information on LAPodfest go to www.L...more

  • #295 Mara Wilson

    Sep 16 2016

    You probably know her as the little girl from Matilda or Mrs. Doubtfire but you probably don't know that's around the time she lost her mom, developed OCD, anxiety, depression and panic attacks and that today she is an advocate for mental health.  She is also a playwright, author (Where Am I Now?) and still occasionally acts. This episode is sponsored by Probimune.  For your first bottle free and just $6.75 Shipping/handling go to www.Probimune.com and use offer code MENTAL Buy Mara's new book ...more

  • #294 Dr Laura Dabney

    Sep 09 2016

    The psychiatrist and therapist talks about sexual trauma in the military, powerful men who fear intimacy, meds, treating personality disorders, doing therapy via Skype, the therapy process and why insurance companies suck. Check out Dr Dabney's site www.drldabney.com  Buy tix to see MIHH at LAPodfest Sept 23-25 www.lapodfest.com  (MIHH is recording Sun. Sept 25th at 9pm) This episode is sponsored by Chicagoland Out of the Darkness Walk by the American Foundation for Suicide Prevent www.chicagowa...more

  • #293 Judy Gold

    Sep 02 2016

    The comedian and actress talks her anxiety and depression, being raised in an incredibly anxious household, being bullied throughout childhood for her height (she was six feet tall in 8th grade), and raising two boys in a same sex marriage. This episode is sponsored by Young Health's Probimune. For 50% of your first order go to www.probimune.com and use offer code MENTAL at checkout.  This episode is sponsored by Meundies. For 20% of your first order go to www.meundies.com/mental  Follow Judy on...more

  • #292 NHL Legend Theo Fleury

    Aug 26 2016

    "My coach raped me over 200 times". The truth that Theo almost died trying to keep to himself. Only when he hit bottom with drugs, sex and gambling could he summon the courage to face what had happened when he was a rising 14 year-old phenom. He talks about his childhood, his hockey career, getting sober and his post-career mission of raising awareness and trying to change outdated sentencing laws that allow sexual predators to continue to abuse in Canada, especially the new documentary about it...more

  • #291 Sarah Haufrect - My Mom Had BPD

    Aug 19 2016

    Sarah shares about her mother's battles with Borderline Personality Disorder, her relationship with such a "beautifully disastrously complicated" woman, Sarah's own battles with bulimia, anxiety, and co-dependency and the role exercise has played in helping her moods. This episode is sponsored by Blue Apron.  For your first 3 meals free (with free shipping) go to www.blueapron.com/mental   Follow Sarah on Twitter @Smartypants_Inc  www.twitter.com/smartypants_inc To read the Salon article she wro...more

  • #290 Maddy F - Learning to Love Yourself

    Aug 12 2016

    You hear the phrase "love yourself" a lot.  But how do we get there? Maddy's story is a great example.  She was molested by a relative (and church leader) but didn't feel safe enough to speak up about it for years.  Then she got help and everything changed. This episode is sponsored by Casper Mattresses.  To find out more go to www.casper.com/mental   To buy tickets for the In This Together Festival on Nov 13th go to www.ittfest.com To buy watch or attend LAPodfest Sept 23-25 go to www.lapodfest...more

  • #289 Stephen Brophy

    Aug 04 2016

    The reality TV producer (Somebody's Gotta Do It) opens up about his depression, social anxiety, history of unrequited love obsessions - especially as a kid, getting sober from prescription opiates and smoking speed thru a broken light bulb! This episode is sponsored by BlueApron. To get your first three meals free (with FREE shipping) go to www.blueapron.com/mental This episode is sponsored by SquareSpace for 10% off your first purchase go to www.squarespace.com and use offer code MENTAL For mor...more

  • #288 Social Worker In Training

    Jul 29 2016

    28 year-old Cynthia Pena ACSW opens up about her life, experiencing skin tone prejudice within the Hispanic community, being the "good child" who gets forgotten, anxiety, triggers, working in an overloaded county system helping children with severe or persistent mental illnesses and her dream of expanding the role of mental health in athletics.   Follow Cyndi on Twitter @Ms_Cyndi_Pena For more information on Paul's appearance at LAPodfest Sept 23-25 go to www.lapodfest.com and use offer code HAP...more

  • #287 Andrea C

    Jul 22 2016

    Paul's support group friend and writer talks about weighing 95 lbs at 5 years-old, being in foster homes and psych wards, surviving incest, learning self-love and dealing with addictions to food and abusive men. This episode is sponsored by Blue Apron.  To see this month's menu and your first three meals free (including free delivery) go to www.blueapron.com/mental  

  • #286 Stacy Reynolds

    Jul 15 2016

    The 43 year old teacher and recovering alcoholic talks about being sexualized as a child by her father, having to cut contact with her controlling mother, and trying to heal while dealing with anxiety, panic attacks and PTSD. Get info on Paul's upcoming appearances in Oakland July 20 & 21.  

  • #285 Luke Burbank

    Jul 07 2016

    The podcaster (Too Beautiful To Live), radio host (Live Wire Radio) and tv host (CBS Morning News) talks about his outbursts of anger that get physical, always feeling uncomfortable in his skin and being hyper vigilant to avoid criticism. This episode is sponsored by SquareSpace. For a free trial and 10% off your first purchase go to www.squarespace.com and use offer code MENTAL Get info on Paul's upcoming appearances in Oakland Follow Luke Burbank on Twitter @LukeBurbank 

  • #284 Dr Lauren Costine

    Jul 01 2016

    The author (Lesbian Love Addiction: Understanding the Urge to Merge and How to Heal When Things Go Wrong) and therapist talks about love addiction especially in the lesbian community, what coming out what like for her, myths about lesbians and what makes a good therapist. For more about her or her book go to www.lesbianloveaddiction.com  Follow her on Twitter @DrLaurenCostine This episode is sponsored by BlueApron. Get your first three meals free (with free shipping) by going to www.BlueApron.co...more

  • #283 Julie L: Covert Incest Survivor

    Jun 24 2016

    The French Canadian biologist sits down with Paul and talks about experiencing covert incest by her mother who she believes also had Borderline Personality Disorder, and her complex relationship with her safer but extremely codependent father.  Julie shares about her struggle to share intimacy with her husband and the progress she's making in releasing some of the trauma thru somatic therapy.

  • #282 Michael Alexander

    Jun 17 2016

    Paul's old comedy pal Mike shares about psych wards, not being deemed "black enough", anxiety, depression, experiencing some classic 70's Chicago racism and trying to be a better parent than he had.

  • #281 Sarah & Zach Goodson Pt 2

    Jun 10 2016

    Zachary shares his story while his wife Sarah sits in.  He talks about losing his mother (actress Diana Hyland) to cancer when he was 3, being raised by an abusive father, learning to numb himself with sex and after bottoming out, finding help.  They also talk about how they navigate marriage and work on intimacy while working through their individual issues. Zachary is a writer and is working on a book to be titled It's Always Worse In Your Head. For more info about him or his writing go to www...more

  • #280 Sarah & Zachary Pt 1

    Jun 03 2016

    Part I of Sarah and Zachary sharing their stories and how they navigate healing while being married.  Sarah shares her story which includes sexual abuse, codependency, perfectionism, anxiety & a stay in a psych ward. This episode is sponsored by SquareSpace.  For 10% off go to www.squarespace.com and use offer code MENTAL at checkout.  

  • #279 Narcoleptic Codependent Anna W

    May 27 2016

    The 33 year-old research biologist shares about her narcolepsy, PTSD, cataplexy, hypnogogic hallucinations, codependency and life with a partner with bipolar.

  • #278 At-Risk Youth w/Elie El Habr

    May 20 2016

    MFT Intern Elie El Habr works with at-risk youth in South Central Los Angeles and shares about his successes and failures in trying to reach kids who either want help or are court mandated, as he tries to keep them from going into juvenile hall or foster   Elie recommends all parents read the book The Whole Brain Child by Dan Siegel.    

  • #277 Religious Abuse - Hilary A

    May 13 2016

    The 32 year-old shares about breaking free from her mother (and their religion Christian Science) after years of her using scripture as a weapon to justify her neglectful, unempathetic and narcissistic parenting.  She also shares about her history of panic attacks/fear of choking, and trichotillomania.

  • #276 Tracy E.

    May 06 2016

    Paul's support group friend shares about being raised in a Catholic Italian-American family where attention was hard to get, how her mother's death helped her to grow and her love addiction to men and sugar. To read the article about mental health in colleges by Catherine Savini go to http://chronicle.com/article/Are-You-Being-Rigorous-or-Just/236341 This episode is sponsored by SquareSpace. For a free trial and 10% off your first purchase go to www.squarespace.com and use the offer code MENTAL...more

  • #275 Tee-Tee

    Apr 29 2016

    The 29 year-old Vietnamese-Australian shares about being raised by his refugee, mentally-disabled (OCD & PTSD) single mother, experiencing racism, living in inner city poverty (Melbourne) and trying to be "Vietnamese enough" for the Vietnamese community.

  • #274 Melanie R (DID aka Multiple Personality Disorder)

    Apr 22 2016

    22 year-old Melanie R. shares about living with DID (Dissociative Identity Disorder which used to be called Multiple Personality Disorder), being bullied, having a perpetrator who is female, integrating her "alters" and Sensory Integration Disorder. Melanie can be reached at hypermelanie@aim.com  Her personal blog is at loserchildhotpants.tumblr.com.

  • #273 Melissa Broder aka @SoSadToday

    Apr 15 2016

    Melissa reads excerpts from her book So Sad Today, probes her turn ons, food issues, stint with polyamory, panic attacks, sexting and depression. This episode is sponsored by the meditation app Calm.  Visit www.calm.com/mentalillnesspodcast   Follow Melissa on Twitter @SoSadToday Check out her website www.melissabroder.com Buy her book So Sad Today on Amazon.  

  • #272 Ex-CHP Officer Kevin Briggs

    Apr 08 2016

    For many years the ex-highway patrolman's beat was the Golden Gate Bridge. He shares about the encounters he had with people who wanted to jump and how he learned to get some of them to open up and change their minds. He also shares about his PTSD, surviving cancer and struggling to be a better parent. Kevin now travels the world speaking as a suicide prevention advocate. Kevin's organization is www.Pivotal-points.com He can be reached at kevinbriggs@pivotal-points.com This episode is sponsored ...more

  • #271 Sandra (Sex Nerd) Daugherty

    Apr 01 2016

    The podcaster (Sex Nerd Sandra) shares some of her struggles (low self-esteem, depression, perfectionism) and shares about sex topics like: swinging, orgies, role play, polyamory and giving good blow jobs. This episode is sponsored by SquareSpace.  For 10% off your first purchase go to www.squarespace.com and use offer code MENTAL Follow Sandra on Twitter @SexNerdSandra Visit her websites http://sexnerdsandra.com/  and http://nerdist.com/podcasts/sex-nerd-sandra-channel/   The books referenced w...more

  • #270 Patti H

    Mar 25 2016

    The 32 year-old postal employee shares about growing up with an alcoholic mom and stoner dad, her struggles with perfectionism, anxiety, co-dependency and fear of the unknown, and how altruism has helped her find peace and gratitude. This episode is sponsored by www.Penzu.com  This episode is sponsored by www.Harrys.com 

  • #269 Guy Branum

    Mar 18 2016

    The 40 year-old writer/comedian (Chelsea Lately) and podcaster (Pop Rocket) talks about growing up gay in a small town, losing his father a few weeks ago and trying to deal with a mother who can't accept him for who he is. Follow Guy on Twitter @GuyBranum  Buy his album Effable  Listen to his podcast Pop Rocket.   This week's episode is sponsored by Penzu.  To sign up for a free account, go to www.penzu.com This week's episode is also sponsored by Casper Mattresses.

  • #268 Laura Kightlinger

    Mar 11 2016

    The writer/performer (The Minor Accomplishments of Jackie Woodman, Lucky Louie, Will & Grace) opens up about being the product of a secret affair in a small town and being raised by a single mom with no boundaries.   Visit www.laurakightlinger.com or follow her on twitter @KingKightlinger This episode is sponsored by www.Harrys.com  For a great deal on shaving supplies use offer code MENTALPOD This episode is sponsored by www.penzu.com  -  a safe place to store your diary online.

  • #267 Wynter Mitchell

    Mar 04 2016

    The 36 year-old African American tech exec (Reddit) shares about being one of the first victims of online predators in 1995 when she was 14.  She shares about her PTSD, anxiety, depression, anger, weight and difficulty trusting men romantically as well as the ways it has strengthened her. This episode is sponsored by SquareSpace.  For 10% off go to www.SquareSpace.com use offer code MENTAL. This episode is sponsored by Audible.  For a free 30 day trial, go to www.audible.com/mental This episode ...more

  • #266 Sex Crimes Detective Don Howell

    Feb 26 2016

    The 25 year veteran shares about sex crime myths, psychopathy, the predator personality and how society can better protect itself, especially how parents can help their children.  This episode is sponsored by www.goodtherapy.org

  • #265 Monica Hernandez

    Feb 19 2016

    The 23 year-old shares about hitting an emotional bottom in college after a childhood/adolescence that included cutting, disordered eating, depression and sexual trauma.  She shares how therapy and running have helped her make peace with her past and cope with the present.

  • #264 Brian Bogosian

    Feb 12 2016

    The 38 year-old jeweler and support group friend of Paul's opens up about being raised by an addict father in a hyper-sexual environment and his own battles with crack, heroin, alcohol and co-dependency.

  • #263 Therapists Have Issues Too

    Feb 05 2016

    Therapist Intern Erin Fox Bishop opens up about her struggles (adolescent and postpartum depression, co-dependence, suicidal ideation), and the therapist who inspired her to become one. Follow Erin on Twitter @ErinNewHabits or visit the website www.newhabitscounseling.com This episode is sponsored by SquareSpace.  For 10% off your first purchase go to www.squarespace.com and use the offer code MENTAL.

  • #262 Jessie Close

    Jan 29 2016

    The 62 year-old opens up about living with Bipolar I (with psychotic episodes and rapid cycling), battling alcoholism, being in abusive relationships, being married 5 times, having a son with Schizo-Affective Disorder and getting support from her sister, actress Glenn Close.  Jessie and Glenn co-wrote the book Resilience: Two Sisters and a Story of Mental Illness. and started the foundation to advocate for people with mental illnesses Bring Change 2 Mind.

  • #261 Bipolar Mania w/Andy Behrman

    Jan 22 2016

    The author (Electroboy: A Memoir of Mania) and divorced father shares about his tumultuous life in the grips of manic episodes, including art fraud, sex work and prison as well as receiving ECT (electroconvulsive therapy or shock treatment) Follow Andy on Twitter @electroboyUSA Andy's website is www.electroboy.com This episode is sponsored by Howl.FM  For a free one month trial sign up at www.howl.fm and use the offer code MENTAL

  • #260 Dr. Jonice Webb on Emotional Neglect

    Jan 15 2016

    The licensed psychologist and author (Running on Empty) talks about the effects of childhood emotional neglect and how parents can be more attuned to their child's needs. This is a particularly good episode for people who struggle but feel guilty because they have no abuse or trauma in their past.

  • #259 Merritt Stewart LCSW on Sexual Trauma

    Jan 08 2016

    The LCSW shares her experience in advocating for and counseling survivors of sexual trauma, especially navigating the legal system and helping survivors heal.  She is based in NYC.

  • #258 Jerry Stahl

    Jan 01 2016

    The Pushcart Prize-winning writer (Permanent Midnight, I Fatty) shares about the loss of his father to suicide, his mother's belittling of his manhood, his recovery from heroin addiction and always feeling like an ashamed outsider. This episode is sponsored by www.GoodTherapy.org Follow Jerry on Twitter at www.twitter.com/somejerrystahl  

  • #257 Dani Fernandez - Hashimoto's Disease

    Dec 25 2015

    The 27 year-old comedian/writer shares about her battle with Hashimoto's disease; an auto-immune disorder (with depression as one of its side effects) as well as her suicide attempt.

  • #255 Tim F - Doctors Have Issues Too

    Dec 11 2015

    The 33 year-old MD opens up about his anxiety, depression, perfectionism, codependency, and his and his father's alcohol struggles. He also shares about the joy and fulfillment in doing volunteer medical work in developing countries.

  • #254 Andrea Abbate

    Dec 04 2015

    The 59 year-old comic/writer shares about being a Scientologist,her eating disorder, drug addiction surviving incest (by her father) and her beautiful but suicidal mother's loose grasp on reality.

  • #253 Lisa Lawrie

    Nov 27 2015

    The 39 year-old mother of two opens up about her unhealed PTSD from the domestic violence and stalking she experienced at the hands of a psychopathic boyfriend 22 years ago.

  • #252 Paul Gets Interviewed

    Nov 20 2015

    Paul's friend, former Dinner and a Movie co-host (and former podcast guest) Lisa Arch asks Paul about his life, his struggles, the podcast and questions posed by listeners, who have been requesting an episode where all of Paul's bullshit can reside in one place.  Well here it is.  Regular listeners may find that they've heard a lot of this information before, so this is really for the new listener who wants to get up to speed on what a nutjob Paul is.  We decided to take a week off from reading ...more

  • #251 Rama I

    Nov 13 2015

    The 28 year-old Syrian opens up about always being the minority wherever she lives (She was born in Syria, grew up in Brazil and now lives in the US), recovering from sexual abuse, battling depression and anxiety and how getting help has saved her life.

  • #250 Haydn - Bipolar 1 Psychosis - Supporting a Loved One

    Nov 06 2015

    The 27 year-old Colombian native shares about his recent hospitalization for Bipolar I psychosis. His girlfriend Rama (next week's guest) sits in to share what it was like for her, trying to support him. This episode is sponsored by SquareSpace.  Go to SquareSpace.com and for 10% off at checkout use offer code MENTAL Check out Haydn's music here Follow Haydn on Twitter @DiazBard

  • #249 Jackie Kashian Live at Podfest

    Oct 30 2015

    The writer/comedian/podcaster (Dork Forest) shares about her tumultuous upbringing, and struggles with anger, depression, connecting to people and being perimenopausal.

  • #248 Dr Jessica Zucker #3

    Oct 23 2015

    Therapist Dr Zucker shares the harrowing emotional, mental and physical details of her late-term (16th week) miscarriage; how to support a friend or loved one who experiences pregnancy loss, and of course she and Paul talk about his mom.

  • #247 Danny Hatch

    Oct 16 2015

    The 23 year-old Oklahoman shares about his depression, cutting, feelings of inadequacy, finding a voice and identify through comedy (Keith & The Girl podcast), feeling some shame for wanting to be famous and the slow process of accepting his bisexuality especially coming from a devoutly Catholic family.

  • #246 Kate Spencer

    Oct 09 2015

    The writer/performer/wife/mother shares about her OCD, anxiety, panic attacks, intrusive thoughts and insomnia.  She also talks about the surprising gifts that came from the painful loss of her mother and how she is using basketball to embrace her body and let out aggression. Follow Kate on Twitter @KateSpencer This episode is sponsored by SquareSpace.   To get 10% go to www.squarespace.com and use offer code MENTAL

  • #245 Pedophile Ring Survivor Anneke Lucas

    Oct 02 2015

    Sold by her mother to a pedophile ring led by powerful politicians and aristocrats in her native Belgium, Anneke's story is about more than just survival.  She talks about the ways her PTSD affects her life but also about the empathy she learned at a young age that inspires her to teach yoga in prisons.  Check out her foundation 

  • #244 Natural Highs - Neuropsychologist Dr. Matt Bellace

    Sep 24 2015

    The neuropsychology PhD shares natural ways for us to improve our mood and take care of our brains.

  • #243 Melissa Villasenor

    Sep 18 2015

    The 27 year-old comic/impressionist (America's Got Talent) opens up people-pleasing, cutting, isolating, creating, bombing, tattoos, the comfort of solitary hobbies and the struggle to practice self-care.

  • #242 Elyn Saks on Schizophrenia & Mental Health Law

    Sep 11 2015

    The USC professor of law, psychiatry and psychology (in addition to a PhD in Psychoanalysis) talks about her history of schizophrenia, her multiple hospitalizations and how she has learned to manage it.  They also talk about mental health and the law.

  • #241 Glenn Rockowitz

    Sep 04 2015

    The comedian, writer (Rodeo in Joliet and Saturday Night Live) and voice actor opens up about his ongoing battles with cancer, how being told 20 years ago that he had "three months to live" changed his life and how difficult he finds it to ask for help.

  • #240 Psychiatrist Dr Melanie Watkins

    Aug 28 2015

    The board-certified psychiatrist answers questions about personality disorders, medication, problems in the mental health system and mental health in the black community.

  • #239 Samantha Finkelstein

    Aug 21 2015

    The registered dietitian shares about the huge importance that was placed on food growing up in her family, how she used it to soothe instead of finding a healthy way to express her emotions and how it morphed into an eating disorder.

  • #238 Jason Ickovitz

    Aug 14 2015

    The Licensed Family and Marriage Therapist opens up about the verbal abuse he endured as a kid from his father who pushed him to excel in baseball, and how therapy not only helped him cope but made him realize he wanted to be a therapist.

  • #238 Gladys A.

    Aug 07 2015

    The 26 year-old adoptee (from Paraguay) shares about growing up with an emotionally disturbed sibling and single mom, experiencing racism at her all-white school, and turning to porn and escorting to pay the bills while pursuing her dream of screenwriting. She currently volunteers at the Sex Workers Outreach Project LA http://www.swop-losangeles.org/about-1.html

  • #235 Peter Hesen

    Jul 24 2015

    The 61 year-old talks about loneliness, the painful depths his addictions took him to and the chance he has in sobriety to be the kind of father he never had.

  • #234 Raised by Hoarders w/Michelle F

    Jul 17 2015

    27 year-old Michelle F shares about being raised by a shopaholic mom and a father (and grandparents) who hoarded.

  • #233 JoAnn Buttaro

    Jul 10 2015

    JoAnn shares about her path to recovery after being victimized by serial rapist Jeffrey Marsalis (dubbed the Match.com rapist).  She sheds light on how she went from her lowest low to participating in the judicial process and eventually speaking publicly for other survivors.

  • #232 Mary O'Hara

    Jul 03 2015

    The first pupil from her inner-city high school to attend Cambridge, the 42 year-old journalist/author shares about the poverty, violence and dysfunction that defined her childhood in West Belfast, Northern Ireland.

  • #231 Lisa Richards

    Jun 26 2015

    The licensed clinical social worker and author of Dear Mallory: Letters to a Teenage Girl Who Killed Herself shares about the loss of her 18 year-old daughter to suicide.

  • #230 Raised in Scientology: Derek Bloch

    Jun 19 2015

    The 28 year-old talks about being raised in the Church of Scientology by a narcissistic father and passive mother.  He details the abuse inflicted by their "Sea Org" starting when he was 13, how he reconciled their homophobia with his being gay and ultimately how he broke away from the church and his family.

  • #229 Sheila & Kim

    Jun 12 2015

    The lifelong friends join Paul to talk about supporting each other through their issues which include: alcoholism, food addiction, IBS and codependency.

  • #228 Shootout Survivor Dan Smith

    Jun 05 2015

    The former armored car driver shares about the PTSD that came in the wake of a shootout that almost killed him and what it means to be masculine.

  • #227 Cassie Sneider

    May 29 2015

    The writer and graphic artist (and karaoke DJ) talks with Paul about her parents gambling and shopping addictions, being bullied, becoming violent in her 20s and eventually finding therapy and support groups for her codependency.

  • #226 Therapist Kati Morton #2

    May 22 2015

    Therapist Kati Morton returns to answer listener questions.

  • #225 Joe and June

    May 15 2015

    The Israeli couple talk about their childhoods, how they try to support each other and finding emotional and sexual satisfaction given their individual issues.

  • #224 Drew Monson

    May 08 2015

    The 19 year-old YouTube entertainer commiserates with Paul about OCD, depression, jealousy, naps, love and internet trolls.

  • #223 Heather Marlowe

    May 01 2015

    The writer/performer opens up about being drugged and raped and the pressure she has been putting on the San Francisco police department to process the thousands of warehoused rape kits whose DNA could help catch the predators who remain unapprehended.

  • #222 Terri Hartman

    Apr 24 2015

    The 54 year-old shares about her battles with fibromyalgia, her physically abusive mother, how her illness affects her relationships, her anxieties and how expressing her emotions helped ease the intensity of her physical pain.

  • #221 Anna David

    Apr 17 2015

    The author/podcaster opens up about her sexually inappropriate narcissistic father, getting sober from her cocaine addiction, fear of intimacy and vacillating between thinking that she's "the shit" or a piece of it.

  • #220 Matty McVarish

    Apr 10 2015

    A survivor of childhood sexual abuse, Matty could no longer bear the silence he saw around him, so he started Road to Change and walked 10,000 miles across Europe to  raise awareness and in the process helped change laws in several countries. 

  • #219 Kelly M

    Apr 03 2015

    The 24 year-old shares about identifying as asexual and gender-fluid as well as the hurdle of coming to terms with a childhood that wasn't overtly abusive, just void of connection.  They also talk about Kelly's OCD, anxiety, depression and love of fan fiction.

  • #218 Jensen Karp

    Mar 27 2015

    The writer/ex-rapper/entrepreneur/podcaster talks about living with Obsessive Thoughts Disorder, being molested by a 19 year-old female when he was 13 and the ways his disorder interpreted the trauma until he saw it as such.

  • #217 Jeanie Bergen

    Mar 20 2015

    The 30 year-old writer talks about being parentless at 3 and the complex relationship with her mentally disabled sister whom she now has guardianship of.  She and Paul bond over suicidal thoughts, isolating and much much more!

  • #216 John H

    Mar 13 2015

    The 25 year-old discusses his Generalized Anxiety Disorder, social awkwardness, difficulty making eye-contact, compulsive overeating, abusive ex-wife and the possibility of being on the autism spectrum.  

  • #215 Roxanne R.

    Mar 06 2015

    The 57 year-old incest survivor talks about growing up in a family "where being born female was considered a moral failure".  She also talks about her struggles with repressed memories and possible DID (Dissociative Identify Disorder)

  • #214 Therapist Kati Morton

    Feb 27 2015

    The licensed therapist and Paul talk about eating disorders, emotional intimacy and how to support friends/loved ones while also practicing self-care and establishing boundaries.

  • #213 Tiffany Haddish

    Feb 20 2015

    The comedian/dancer/actor shares about her mother's descent into mental illness (schizophrenia), the abuse she suffered at her hands, the year she spent in the foster care system and the strength she feels it has given her.

  • #212 Dean Trippe

    Feb 13 2015

    The comic book artist and father talks about the role superheroes have played in helping his imagination and creativity heal the trauma he experienced as a child, and trying to break the cycle of abandonment his father never could.

  • #211 Maggie Mull

    Feb 06 2015

    The 28 year-old writer shares about being unemployed and an only child, her fear of abandonment, being born with club feet, body and sexuality shame and the depression that often makes everything feel like an effort.

  • #210 Arianna C

    Jan 30 2015

    The 40 year-old shares about her traumatic upbringing (incest, religious extremism, abandonment) and the ways her body and mind learned to cope; hallucinating, going numb and following strangers and elaborately envisioning how to kill them and get away with it. This episode is sponsored by Shari's Berries.  For our podcast discount go to www.berries.com, click on the microphone in the upper right hand corner and use our offer code MENTAL.

  • #208 Renee M.

    Jan 16 2015

    The Hispanic, 31 year-old PhD shares about the downside of raising herself up by her bootstraps; growing up knowing she couldn't depend on her passive mother or gambler father, and now finding her emotional development lacking, especially in areas of trust, intimacy or being comfortable asking for help.

  • #206 Listener Confessions 2

    Jan 02 2015

    Listeners share their deepest darkest struggles and darkly hilarious "awfulsome" moments via email and surveys.  Also a contemplation on the life and death of transgender teen Leelah Alcorn.

  • #205 Ian Gutoskie

    Dec 26 2014

    The 37 year-old Canadian comic discusses his two psychiatric hospitalizations, his Bipolar II (with rapid cycling), how sports helped him channel his anger about his abusive dad and what he does to stay in balance today.

  • #204 Lauren Ashley Bishop (voted #2 ep of 2014)

    Dec 19 2014

    The 37 year-old comedian shares about the three traumas that led her to finally seek somatic therapy for her disassociating subtype of PTSD, how she's healing and the tools she uses to cope today.

  • #203 Oliver Sykes

    Dec 12 2014

    Paul's 41 year-old friend talks (and laughs) about his arrested emotional development and struggle to be an adult after a childhood where he often had to parent his parents because of their addictions, mental illnesses (including hospitalizations and suicide attempts) and lack of boundaries.  

  • #202 Gillian Callahan Chachere

    Dec 05 2014

    The therapist intern opens up about the rarely-discussed trauma of miscarriage, the lack of traditional grief support in our culture, and the surprising results she got from seeking an alternative healing therapy (a full spectrum doula) after her fifth miscarriage.

  • #201 Can't Stop Her Addictions w/Noemi

    Nov 28 2014

    The 24 year-old first generation Mexican-American is currently unable to stop her anorexia, bulimia or blackout drinking.  She shares what her struggle is like and about the abusive ex-boyfriend whose chaos and trauma-bonding helped distract her from her feelings and finally she shares about the family life where most of her pain originated.

  • #200 Former NHL Goalie Clint Malarchuk (voted #3 ep of 2014)

    Nov 21 2014

    The former NHL goalie opens up about his difficult childhood and the OCD that helped him professionally but ultimately almost ended his life.  He shares about his anxiety, depression, alcoholism, suicide attempt and the PTSD from a skate to the neck that almost caused him to bleed to death during a televised game in 1989.   Clint has survived it all and more importantly gotten the help his "cowboy" upbringing had stigmatized for years as "weak".   Clint's book is called A Matter of Inches (in Ca...more

  • #199 Joni G.

    Nov 14 2014

    "No man ever pleased me like cocaine did."  The 60 year-old shares about the drug that helped her with her ADD, feel skinnier, prettier and more powerful especially when she began dealing it by the kilo.  She also opens up about her stint in prison and the things she learned there that helped her emotionally when being treated for breast cancer.  She is currently a certified drug and alcohol counselor studying to become a MFT (Marriage and Family therapist).

  • #198 Samantha C.

    Nov 07 2014

    Born with achondroplasia dwarfism to emotionally unavailable Taiwanese immigrant parents, Sam shares about being a "litte person" and the ways support groups have helped her navigate dealing with love addiction, sex addiction and co-dependency.

  • #197 Chris Gethard (voted #7 ep of 2014)

    Oct 31 2014

    The actor/writer opens up about his blue collar New Jersey upbringing, and his battles with anger, sadness, self-sabotage, paranoia, addiction, depression and the unorthodox nurse practitioner who has helped him.

  • #196 Laurenne Sala

    Oct 24 2014

    What happens when the Homecoming Queen takes off her popularity mask and deals with the pain of her co-dependent mom and the suicide of her gay father?  One of the most compassionate and truth-seeking guests we've ever had.

  • #195 Todd Glass (Voted #1 ep of 2014)

    Oct 17 2014

    The comedian and author shares about growing up with Dyslexia, OCD, being held back in grade school, his coming out of the closet in his 40s and the politics of language especially in regards to sexism.  

  • #194 Dr. Peace Amadi

    Oct 10 2014

    The clinical psychologist shares her insight and experience in working with The Ruby Project, helping girls who have been sexually abused and/or involved in sex trafficking heal though group workshops and artistic expression.

  • #193 Laura House (Live @ LAPodfest)

    Oct 03 2014

    The meditation teacher, standup comedian and writer (Samantha Who?) talks about her struggles with alcohol, food, weight, low self-esteem, relationships and what she gets from support groups and meditation.   Recorded live @ LApodfest.

  • Episode 192: Cheryl Klein

    Sep 26 2014

    The breast cancer survivor opens up about her lifelong hypochondria, OCD and anxiety. She talks about the emotional toll of infertility, having a miscarriage and the ensuing depression as well as her double mastectomy, having had a hysterectomy (because of the BRCA2 Gene) and the perspectives she gained by going through all of it. Not a downer, I swear!

  • Episode 191: Matt Oswalt (voted #8 ep of 2014)

    Sep 19 2014

    The 43 year-old comedy writer opens up about his idyllic childhood, and a couple of traumatic events he believes contribute to his isolating and fighting the demons of depression while being single, unemployed and living alone.

  • Episode 190: Aparna Nancherla

    Sep 12 2014

    The first generation Indian-American comedian opens up about her low self-esteem, perfectionism, depression, anxiety, eating disorder, the trap of becoming the "good child" and the constant struggle to not compare herself to others.

  • Episode 189: Lance L

    Sep 05 2014

    The pansexual Iraqi war veteran talks about his plans to come out to his homophobic family, growing up with a mother who picked terrible men,  his deadbeat dad and meeting a half-brother & doing a joint road trip to confront the father that abandoned them both.

  • Episode 188: Ask Erika Holmes MFT

    Aug 29 2014

    Marriage and Family Therapist Erika Holmes answers listener questions from Facebook and Twitter.  Topics include Eating Disorders, Borderline Personality Disorder, PTSD therapies, Neurofeedback and potential damage caused by parents who are religious zealots.

  • Episode 187: Susanna Lee

    Aug 22 2014

    The comedian/burlesque dancer talks about the power, pitfalls and rush of performing with and without her clothes on, including being a sex worker at a "jack shack" to make ends meet.  She opens up about her low self-esteem, struggles with her dad and the desire for truth no matter how bleak it may be.  She also shares about being attracted to unavailable men who hide their relationship with her from their friends and family.  

  • Episode 186: Jimmy Doyle

    Aug 15 2014

    The former Second City improviser turned drug & alcohol counselor talks about his mother's suicide when he was 12, coming out at 16 (in 1981), getting physically sober but being emotionally toxic and being fired from the prestigious improv company and finally having to change. They talk about Jimmy's breakthrough in doing EMDR and CBT therapy.   Paul also shares some listener emails and surveys around the topic of suicide given the nature of this week's Robin Williams tragedy.   On the surface i...more

  • Episode 185: Dese'Rae L Stage

    Aug 08 2014

    The photographer and activist talks about her bookwormish childhood, coming out in high school, the abusive relationship she couldn't bear to leave and her project which documents the stories of suicide attempt survivors (she is one) Live Through This.

  • Episode 184: Pamela Martin

    Aug 01 2014

    Is Chronic Fatigue Syndrome (Fibromyalgia, ME, etc) a purely physical ailment or is there also an emotional component related to trauma.  Pamela shares about being an incest survivor as well as the challenges of living with CFS and  being a people pleaser.  She also shares about raising a child with Selective Mutism and learning to be emotionally intimate with her supportive husband.

  • Episode 183: Jason Nash

    Jul 25 2014

    Recently diagnosed with BiPolar II, the actor and director of Jason Nash is Married talks about his fear of being just like his dad, his inability to fully enjoy what others seem to be able to easily enjoy, including being married and a stay at-home dad.

  • Episode 182: Pia Glenn

    Jul 18 2014

    The writer/performer shares about being raised by a violent and mentally unstable mother who refused to take meds, often leading to 911 calls and police.  She also talks about her own depression, anxiety, perfectionism and relationship struggles.

  • Episode 181: Lauren Hennessy

    Jul 11 2014

    The actor/singer and fiance of past guest Chemda talks about being a trans male (male but born into a female body) and despite his religious upbringing (his father is a minister) coming to embrace being transgender.

  • Episode 180: Jill Morley

    Jul 04 2014

    At 40, Jilll took up competitive boxing to work through the childhood PTSD caused by her mother's physical abuse.  She shares about living with depression, aiding other female fighters and making her documentary Fight Like a Girl.

  • Episode 179: Tyler W.

    Jun 27 2014

    The 26 year-old law student talks about his struggles with addiction especially bulimia, assuming the role of caretaker for his alcoholic parents when he was a child, a jarring move to a racially intolerant "Christian" city, and the peace he has today.

  • Episode 178: Anna Akana

    Jun 20 2014

    The performer/writer/director best known for her popular YouTube channel opens up about growing up with a Japanese father and Filipino mother where mistakes were not tolerated.  She also shares about her sister's suicide, lying, drugs & sex. Visit Anna's Youtube Channel, her Facebook Page, her Twitter Feed or her website. PillPack sponsors this show.  To check it out (and to help the podcast) go to Pillpack.com/happyhour. BrainHQ sponsors this show.  For 10% off a monthly or yearly subscripti...more

  • Episode 177: Michael H.

    Jun 13 2014

    The 25 year-old Taiwanese American shares about his co-dependency, painful breakups and perfectionism as well as the irony that as a trained therapist he knows he should establish boundaries with his mother but cannot bring himself to do so.

  • Episode 176: Bernadette

    Jun 06 2014

    The 36 year-old mother shares about the middle-class version of Cops that was her childhood, her Borderline Personality Disorder, suicide attempts and the drinking problem she can't bring herself to confront despite its effect on her children & boyfriend.

  • Episode 174: Andrea Schaeffer

    May 23 2014

    The Canadian listener talks about the masks she feels she had to wear to deal with childhood sadness, being raped at 16, and experiencing postpartum depression.  She talks about the support groups & the health care system that saved her life.

  • Episode 173: Julian F

    May 16 2014

    His childhood was a flurry of moving all over Europe and South America, his parents treated him like "Good Cop Bad Cop" and he has no idea why he felt like a "little pervert" as a kid.  They talk about manipulation, addiction, mania & a lot more.

  • Episode 172: Lynette Carolla

    May 09 2014

    The mother, wife and podcaster(For Crying Out Loud) talks about being pushed to be a child actor, the psychosis that mental illness brought upon her brother and mother, abusing Vicodin in an attempt to deal with postpartum depression and living with her husband Adam.

  • Episode 171: Tom Kramer

    May 02 2014

    The writer/director (Fridays, Curb Your Enthusiasm) shares about being sexually shamed, his fear of people and the drug and alcohol battles that took the great career he had been given at 20 and burned it to the ground, leaving him homeless.

  • Episode 170: Christina Pazsitzky

    Apr 25 2014

    The standup/actress shares about being the only child of parents who fled Communist Hungary, and after their divorce absorbing the brunt of her mothers mental illness (Borderline Personality Disorder).  She shares about the emotional scars and how she's working to heal them.  Christina co-hosts the podcast Your Mom's House with her husband/comedian Tom Segura.  

  • Episode 169: Mini Ep - Guilt w/Dr. Guy Winch

    Apr 21 2014

    Clinical psychologist Dr. Guy Winch shares some insights and tips on how to deal with guilt, plus some listener surveys.

  • Episode 168: Sexual Confusion - Kira

    Apr 18 2014

    The 29 year-old shares about the shame of having intrusive thoughts imagining sex with children; getting blackout drunk to the point of violence and making peace with coming out as a lesbian after years of not understanding why she disliked sex with men.

  • Mini Ep #167 - Failure w/Dr. Guy Winch

    Apr 14 2014

    Clinical psychologist Dr. Guy Winch shares some insights and tips for dealing with failure.  Guy is the author of the book Emotional First Aid.

  • Episode 166: Tracy Irvine

    Apr 11 2014

    The 40 year-old corporate recruiter shares about growing up with a sick mother (ALS) whose needs overshadowed hers, losing both her parents in her teens, using food for comfort, surviving an abusive marriage, depression, support groups, meds & self-love.

  • Mini Episode 165: Low Self-Esteem (voted #4 ep of 2014)

    Apr 07 2014

    Clinical psychologist Dr. Guy Winch shares some insights and tips on dealing with low self-esteem.

  • Episode 164: Natasha L.

    Apr 04 2014

    After Natasha's mother died she discovered her diaries.  What she read was horrifying to the average person but had the opposite effect on her.  She shares about her mother's apparent Borderline Personality Disorder and how it has affected her.

  • #163 Mini-Ep: Loneliness w/Dr. Guy Winch (voted #6 ep of 2014)

    Apr 01 2014

    Clinical psychologist Dr. Guy Winch shares some insights and tips on dealing with loneliness.  Guy is the author or the book  Emotional First Aid.  Paul also reads some surveys over his dog's objections.

  • Episode 162: Monica LIttle

    Mar 28 2014

    The mother and wife of a combat medic talks about her battles with intimacy, anxiety, drug abuse and the family that turned a blind eye to her pedophile grandfather.  She also talks about how being raped at 19 affected her sexuality.

  • Mini-Episode #161: Rejection with Dr. Guy Winch

    Mar 24 2014

    Clinical psychologist and author of the book Emotional First Aid, Dr. Guy Winch shares some tips and insights on dealing with rejection.  

  • Episode 160: Parenting Mental Illness

    Mar 21 2014

    Listener Joy opens up to Paul about raising a child with mental illness, especially her teenage daughter's Reactive Attachment Disorder, depression, the social stigma, the healthcare system and how to deal with it.

  • Mini Episode #159 - Rumination with Guy Winch PhD (voted #9 ep of 2014)

    Mar 18 2014

    Paul reads an email, two surveys then talks with author Guy Winch (PhD in clinical psychology) about practical tips to deal with rumination.  Guy is the author of the book Emotional First Aid.   This is the first of six mini-episodes with Guy on dealing with various emotional stressors.

  • Episode 158: Melissa Stetten

    Mar 14 2014

    The writer/model/actress talks about being raised by dis-interested parents, her battles with depression and the feeling that if she doesn't have a man in her life she feels "worthless".   Melissa is currently a writer for www.XOJane.com

  • Episode 157: Nandi La Sophia

    Mar 07 2014

    At four years-old he told his mom he wanted to be a lady when he grows up.  He shares about the violence inflicted by his complex father and classmates.  He talks about managing his PTSD, insomnia, Bipolar II, night terrors and being a rape survivor.

  • Episode 156: Sophie B

    Feb 28 2014

    The listener discusses hearing voices, dealing with Borderline Personality disorder and/or Bipolar II as well as the abusive "relationship" she had with a 22 year-old when she was 12 and how she began self-harming then.  The surveys are pretty dark.

  • Episode 155: Andrew Donnelly

    Feb 21 2014

    The 46 year-old comedian talks about the frustration and shame of battling ADD and depression while trying to be a good husband and father.  He and Paul talk about how to deal with anger when feeling overwhelmed and the bright side of living with mental illness.

  • Episode 154: Dr. Jessica DuBron

    Feb 14 2014

    The PhD (clinical psychology) shares about working with at-risk youth particularly in the LGBT population and in a Psychiatric Evaluation team, responding to mental health emergencies.  She also talks about the addictive rush of working in crisis.

  • Episode 152: Lindsay

    Jan 31 2014

    The list of major health issues she dealt with in childhood including brain and spine surgeries pale in comparison to the complicated relationship with her father; an alcoholic with no boundaries.  Paul and Lindsay discuss the parent who is oblivious to the way they leer at, talk to and touch their children.  They also discuss her Bipolar II, OCD, co-dependency and perfectionism.

  • Episode 151: Listener Confessions

    Jan 24 2014

    Culled from a month of surveys filled out by listeners.  Paul reads their shames, secrets, fears, hopes and beautiful moments.  And of course some "awfulsome" moments as well.

  • Episode 150: Ryan Sickler

    Jan 17 2014

    The standup comedian (Comedy Central, Late Late Show w/Craig Ferguson) and podcaster (The Crabfeast) shares about the hatred he endured from his mother and the love from his father and other relatives that saved him.

  • Episode 149: Cathy Ladman

    Jan 10 2014

    The writer (Roseanne) and standup (Tonight Show, Late Late Show w/Craig Ferguson) opens up about the controlling environment she was raised in, her professional anxieties especially about her age (58) and her decades long battle with anorexia.

  • Episode 148: Matthew Walden

    Jan 03 2014

    Although the writer/listener grew up in Hawaii, his childhood was far from paradise; enduring a cornucopia of PTSD, leaving him wondering what is real and what isn't.  He also shares his obsession with cults and and the time he joined one to write about it and almost lost his mind.

  • Episode 147: Listener Amelia & Postpartum Depression

    Dec 27 2013

    Amelia discusses her "nuclear" PMS (called PMDD), her first pregnancy and the pressures she felt for everything to be perfect and the crushing Postpartum Depression that followed.  She also talks about the childhood traumas that might be linked to it.

  • Episode 146: Chemda

    Dec 20 2013

    The podcaster (Keith and the Girl) was raised in NY but born in Israel to a mother of Iraqi heritage and an Iranian father, both of whom had traditional expectations for their daughter, none of which included her being engaged to a female-bodied man.

  • Episode 145: Dr. David Lisak

    Dec 13 2013

    Born in Montreal to a WWII widow, the clinical and forensic psychologist talks about the sexual abuse he experienced as a boy, the stigma and confusion adult male survivors grapple with and ultimately how he healed.  Episode is sponsored by www1in6.org which he co-founded.

  • Episode 144: Listener Seth

    Dec 06 2013

    Raised by parents who talked about God a lot, the 29 year-old opens up about the hypocrisy he saw in a mom who couldn't parent him and a trucker dad who was either disappearing for months or dealing meth in their small Wyoming town.

  • Episode 142: Scott Thompson Live in Toronto

    Nov 22 2013

    The comedian/actor/writer (Kids in the Hall, Larry Sanders, Hannibal) opens up about his childhood in Brampton Ontario, coming to terms with his sexuality and the bullying that eroded his self-esteem.  He also shares about a traumatic and violent even at his middle school that he considers seminal and his past battle with cancer.

  • Episode 141: Susanna Brisk

    Nov 15 2013

    Borderline Personality Disorder is often misunderstood.  The blogger, author, performer and mom explains what it's like to live with, how to manage it and when it's most challenging.  She also shares about her emotionally volatile childhood with her Russian Jewish relatives who emigrated from Estonia to Australia and being the mother of two boys.  She also shares about living with the idea that her performing dreams may never come true.

  • Episode 140: Paraphilia & Self-Abuse - Listener "D"

    Nov 08 2013

    The 28 year-old listener opens up about his familiy's history of avoiding emotions, his cries for help, struggling to live on $8/hour, his cutting and self-abuse and his shame over his paraphilia (adult baby) fetish.

  • Episode 139: Adoption w/listener Julie J

    Nov 01 2013

    Born to a drug-addict teenage mom, Julie was given up for adoption and raised by a stoic military dad and Fundamentalist mom whose obession with demons comes close to resembling the mother from "Carrie".   There much more to her story including her humor and resilience.  

  • Episode 138: Johnny O

    Oct 25 2013

    Paul's friend shares about being committed to a psych hospital at 17 over a breakup, discovering drugs (crack) and how to hustle money to feed his habit.  Hitting bottom in the desert and the dog that might have saved his life.

  • Episode 137: Aisha Tyler Live at LAPodfest

    Oct 18 2013

    The actress/writer/standup/podcaster/tv host joins Paul at LAPodfest in front of a live audience and discusses her outcast status as a child, where her drive comes from, growing to understand her father and appreciate the challenges of her marriage.

  • Episode 136: Listener Juan Medina

    Oct 11 2013

    The 26 year-old shares about emigrating to the U.S. from Mexico at 8, his fear of his father, "passing" for white, his body dysmorphia and the trouble feeling his feelings rather than shutting down.

  • Episode 135: Christina Jasberg

    Oct 04 2013

    She was raised by a father with Schizo-Affective Disorder who would often break from reality.  By her twenties she was battling the same disorder along with bulimia, anorexia and cutting.  Hospitalized over 80 times, she shares about coming out the other side and using her experience to help others.

  • Episode 134: Transgender Listener "Pidgeon"

    Sep 27 2013

    He is still physically female but has always identified as a male.  He talks about what it means to be genderfluid or genderqueer as well as pansexual and the diffiult road in discovering who he is and expressing that around others, especially family.

  • Episode 133: Adrienne Selbert

    Sep 20 2013

    Raised by attentive, loving parents she neverlheless grew up with a pervasive feeling of emptiness that she sought to soothe through relationships with men.   In her words she, "Burnt her life to the ground", but used the experience and pain to grow.

  • Episode 132: Listener Tom Seiniger

    Sep 13 2013

    The 22 year-old opens up about the guilt and anxiety of growing up feeling like it was his duty to keep his mother out of her depression, even though she was emotionally incestuous with him, how he finally rebelled, and the toll it has taken.

  • Episode 131: Co-Narcissism (a mini episode)

    Sep 09 2013

    Paul reads an article written by Alan Rappoport PhD about Co-Narcissism, which he describes as a result of being raised by one or sometimes two narcissistic parents. 

  • Episode 130: Cameron Esposito

    Sep 06 2013

    The standup comedian (Late Night with Craig Ferguson) opens up about her conservative Catholic upbringing and coming to terms with being lesbian.  She and Paul talk about bad porn, being turned on by things we wouldn't want in real life and the heavy burden of being co-dependent.

  • Episode 129: David Hirohama on Counseling Predators

    Aug 30 2013

    The 3rd generation Japanese-American psychologist shares his experience and observations counseling sexual predators (rapists and child molesters) at Coalinga, a lockdown mental hospital in central California and how he used Buddhism to help him cope.

  • Episode 128: Alison Baziak

    Aug 23 2013

    The 31 year-old listener ponders her low self-esteem, food issues, history of self-mutilation, compulsive spending and suicide attempts when her parents were "nothing but supportive".

  • Episode 127: Offspring of Holocaust Survivors

    Aug 16 2013

    Two sons of Holocaust survivors, Michael Rozbruch and Amir Tiles sit down with psychotherapist Joel Schwartz whose grandparents are also survivors and they discuss the ripples of PTSD still felt today within the families, caused by the trauma.  Amir's father Melvin, an 85 year-old Polish survivor also joins them.

  • Episode 126: Therapist Susan Hagen Helps Paul & Listeners

    Aug 09 2013

    The therapist who is also in recovery helps Paul and some listeners (via surveys) navigate their discomfort and confusion about their current issues.   They discuss the cliched but effective tools of self-parenting and inner-child work, as well as the line therapists draw regarding self-revelation to their clients.

  • Episode 125: Vietnam Vet Randy Olea

    Aug 02 2013

    A father/brother figure to Paul, the high-school teacher reflects on his Mexican heritage, violent upbringing, tour in Vietnam, stints as a bouncer at a Hell's Angels bar, and a Club Med guide, his getting "struck sober" and how he has evolved to become the man his father never was.

  • Episode 124: Amber Tozer

    Jul 26 2013

    The comedian (Last Comic Standing, Twitwits) talks her own alcoholism, her dad's awkward foray into lingerie photography, craving her mother's acceptance and understanding her own fluid sexuality.

  • Episode 123: Baron Vaughn

    Jul 19 2013

    The actor/comedian (Conan, Jimmy Fallon, Comedy Central) talks about his struggle to feel "authentically black" without betraying who he is, the state of comedy in the black community, honing his artistic voice, and his turbulent childhood especially with his alcoholic mother.

  • Episode 122: Giving Up Her Baby - Valerie

    Jul 12 2013

    Valerie, a listener talks about the painful decision she made to give her only son up for adoption years ago when she was 18 and living with her Catholic, divorced mother.

  • Episode 121: Christian Finnegan

    Jul 05 2013

    The standup comedian (Comedy Central Presents, Chapelle's Show, Best Week Ever, Countdown with Keith Olberman) opens up about the tragedy and parental mental illness that shaped his childhood and still affects him today as well as his struggle to trust and feel confident about his future.

  • Episode 120: Aspergers - Listener Louise

    Jun 28 2013

    Her childhood marked with social stress, being bullied, aggressiveness and severe digestive issues (including Barrett's Esophagus a condition involving acid reflux usually only found in adults) Louise was finally diagnosed with Aspergers Syndrome, also known as high-functioning autism.  She shares on what it's like to live with it, how it expresses itself in her life and the hurdles society has to overcome in understanding and accepting those with Aspergers.

  • Episode 119: Raped By His Sister - Tom

    Jun 21 2013

    Raised by a Baptist preacher who frequently got run out of town and raped by his older sister starting when he was 4, "Tom" has had a lot to work through.  A great episode about working through trauma especially in families that can't communicate.

  • Episode 118: Kulap Vilaysack returns!

    Jun 14 2013

    The actor and podcaster (Who Charted?) returns to the podcast to talk about the struggle to keep a relationship with her mother whose gambling addiction has wreaked havoc on her family's life.

  • Episode 117: Paul's Best Friend Dr. Mike Sebahar

    Jun 07 2013

    The Intervential Pain Specialist has been Paul's best friend since 1982.  They recount the evolotuion of their relationship, especially both dealing with the effects their father's alcoholism had on their families.  Mike also talks about the tightrope of treating people with chronic pain while trying to weed out potential abuse.  Mike recounts the intimacy he finally felt at the end of his father's life.

  • Episode 116: Listener Meghan P. Returns

    May 31 2013

    Listener Meghan P. returns to talk about being diagnosed with "Psychotic Disorder Not Otherwise Specified" and the hospitalization that resulted from going off of her meds in anticipation of losing her health insurance.    She discusses the intense paranoia, her brain feeling "stung" and  the belief that she was being filmed for a reality t.v. show everywhere she went.  Meghan is the writer/producer/director of the documentary eXtreme, Loyal, Victorious: The Packer Fan Experience.

  • Episode 115: Ashly Burch

    May 24 2013

    The writer and actress (Hey Ash, Whatcha' Playin?) and VO artist (Tiny Tina of Borderlands 2) opens up about the recent accidental overdose death of her boyfriend and the struggle to put her life back together.  They also talk about the danger of invalidating children's feelings and the shame of obsessive or intrusive thoughts.

  • Episode 114: Listener Michael D. and Breaking the Cycle of Abuse

    May 17 2013

    Michael opens up about his teenage struggle to avoid dealing with his chaotic and abusive childhood by being extremely regimented, resulting in an eating disorder, punching himself, compulsive exercising and eventually having a nervous breakdown.  He shares about finally dealing with his PTSD in therapy and confronting the cycle of abuse in his family so it won't be passed on to his children.  He also talks about having to cut contact with his family because of their refusal to deal with a one o...more

  • Episode 113: Lynn Chen

    May 10 2013

    The actress (Saving Face, NCIS, Lakeview Terrace) and blogger (The Actor's Diet) opens up about processing the complex emotions of losing her father, food issues, and forgiving her abusers.  Paul opens the show with an extended update on current emotional, mental and physical battles.

  • Episode 112: Child Protective Services Social Worker "Ray"

    May 03 2013

    What is it like to be the government agent that has to physically investigate allegations of abuse or neglect and sometimes even remove children from a home?  "Ray", a 3rd generation social worker opens up about his passion and struggles working for Child Protective Services.

  • Episode 111: Karen Kilgariff Live in Portland

    Apr 26 2013

    The actress (Mr. Show) and writer (The Ellen DeGeneres Show) shares about struggling to fit in, body shame, her alcoholism, her mother's Alzheimers, learning to accept her body and become vulnerable and her experiences in therapy.  Recorded 4/20/13 at the Bridgetown Comedy Festival.

  • Episode 110: Greg Behrendt Returns

    Apr 19 2013

    The podcaster (Walking the Room), author (He's Just Not That Into You) and guitarist (The Reigning Monarchs) returns to discuss the mania, depression and paranoia that left him considering suicide in a Montreal hotel room.  They also discuss the difference between passion and obsession, following your heart, therapy and the fluidity and dynamics of suicidal ideation.

  • Episode 109: Listener Claire Laffar

    Apr 12 2013

    Claire shares about her bullied upbringing outside London with a neurotic mom and a mysterious, stoic dad prone to explosive fits of rage and how escaping into fantasy worlds, especially books, became her way of coping.

  • Episode 108: Greg Fitzsimmons

    Apr 05 2013

    The writer (The Ellen DeGeneres Show, Lucky Louie) comedian (Comedy Central, The Howard Stern Show) and podcaster (Fitzdog Radio) opens up about his tumultuous relationship with his late father, his temper, his body shame, ADHD and alcohol.

  • Episode 107: Sara Benincasa

    Mar 29 2013

    The writer (Agorafabulous!, XOJane.com, Vice.com) and performer (Comedy Central, MTV) talks about a popular friend's suicide in high school that informed much of her later life, her families history of depression and anxiety and her Agoraphobia.   They also share tips to avoid isolating and talk in depth about everybody's favorite topic; catheters!  

  • Episode 106: Robert Patrick Lewis

    Mar 22 2013

    The former Green Beret talks about his childhood in Texas, the loss of his adoptive mother, his tours in Afghanistan, Iraq and Africa, the injury that resulted in his getting a Purple Heart and living with PTSD.  Robert is a spokesperson for USA Cares and the author of Love Me When I'm Gone.

  • Episode 105: Ali Handal

    Mar 15 2013

    The singer/songwriter guitarist talks to Paul about being a female guitarist in a male-dominated industry, her negative self-talk, fear of failure, workaholism, and why she stayed with a past boyfriend whose actions betrayed and disgusted her.

  • Episode 104: Siblings/Listeners John & Megan Brehman

    Mar 08 2013

    The siblings discuss growing up in an affluent but emotionally witholding household, and how their struggles with depression and her eating disorder ultimately brought them closer together.  They talk about the difficulty of connecting with an emotionally shutdown mother consumed with presenting a facade of normalcy to the outside world.  They discuss John's childhood self-harming, Megan's non-purging bulimia and compulsive exercising and starving, and the importance of finally asking for help f...more

  • Episode 103: Emily Gordon

    Mar 01 2013

    The podcaster (Indoor Kids) and former licensed therapist opens up about her battle with Adult Onset Still's Disease, her mentally-ill grandmother, rebelling as an adolescent, being a woman in the South, working with schizophrenic patients, and perpetrators and victims of domestic violence.  They also talk about the importance of having emotional support, and how to distance yourself from people who are draining.

  • Episode 102: Peter T

    Feb 22 2013

    Paul's friend opens up about being adopted by a physically and sexually abusive paranoid schizophrenic mother, being a child actor and almost dying from AIDS.  They talk about spirituality, Peter's Christianity, and the importance of surrender.

  • Episode 101: Stefanie Wilder-Taylor

    Feb 15 2013

    The writer (I'm Kind of a Big Deal) podcaster (For Cryin' Out Loud) and tv host (Parental Discretion on Nick Mom) opens up about her alcoholism, bulimia, post partum depression, childhood and marriage.  Phew!!

  • Episode 100: Brody Stevens

    Feb 08 2013

    The actor (The Hangover, The Hangover 2) and standup comedian (Comedy Central Presents, Chelsea Lately, TMZ) talks about his very public manic episode in 2011, the blurry line between his onstage persona and his real life demons and how he is learned to live with his diagnosis of Bipolar I. 

  • Episode 099: Jess

    Feb 01 2013

    Paul's friend opens about her chaotic childhood, her abandonment issues, and the struggling to find words to categorize the sex she wanted and got at 12, from a 27 year-old man.  She also talk about the self-doubt of giving up her fledgling comedy career to become a therapist. 

  • Episode 98: Ed Crasnick

    Jan 25 2013

    The actor (The Sopranos), standup and podcaster (The Self-Help Comedy Hour) talks with Paul about his lifelong battle with anxiety and low self-esteem and the importance of welcoming fear instead of fighting it.

  • Episode 097: Elizabeth Laime

    Jan 19 2013

    The podcaster (Totally Laime and Totally Married) and aspiring writer chats with Paul about her idyllic upbringing, tragedy, loss, Xmas, porn, grieving and the sexualizing of today's youth.

  • Episode 96: Escort/Prostitute Lillith

    Jan 11 2013

    "Lillith" (not her real name) opens up to Paul about why she chooses to moonlight as an escort/prostitute, even though her day job pays the bills.  She talks about living with a rapid cycling form of BiPolar type I, childhood sexual trauma, how her mania helped her excel academically, and the myths and truths about having sex for money.

  • Episode 95: Maria Bamford

    Dec 02 2012

    The groundbreaking comedian (Comedy Central Presents:, Comedians of Comedy, Sarah Silverman Program) and voiceover artist (Wordgirl, Adult Swim) talks about her lifelong battles with OCD, Unwanted Thoughts Syndrome, BiPolar II, and the recent hospitilization that probably saved her life.  Sounds pretty hilarious huh?