Mental Illness Happy Hour

A weekly hour-long conversation between host Paul Gilmartin and a guest (often a fellow artist) about their mental and emotional struggles, large and small. Listeners describe it as " entertaining, comforting, honest, helpful and funny".


  • 435 Anxiety & Humor - Jordan Reid

    May 17 2019

    The hilarious blogger/author of Ramshackle Glam and The Big Activity Book For Anxious People shares about her battles with anxiety, relationships and being replaced as the creator and lead actress on It's Always Sunny in Philadelphia. She and Paul also get into some fun Fears and Loves.   More About Jordan Reid http://www.ramshackleglam.com https://www.amazon.com/Big-Activity-Book-Anxious-People/dp/0525538062#byline_secondary_view_div_1557335105824 https://www.instagram.com/ramshackleglam/   Su...more

  • 434 - Depression, Drinking & Fear - Ry Doon

    May 10 2019

    The comedian shares about his battles with depression, fear of failure, huge financial and professional setbacks (he had a huge following on Vine before it was retired), having a mother with BiPolar I, and alcohol. More About Our Guest Follow Ry on Twitter and Instagram @RyDoon Support Our Sponsors!  This episode is sponsored by BetterHelp online counseling.  To get a free week go to www.BetterHelp.com/mental  Must be 18.  This episode is sponsored by VariDesk.  For more info go to www.VariDesk....more

  • 433 - Janet Varney Returns

    May 03 2019

    Paul's former Dinner and a Movie cohost and very first guest on the podcast returns to share about fears, loves, panic attacks, people pleasing, hurt feelings and her battles with personalization displacement syndrome. More About Our Guest Find her on Twitter @JanetVarney Find her on Instagram @TheJVClub Check out her website www.JanetVarney.com And Check out her awesome podcast The JV Club  Support Our Sponsors!  This episode is sponsored by BetterHelp online counseling.  To get a free week go ...more

  • 432 - Heartache & Obsession - Elle Huerta

    Apr 26 2019

    The IT entrepreneur and writer who created the Mend app talks about her struggles with obsessions and letting go especially after breakups or loss, how she is creating a community online to deal with the shame, isolation, obsession and feelings of rejection and not being enough.  She also talks about the sickness of working to extreme exhaustion and trying to find validation outside of her accomplishments. More About Our Guest On leaving Google: https://medium.com/this-happened-to-me/why-i-left-...more

  • 431 - Rich But Sad & Video Games - Keith Kingbay

    Apr 19 2019

    The comedian and podcaster (New Player Has Joined) opens up about his financially privileged but emotionally barren childhood, verbal abuse from youth hockey coaches, and discovering himself thru video games. More About Our Guest Find more about Keith at: https://twitter.com/NewPlayerPod  https://twitter.com/KeithKingbay https://www.instagram.com/newplayerpod/ https://www.instagram.com/keithkingofbays/  Support Our Sponsors!  This episode is sponsored by BetterHelp online counseling.  To get a f...more

  • 430 - Our Own Worst Enemies - Lori Gottlieb LMFT

    Apr 12 2019

    The licensed therapist and author of Maybe You Should Talk to Someone shares about common issues people deal with in therapy and ways that we are our own worst enemy. Paul shares about adopting a dog, plus great listener descriptions of their food issues anxiety and depression. More About Our Guest    MAYBE YOU SHOULD TALK TO SOMEONE now available at bookstores everywhere!   Contributing editor +  "DEAR THERAPIST"   columnist   @TheAtlantic  Follow her: Website  +  Facebook + Twitter   Support...more

  • 429 Trust Issues, Ideation & Food - Leo Flowers

    Apr 05 2019

    The comic, life coach, & ex-athlete shares about his lifelong suicidal ideation, struggles with food, abandonment by his dad who fathered him via an affair, learning trust, self-care, conflict resolution and even trying the suicide hotline. More About Our Guest www.LeoFlowers.com www.Twitter.com/LeoFlowers4Real www.instagram.com/LeoFlowers2000 www.Facebook.com/LeoFlowers2.0 www.Youtube.com/LeoFlowers Support Our Sponsors!  This episode is sponsored by BetterHelp online counseling.  To get a free...more

  • 428 - Trading Sex For Love - Marigny Goodyear

    Mar 29 2019

    The 42 year-old mother reads the open letter she wrote to the men who took advantage of her as a young teen, discussing gray area issues like consent, alcohol, objectification and trading sex for love, attention or to avoid abandonment. More About Our Guest https://www.marignygoodyearart.com/blogs/artventures   https://business.facebook.com/marignygoodyearart/   https://www.instagram.com/marignygoodyearart/?hl=en   Private FB group for sexual trauma survivors https://www.facebook.com/groups/3584...more

  • 427 Best Of: Adoption & Religious Abuse - Julie J

    Mar 22 2019

    Funny and vulnerable, Julie was born to a drug-addict teenage mom, was given up for adoption and raised by a stoic military dad and Fundamentalist mom whose obsession with demons comes close to resembling the mother from “Carrie”.  From 2013 I forgot to mention it in the episode but the monthly-donor raffle for this cutting board is thru Wed Mar 27th.  Donors get one guess per $5/month donation.  So a $10 donor would get two guesses etc.  I have chosen a number between 1 and 500 and the person w...more

  • 426 Grief Support Mistakes - Megan DeVine LPC

    Mar 15 2019

    The licensed therapist shares about the well-meaning but misguided "cult of positivity" after tragedies, emotional dissonance, grief support, having difficult conversations and how she dealt with the sudden death of her partner 10 years ago. More About Our Guest Check out her Refuge in Grief website Her Grief Revolution page on Patreon  the writing your grief course and the How to Help a Grieving Friend animation.    Her book It's Okay That You're Not OK: Meeting Grief and Loss In a Culture That...more

  • #425 Remembering Jenn Golick

    Mar 08 2019

    Weeks after recording this episode last year, therapist Dr. Jennifer Golick was killed by a combat veteran with PTSD whom she was helping. She talks about her work with vets, covert incest and codependence. Support Our Sponsors! This episode is sponsored by BetterHelp online counseling.  To get a free week go to www.BetterHelp.com/mental  Must be 18. This episode is sponsored by MadisonReed home hair coloring kits.  For 10% off your first kit plus free shipping go to www.Madison-Reed.com and use...more

  • 424 Remembering Brody Stevens

    Mar 01 2019

    One of the most unique voices in comedy ended his life last week. Paul shares some thoughts on it, reads a listener email and replays episode 100, an interview with Brody from Feb 2013, in its entirety. Support Our Sponsors! This episode is sponsored by BetterHelp online counseling.  To get a free week go to www.BetterHelp.com/mental  Must be 18. This episode is sponsored by ThirdLove bras and underwear.  For 15% off your first purchase go to www.ThirdLove.com/mental This episode is sponsored by...more

  • #423 Catholic Black Sheep - Joe Bill

    Feb 22 2019

    Paul's longtime friend and improv teacher talk about his violent ex-Notre Dame football player dad, his mentally unstable and sexually abusive mother and how he found his voice in creativity but still struggles with shame, codependency and self-love. Links Mentioned To fill out the listener demographic survey (anonymously) and help the show attract advertisers go to www.PodSurvey.com/mental More About Our Guest Joe Bill Teaches FB Group: https://www.facebook.com/groups/182602909978/   BASSPROV: ...more

  • #422 Religious & Sexual Orientation OCD - Kimberley Quinlan LMFT

    Feb 15 2019

    Licensed therapist (LMFT) Kimberley Quinlan returns to talk about two types of OCD; Scrupulosity - a fear of sinning or having sinned, and Sexual Orientation OCD - an obsession about one's present or future orientation. She and Paul share their own fears and "fuckups" Kimberley also hosts her own podcast Your Anxiety Toolkit. More About Our Guest cbtschool.com   Kimberleyquinlan-lmft.com   https://itunes.apple.com/us/podcast/your-anxiety-toolkit/id1098792502?mt=2 Support Our Spons...more

  • #421 Amy G - Male Attention & Feeling Safe

    Feb 08 2019

    Paul's support group friend opens up about being addicted to male attention while also fearing them, feeling unsafe, love addiction, growing up without her bio dad (without explanation) and the power of vulnerability in healing.   Support Our Sponsors! This episode is sponsored by BetterHelp online counseling.  To get a free week go to www.BetterHelp.com/mental  Must be 18. This episode is sponsored by BlueChew.  To try it for free plus $5 shipping go to www.BlueChew.com and use offer code MENTA...more

  • #420 Psychiatrist/Writer Dr Paul Puri

    Feb 01 2019

    The psychiatrist and tv writer (Chicago Med) shares about his childhood, why some of his peers overprescribe medications, the importance of talk therapy, some info on hypnosis and Paul opens up about his health fears especially around meds and long-term health.   More About Our Guest http://paulrpurimd.com Support Our Sponsors!  This episode is sponsored by BetterHelp online counseling.  To get a free week go to www.BetterHelp.com/mental  Must be 18. This episode is sponsored by BlueChew.  Get y...more

  • Feeling Like An Outsider - Glenn Lutz

    Jan 25 2019

    The author (Go F*%#, I Mean Find Yourself) opens up about being mixed race and battling depression and feeling like an outsider as far back as childhood. He and Paul share things they're grateful for and read inspirational quotes from his book. More About Our Guest Buy Glenn's book here Follow him on Instagram @Glenn_Lutz  Support Our Sponsors!  This episode is sponsored by BetterHelp online counseling.  To get a free week go to www.BetterHelp.com/mental  Must be 18. This episode is sponsored b...more

  • #419b Bonus ep - Listener Struggles/Secrets

    Jan 21 2019

    Some "Shame and Secrets" surveys and some "Awfulsome" and "Happy Moments" surveys as well.   This episode is sponsored by StitchFix online personal styling service.  Get started at www.StitchFix.com/mental and get 25% off when you keep all 5 items in your box.  

  • #418 Fears & Loves w/Nora McInerney Live

    Jan 18 2019

    The author (It's OK to Laugh and No Happy Endings) and host of the podcast Terrible Thanks For Asking returns in front of live audience in Minneapolis. She, Paul and the audience share their fears and loves and answer some questions. More About Our Guest Check out her books and where to buy them at www.noraborealis.com/book Follow her on social media @NoraBorealis And of course check out her great podcast Terrible Thanks For Asking  Support Our Sponsors! This episode is sponsored by BetterHelp o...more

  • Bonus Ep - Maternal Incest - Daniel M

    Jan 15 2019

    After hearing mens' stories about experiencing incest (overtly or covertly) by their mothers, Daniel reached out to Paul with his story and has come to share it (with his girlfriend for support as well.)   This episode is sponsored by StitchFix online personal styling service.  Get 25% off when you keep all 5 items in your box.  Go to www.StitchFix.com/mental This episode is sponsored by Himalaya podcasting app.  You can download it at the App store or Google Play store.  

  • Our Inner Critic - Cartoonist Lucy Bellwood

    Jan 11 2019

    The cartoonist (100 Demon Dialogues) delves into her struggles with the mean/critical voice in her head and how she is confronting the lies it tells her about herself. She also shares about her dad, the author of The Highlander, and their complex relationship.   More About Our Guest lucybellwood.com 100demondialogues.com  patreon.com/LucyBellwood www.twitter.com/LuBellWoo www.instagram.com/LuBellWoo   Support Our Sponsors! This episode is sponsored by BetterHelp online counseling.  To get a fre...more

  • Facing Her Fears - Courtenay Hameister

    Jan 04 2019

    The writer/performer opens up about her anxiety, panic attacks, OCD, shame and body issues. She also reads excerpts from Okay Fine Whatever: The Year I Went From Being Afraid Of Everything to Being Afraid Of Most Things, her hilarious new book about taking risks and challenging her fears, especially social phobias. More About Our Guest For more on Courtenay go to www.CourtenayHameister.com  Follow her on Twitter @Wisenheimer Support Our Sponsors! This episode is sponsored by BetterHelp online co...more

  • 2018 Year Ender - Awfulsome Traditions

    Dec 28 2018

    No guests, just some of Paul's thoughts on traditions and holidays; how we hide our feelings and some great, very honest (and one very dark) listener surveys including the best holiday Awfulsome moment yet.   Support Our Sponsors!  This episode is sponsored by BetterHelp online counseling.  To get a free week go to www.BetterHelp.com/mental  Must be 18.    WAYS TO HELP THE PODCAST ______________________ Subscribe via iTunes and leave a review.  It costs nothing. https://itunes.apple.com/us/podca...more

  • Struggles With Moderation, Identify & Survivor's Guilt - Akshay Nanavati

    Dec 21 2018

    Born in India, raised in Texas, 33 year-old Iraq War veteran, ultra-runner and global philanthropist talks about his lifelong struggles with moderation, getting his identify from his accomplishments or dangerous/crazy/extreme behavior, feeling unworthy and battling survivors guilt after losing a fellow soldier.  He also talks about spirituality especially finding purpose through sacrifice and service. Akshay is the author of the book Fearvana (with a forward by the Dalai Fucking Lama!) More Abou...more

  • Dating Anxiety & Reproductive Issues - Becky Feldman

    Dec 14 2018

    Coming from an anxious family, coupled with not fitting in, being bullied by her ballet teacher (and having red hair), then as a young teen, developing vaginismus, Becky spent her 20s resigned to never dating or having a partner. Surgery, talk therapy, physical therapy and giving dating another try has proved to be more helpful than she expected. Older episodes can be found ad-free exclusively at Stitcher Premium for $4.99/month.  Get one month free with offer code MENTAL at signup at www.Stitch...more

  • Back in My Parents' F-ing Basement - Live in MN w/Kjell Bjorgen

    Dec 07 2018

    Recorded live in Minneapolis at Sisyphus Brewing, Paul and Kjell reunite and share stories of bombing onstage, panic attacks, depression, meds, feeling lazy, future tripping, anger at partners, living in parents' basements, self-doubt, dead-end jobs and self-sabotage. Older episodes can be found ad-free exclusively at Stitcher Premium for $4.99/month.  Get one month free with offer code MENTAL at signup at www.StitcherPremium.com/mentalpod   past guests include people like people like Tiffany Ha...more

  • Cartoons & Murder - Tonya McKenzie

    Nov 30 2018

    One of her first memories is seeing her mother's boyfriend shot dead in front of her at four years-old. The mother she adored was fiercely protective of her except when it interfered with her dangerous lifestyle. A great chat about mental health - especially among POC -, complicated relationships with mothers, the cycles of generational dysfunction and trauma in the black community and the challenges raising her teenage son in a mostly white community. Older episodes can be found ad-free exclusi...more

  • LeeAnn Kreischer - Rural Southern Generational Trauma

    Nov 23 2018

    The former screenwriter, mother and podcaster shares about her relationship with her "party-animal" husband Bert Kreischer and her tumultuous childhood split between a mentally-ill narcissistic mother, a lovesick broken father, and a grandfather with severe combat PTSD from being the one of the first soldiers to enter Nagasaki after the atomic bomb detonated. She describes how she faced her pain, changed her life and is trying to grow into the person and mother she never had.     Older episodes ...more

  • FOMO, Shame & People Pleasing - Mary Holland

    Nov 16 2018

    The improviser/actor (UCB's Wild Horses) opens up about her struggles with feeling like a fraud, people pleasing, shame, FOMO, feeling undeserving or that her authentic self is just too much for people. Older episodes can be found ad-free exclusively at Stitcher Premium for $4.99/month.  Get one month free with offer code MENTAL at signup at www.StitcherPremium.com/mentalpod   Hear guests like: Tiffany Haddish, Marc Maron, Maria Bamford, Melissa Villasenor, NHL Legend Theo Fleury, Aisha Tyler, S...more

  • Chris Mancini - A Buffet of Anxiety

    Nov 09 2018

    The filmmaker (Earbuds) podcaster (Comedy Film Nerds and Conversations From the Abyss) writer (Pacified: A Handbook For the New Freaked-Out Dad) and comedian sits down to talk about anxiety, depression, parental stress/anxiety and feeling career disappointment/frustration/doubt.  He also talks about the Earbuds documentary and the importance of human connection not only in dealing with mental struggles but between podcasts and listeners.   Older episodes can be found ad-free exclusively at Stitc...more

  • Sofiya Alexandra - Mania, Communism, Surviving Cancer & #MeToo

    Nov 02 2018

    The writer (Danger & Eggs) standup (Comedy Central: This is Not Happening) & podcaster (Reality Bytes) shares about her childhood under communism in the Ukraine, her battles with bipolar (loving the mania), surviving cancer and how to help or talk to someone with it and how all of us can help the #MeToo movement, especially powerful people who caused harm. Older episodes can be found ad-free exclusively at Stitcher Premium for $4.99/month.  Get one month free with offer code MENTAL at signup at ...more

  • Lazy, Dumb, Hyper, Scattered - Jessica McCabe & ADHD labels

    Oct 26 2018

    "Bored", "lazy", "scattered" "hyper"; Are these fair or accurate labels? Is there anything we can do to help our brains or motivation? Jessica shares about her past struggles with these labels and how we can find what our brain likes so we don't fight it's natural impulses, rather work with them instead applying a quick and dismissive label. She dispels some myths about ADD/ADHD and reveals some truths that aren't commonly known about it.  She also talks about her childhood and how negative even...more

  • It's OK To Be Weird & Anxious - May Wilkerson

    Oct 19 2018

    The standup & cohost of the "Crazy in Bed" podcast opens up about being an only child & a "weird kid" who couldn't appreciate her uniqueness and desire to belong until college. She shares about her battles with social anxiety, bulimia, drinking, insomnia, racing thoughts, being left out and feeling guilty for coming from privilege.  She and Paul also talk about their histories of taking meds and their side effects and finding a home in support groups despite thinking they wouldn't work. Older ep...more

  • Adam Cayton-Holland: OCD, Social Conscience and Loss

    Oct 12 2018

    The standup, actor and author shares about familial loss, his lifelong OCD rituals, and growing up in a home where the harsh and often brutal realities of the world were discussed with the kids, helping them empathize but also took an emotional toll. Older episodes can be found ad-free exclusively at Stitcher Premium for $4.99/month.  Get one month free with offer code MENTAL at signup at www.StitcherPremium.com/mentalpod   Hear guests like: Tiffany Haddish, Marc Maron, Maria Bamford, Melissa Vi...more

  • Mariel Hemingway - Generational Dysfunction & Art

    Oct 05 2018

    The actress, mental health activist and author (Out Came the Sun: Overcoming the Legacy of Mental Illness, Addiction and Suicide in My Family) and granddaughter of writer Ernest Hemingway shares about the him, her family, acting, generational trauma, mental illness, addiction/alcoholism and dysfunction and how she has learned to deal with her codependence and fear of letting go especially thru her relationships, nature, supplements and lesser-known therapies. Older episodes can be found ad-free ...more

  • Dealing with Hopelessness - AFSP Psychiatrist Dr Christine Moutier

    Sep 28 2018

    The psychiatrist and chief medical officer for the American Foundation for Suicide Prevention shares insights into dealing with hopelessness both personally and with loved ones. The Suicide Hotline number is 1-800-273-TALK Older episodes can be found ad-free exclusively at Stitcher Premium for $4.99/month. Get one month free with offer code MENTAL at signup at www.StitcherPremium.com/mentalpod Hear guests like: Tiffany Haddish, Marc Maron, Maria Bamford, Melissa Villasenor, NHL Legend Theo Fleur...more

  • Paul in Ireland VI - Terror, Hate & Forgiveness - Sponsored by BetterHelp

    Sep 21 2018

    Belfast native James Murray shares his story of surviving a terrorist attack, spiraling into drinking and anger then getting sober and finding peace & forgiveness and how he maintains it. He also shares about the benefits of ayahuasca. Older episodes can be found ad-free exclusively at Stitcher Premium for $4.99/month.  Get one month free with offer code MENTAL at signup at www.StitcherPremium.com/mentalpod   Hear guests like: Tiffany Haddish, Marc Maron, Maria Bamford, Melissa Villasenor, NHL L...more

  • Paul in Ireland V - Ex IRA Prisoner Jake MacSiacais - Sponsored by BetterHelp

    Sep 14 2018

    The former IRA fighter/volunteer shares his people's history, his years of imprisonment & torture by Protestants and the British govt, the responsibility he feels for civilian lives that were taken by his organization, watching fellow prisoner Bobby Sands die by hunger strike, finding ways to survive mentally and how the emotions surfaced unexpectedly years later.  Older episodes can be found ad-free exclusively at Stitcher Premium for $4.99/month.  Get one month free with offer code MENTAL at s...more

  • Paul in Ireland IV - Emma - Sponsored by BetterHelp

    Sep 07 2018

    The English architect (and yoga teacher) talks about navigating relationships being bisexual, finding solutions for her lifelong bouts with anxiety, recurrent depressive disorder, abusive partners and bottoming out with a suicide attempt. Older episodes can be found ad-free exclusively at Stitcher Premium for $4.99/month.  Get one month free with offer code MENTAL at signup at www.StitcherPremium.com/mentalpod     Support Our Sponsors!   This episode is sponsored by BetterHelp online counseling....more

  • Paul in Ireland III - Sponsored by BetterHelp - Caitlin

    Aug 31 2018

    The 29 year-old Dubliner opens up about her struggles with depression, psychosis, cutting/self-harm, alcohol, anger, learning disability (seeing letters mirrored) & spatial/motor control; also her suicide attempt and it finally expressing her pain despite feeling numb. Older episodes can be found ad-free exclusively at Stitcher Premium for $4.99/month.  Get one month free with offer code MENTAL at signup at www.StitcherPremium.com/mentalpod     Support Our Sponsors!   This episode is sponsored b...more

  • Paul in Ireland II - Sponsored by BetterHelp - Michael Corr/Belfast

    Aug 24 2018

    Born in Belfast, Northern Ireland to a Catholic father and Protestant mother. He had the rare perspective of seeing all sides of the conflict both inside and outside his home, where he was raised Catholic in a violently Protestant neighborhood.  He shares stories of having to endure violence walking to school every day because of his easily identifiable Catholic uniform.   Today he is an architect who works on global projects that try to bring together communities torn apart by differences and v...more

  • Paul in Ireland I - Sponsored by BetterHelp

    Aug 17 2018

    21 year-old M emigrated to Dublin from China at 8. With a history of abuse and neglect, she learned to stuff her sadness or unleash it thru anger. She battles Bipolar I, BPD, Complex PTSD & co-dependence but is developing tools & support.  She talks about growing up with conditional love and physical violence where emotions like sadness weren't allowed.  Her girlfriend A sits in and talks about supporting her and how they formed a bond in their all-girl secondary school over sharing mental illne...more

  • ECT aka "Shock Therapy" - Beth May

    Aug 10 2018

    At 27 Beth has had 68 ECT treatments aka "Shock Therapy" and while she attests to it's effectiveness in helping her with her bipolar episodes it has also taken a toll on her memory; including not recognizing her boyfriend of several years. Older episodes can be found ad-free exclusively at Stitcher Premium for $4.99/month.  Get one month free with offer code MENTAL at signup at www.StitcherPremium.com/mentalpod     More About Our Guest Social media: @heybethmay Email: tobethmay@gmail.com -Articl...more

  • Fetish Shame, Meds & Martial Arts - Dylan Brody

    Aug 03 2018

    The writer/storyteller discusses the lifelong struggle to make peace with his amputation fetish, his ups and downs with taking meds, inheriting his dad's pomposity, suicidal ideation and the benefits of martial arts in dealing with depression and anxiety. Older episodes can be found ad-free exclusively at Stitcher Premium for $4.99/month.  Get one month free with offer code MENTAL at signup at www.StitcherPremium.com/mentalpod     More About Our Guest www.DylanBrody.com www.twitter.com/DylanBrod...more

  • How to Deal With Addicts - Dr Cali Estes

    Jul 27 2018

    Cali's specialty is speaking the truth to high-profile or wealthy people trying to get sober, especially when they're being enabled by family, hangers-on or the people they make money for. Topics are : codependency, low self-esteem & boundaries Older episodes can be found ad-free exclusively at Stitcher Premium for $4.99/month.  Get one month free with offer code MENTAL at signup at www.StitcherPremium.com/mentalpod     More About Our Guest Click here for more information on Dr. Cali Estes. Face...more

  • Michael Duffy - Vietnam Vet - Art & War

    Jul 20 2018

    He was just a kid who wanted to get into art school but when he was rejected, he instead got sent to Vietnam. Later he would use painting to process the traumas he experienced. Older episodes can be found ad-free exclusively at Stitcher Premium for $4.99/month.  Get one month free with offer code MENTAL at signup at www.StitcherPremium.com/mentalpod     More About Our Guest Here is some of the artwork by Michael http://collection.nvam.org/index.php?artist=Duffy%2C+Michael Additional artwork can ...more

  • Meredith Erin - Trolls, SJWs & Angry People

    Jul 13 2018

    Paul and Meredith share their stories and thoughts about encountering internet trolls, Social Justice Warriors gone awry and self-righteous bullies.   Older episodes can be found ad-free exclusively at Stitcher Premium for $4.99/month.  Get one month free with offer code MENTAL at signup at www.StitcherPremium.com/mentalpod     More About Our Guest For more info on Meredith Website: https://www.boredwalktshirts.com/ Twitter: https://twitter.com/boredwalktees Instagram: https://www.instagram.com/...more

  • Brian Huskey - Codependency vs Love

    Jul 06 2018

    The improvisor/actor (Comedy Bang Bang, UCB, Adult Swim - Mr. Neighbor's House) shares about dealing with his co-dependency, urge to fix other people, play the resentful victim and how support groups help him. Older episodes can be found ad-free exclusively at Stitcher Premium for $4.99/month.  Get one month free with offer code MENTAL at signup at www.StitcherPremium.com/mentalpod     More About Our Guest Follow Brian on Twitter @TheBrianHuskey Check out Mr. Neighbor's House and Mr. Neighbor'...more

  • Sexism PTSD & The Body - Elizabeth Menzel

    Jun 29 2018

    Elizabeth Menzel's life's work is understanding and healing trauma trapped in the body - including her own. Originally a trained physical therapist she became intrigued by the link between clients with fibromyalgia and a history of trauma.  She found help in Somatic Experiencing and other modes of releasing trauma.  She talks about the science of releasing tension and stress, PTSD and sexism - including sharing her own struggles coming from a childhood with an overtly misogynistic father.   Olde...more

  • Female Domestic Violence Against Men - Daniel A

    Jun 22 2018

    Daniel looks back at his relationship with his soon-to-be-ex-wife; turning from the woman of his dreams to a dangerously violent and unpredictable stranger. He talks about the myths around female on male DV and his experiences before leaving her   Older episodes can be found ad-free exclusively at Stitcher Premium for $4.99/month.  Get one month free with offer code MENTAL at signup at www.StitcherPremium.com/mentalpod     Support Our Sponsors! This episode is sponsored by BetterHelp online coun...more

  • Social Anxiety - Dr Ellen Hendriksen

    Jun 15 2018

    The author of How To Be Yourself: Quiet Your Inner Critic and Rise Above Social Anxiety, and Harvard Medical School Psychologist shares not only the science of Social Anxiety and ways to deal with it but some of her own battles with it.       Older episodes can be found ad-free exclusively at Stitcher Premium for $4.99/month.  Get one month free with offer code MENTAL at signup at www.StitcherPremium.com/mentalpod     More About Our Guest Retailer link for Dr Hendriksen's book: https://www.amaz...more

  • Jessa Reed - Trailer Park Survivor & PTSD

    Jun 07 2018

    Few guests have revealed as much of themselves as Jessa, a comic and podcaster (Mormon and the Meth-Head)  We touch on being molested, fear of intimacy, addiction, mending relationships, sobriety, anger, psych wards, rejection, sexual fantasies most people would never share publicly (rape, being cheated on), psychosis, binge eating and the lengths we will go to get attention.   Older episodes can be found ad-free exclusively at Stitcher Premium for $4.99/month.  Get one month free with offer cod...more

  • Clutter, Hoarding & Buying "Stuff" - Tracy McCubbin

    Jun 01 2018

    Decluttering expert Tracy McCubbin shares about her experiences being raised by a hoarder and how she helps clients part with their stuff. She and Paul get into the topics of materialism, cheap-goods consumerism, compulsive shopping and using "stuff", especially collecting to avoid feelings or issues in our lives. Older episodes can be found ad-free exclusively at Stitcher Premium for $4.99/month.  Get one month free with offer code MENTAL at signup at www.StitcherPremium.com/mentalpod   Subscri...more

  • Unspeakable Trauma to Meth Psychosis - Todd G

    May 25 2018

    Paul's friend shares about the co-dependent relationship with his longtime lover that ended in tragedy & Todd's PTSD, porn & meth binges tailspinning into a showdown on his roof vs a SWAT team, before finally having a moment of clarity and getting his life together piece by piece. Episodes older than one year can be found ad-free exclusively at Stitcher Premium for $4.99/month.   Get one month free by using offer code MENTAL at signup at www.StitcherPremium.com/mentalpod. Subscriptions include e...more

  • Best Of: Tiffany Haddish

    May 18 2018

    One of our best episodes - recorded in 2015 before she was famous (Girl's Trip, Saturday Night Live) - Tiffany opens up about her horrific family life, being shuttled around the foster care system and finally finding her voice doing comedy.   The full archive of MIHH shows one year and older can be found exclusively on Stitcher Premium. For a free month of listening, go to stitcherpremium.com/mentalpod and use promo code 'MENTAL'.   This episode is sponsored by BetterHelp.  To get your first wee...more

  • Singer-Songwriter Chris Smither

    May 11 2018

    The blues-based singer-songwriter who has written for Bonnie Raitt and other artists started out in the epicenter of the NY/Boston folk scene among contemporaries like Bob Dylan and Eric Von Schmidt reminisces about his career, the art of songwriting, jamming with blues legends like Son House, his battles with alcoholism and what success means both professionally and personally. He performs Train Home and Leave The Light On. This week's post-interview surveys and Chris' performance of By The Num...more

  • Melissa Broder aka @SoSadToday Returns

    May 04 2018

    The hilarious author and uber-popular Tweeter @SoSadToday delves into subjects covered in her latest book, The Pisces (and reads from it). She and Paul talk about romantic obsession, sexual compulsion that leads to shame and regret; the overall search to fill the nothingness in a futile attempt to know the unknowable and the animal part of the brain that overrides logic. Follow Melissa on Twitter @SoSadToday Buy her newest book The Pisces This episode is sponsored by BetterHelp.  To get your fir...more

  • Andy Richter

    Apr 27 2018

    The comedic actor, improviser and longtime Conan O'Brien sidekick opens up about his battles with depression, worry, anxiety and sadness and how he has learned to manage them with talk therapy. He also shares about the illusion he held that acquiring money and getting married would "fix him". He talks about growing up in a combative, eventually-divorced house where humor was prized and how he felt shortly after that, learning his father had come out as gay. Follow Andy on Twitter @AndyRichter Ch...more

  • Nora McInerny - Live in Minneapolis

    Apr 20 2018

    The host of the Terrible Thanks For Asking podcast and author of It's Okay To Laugh (Crying is Cool Too) sits down with Paul before a live audience to talk about how she processed (and still is) the grief of losing family members and dealing with her depression and anxiety. A funny and touching conversation. For more on Nora go to www.NoraBorealis.com Follow her on twitter @NoraBorealis Follow her on Instagram @NoraBorealis Follow her on Facebook at www.Facebook.com/NoraBorealis Check out her po...more

  • Cy Amundson Live in Minneapolis

    Apr 13 2018

    The actor/comedian (Comedy Central Presents: Cy Amundson) opens up in front of a live audience about his OCD, anxiety and how the loss of his teenage sister affected him and his family. For more on Cy visit   www.cycomedy.com www.twitter.com/cyamundson Cy's Facebook Page Cy's Comedy Albums This episode is sponsored by BetterHelp.  To get your first week of online counseling free go to www.BetterHelp.com/mental  Must be 18 To become a monthly donor for as little as $1/month (and qualify for bonus...more

  • Judging Our Feelings - TED Talk Speaker Dr. Susan David

    Apr 06 2018

    The Harvard Medical School research psychologist's recent TED Talk "The Gift and Power of Emotional Courage" went viral a month or so ago and here she sits down with Paul to talk about the human habit of judging ourselves for our feelings, how it affects us, the science behind it and how we can move away from toxic self-judgement. She also shares some of her personal life; being born and raised in South Africa during Apartheid and losing a parent when she was a child. For more about her check ou...more

  • Polyamory - Daisy & Cory

    Mar 30 2018

    Daisy (with Cory for support) shares about her emotionally absent parents, Taiwanese culture, her anxiety, need to control, fear of making mistakes, struggling to find a sense of self and the imprint left on her by pleasing her emotionally withdrawn/critical mother at any cost. They share about the specifics of their polyamorous relationship and agreements/boundaries vs open ones and monogamous ones. Daisy talks about the struggle of being a jealous person in a poly partnership and her need for ...more

  • Workaholism & Anxiety - Jordan Harbinger

    Mar 23 2018

    The hilarious, self-depreciating podcaster (Jordan Harbinger Show) and ex-lawyer opens up about a recent professional crisis that left him with extraordinary anxiety, insomnia and panic attacks.  He talks about often feeling like a fraud, (also known as imposter syndrome), workaholism and difficulty in finding who he is outside of his work.   For more on Jordan: Website: www.jordanharbinger.com Twitter www.twitter.com/jordanharbinger Instagram www.instagram.com/jordanharbinger Facebook www.faceb...more

  • My Brain Hates Me - Jessie Dean Altman

    Mar 16 2018

    The writer (Lady Parts, The Onion) and dog walker shares about the lifelong battle she has had with her brain and emotions including: Intrusive thoughts, OCD, treatment-resistant depression, procrastination, self-judgment, and anger. She shares how REBT was a game changer for helping her cope. Follow Jessie on Twitter at www.twitter.com/NicCageMatch This episode is sponsored by BetterHelp.  To get your first week of online counseling free go to www.BetterHelp.com/mental  Must be 18   To become a...more

  • The Devil & James Bond - Michael Cannan

    Mar 09 2018

    Paul's support group friend, recovering heroin addict and author shares about his upbringing on the Isle of Mann (UK) and the shame and anxiety he felt about secrets in his family and within himself. He opens up about his psychosis that convinced him that not only was he the devil he was also James Bond. He touches on his battles with depression, anxiety, panic attacks, codependency, religious delusions and grappling with the idea of what it means to be a man. For more on Michael Website: michae...more

  • CC Sheffield aka Daisy - Fame, Money & Abuse

    Mar 02 2018

    Originally recorded while speaking under the pseudonym "Daisy" to protect her from her abusive ex-fiancee, CC, a successful model, DJ and actress describes the abusive relationship she struggled to leave with a wealthy, powerful and manipulative drug addict/alcoholic who had turned increasingly violent and controlling. She talks about the emotionally difficult Mormon household she ran from at 17 to find herself sleeping in her car on the streets of LA, surviving a rape and using music to express...more

  • Heartbreak - Dr. Guy Winch

    Feb 23 2018

    Renowned author & TedTalk speaker Dr. Guy Winch talks about different kinds of heartbreak, especially the ones some people  minimize (loss of pets or non-married breakups). He gets into the science of how our brains react to loss, how we experience this emotionally and some tips for coping or supporting someone.   More About Guy His new TED Talk about heartbreak: https://www.ted.com/talks/guy_winch_how_to_fix_a_broken_heart How to Fix a Broken Heart book on Amazon: https://www.amazon.com/How-Fix...more

  • Horror & Beauty - Witnesses to a Shooting

    Feb 16 2018

    Paul is joined by two support group friends, Jonathan & Mukunda, to talk about their experience 3 weeks earlier when a shooting victim stumbled into their meeting and began bleeding out at their feet. Jonathan and Mukunda, both sober and ex-criminals, talk about how they were able to respond differently today than they would have when they were gangbangers. This episode is sponsored by BetterHelp.com  To experience a free week of online counseling go to www.BetterHelp.com/mental  Must be 18.   T...more

  • Female Sex Addiction - Erica Garza

    Feb 09 2018

    The Salon contributor and author of Getting Off: One Woman's Journey Through Sex and Porn Addiction shares about her sex addiction, which began at age 12 after discovering masturbation as a way of soothing her anxiety and not having to deal with her feelings but over time escalated into riskier and more addictive behavior which she eventually sought help for. She shares about the odd relationship shame and pleasure have for her when acting out and how today she can have sexual experiences that a...more

  • The Dark Grip of OCD - Dr Jenny Yip

    Feb 02 2018

    She battled OCD as a child but when she gave birth to twins it gripped her again despite being a trained psychologist who specializes in...yes...OCD. A great episode about the power fear, dark thoughts and shame in fueling OCD but also the power of getting help. She tearfully recalls her obsessive monitoring of her newborns despite being exhausted; being gripped by fear, almost certainty of their imminent deaths if she left their side. Dr Yip shares about her postpartum OCD and OCD in general, h...more

  • Food Owns Me, Anger & Dad Issues - Jay Larson

    Jan 26 2018

    The writer (HBO's Crashing) and stand-up (Me Being Me) opens up about his dad abandoning his family when he was 2 years-old and how that has effected his view of the world, himself and now his children. He talks about his struggles with food, anger, making mistakes, letting people into his life for fear of them disappointing him and he also discusses his need as a child to care for his overburdened mother after his father left. For more on Jay, including his new special "Me Being Me" go to www.J...more

  • Couple Troubles - Jen Elmquist LMFT

    Jan 19 2018

    Couple's therapist Jen Elmquist sits down with Paul and answers questions about the most common mistakes and hurdles couples face and offers advice on how to value your partner and relationship without devaluing yourself. There are no surveys in this episode as Paul will explain in the opening 20 minutes. Moments before he sat to record he was at his usual Thursday night support group meeting when it was interrupted by a shooting outside their building and the bleeding victim taking refuge in hi...more

  • Network Anchor Panic Attack - Dan Harris

    Jan 12 2018

    Imagine having a panic attack live on-air while anchoring ABC news. That happened to Dan Harris in 2004. The Nightline anchor, Good Morning America Weekend Co-anchor, war correspondent and author (10% Happier) opens up about his history of anxiety, depression, drug abuse (he's now sober) and witnessing horrific scenes while reporting in conflict zones. He talks about being skeptical at first about meditating but after researching it like a reporter, interviewing scientists and trying it himself ...more

  • My Fair Junkie - Amy Dresner

    Jan 05 2018

    The author (My Fair Junkie) details her jaw-dropping and often hilarious descent from a nice (but spoiled) Jewish girl from Beverly Hills to shooting coke into her neck, bottoming out on meth and sex and being assigned to a chain gang after threatening her ex-husband with a knife and ultimately having to rebuild her life.  She shares on her struggled with self-harm, BDD, depression, anxiety, sex addiction, suicide attempts, psych ward stays, fear of growing up, the danger of relying on her fathe...more

  • Asperger's, Nerd Culture & Anime - Luke Palmer

    Dec 29 2017

    The young writer/director (2 Kawaii 4 Comfort) shares about the intersection of people on the autism spectrum (especially Asperger's) and nerd culture especially anime. He opens up about his diagnosis as a child, different therapies his parents tried and what it feels like to be on the spectrum. He talks about a lot of the myths and stereotypes of people on the spectrum and how he has changed from an angry, withdrawn non-verbal child to an adult who is able to function easily in mainstream socie...more

  • Born Into A Notorious Criminal Family - Nicole Y.

    Dec 22 2017

    Born mixed-race to a white prostitute mother and a black, pimp father, Nicole grew up belonging to one of the most notorious families in the Boston underworld. Having seen and experienced unimaginable things, she found an outlet in music and finally gained a sense of self until drugs and alcohol stepped in. She shares about her new path in healing the PTSD, staying sober and trying to realize her artistic dreams. She also touches on being a lesbian, having a nervous breakdown and a dogged belief...more

  • Military PTSD & Sexism - Marc & Sonja Raciti

    Dec 15 2017

    Marc and Sonja Raciti both served in the military; he as a medic, she as a psychologist. They talk about PTSD myths and the PTSD he struggles with from fearing for his life to seeing unspeakable carnage to having survivor's guilt. She weighs in as his supportive partner, a therapist, and an ex-officer who witnessed and experienced both overt and subtle sexism while she served. They also address how Marc has been able to heal thru exposure therapy and EMDR.   Buy Marc and Sonja's book about his b...more

  • High School Tornado/Author Seamus Kirst

    Dec 08 2017

    In a live show recorded in Oakland, the 26 year-old writer (Shitfaced) discusses the loving but strained atmosphere growing up and his teenage years attempting suicide, drinking his way to rehabs and an eating disorder. He shares about making peace with being gay, therapy and the importance of writing and using other emotional tools today to keep him sane. Buy ‘Shitfaced’ on Amazon: https://www.amazon.com/Shitfaced-Musings-Former-Seamus-Kirst/dp/069282281X   Follow Seamus on Twitter and Instagra...more

  • The Absent Father Wound - Daria Polatin

    Dec 01 2017

    The award-winning playwright, t.v. writer (Jack Ryan)and author (Devil in Ohio) opens up about feeling abandoned by her father and the effect it has had on how she views herself, her place in it and the conscious decision she has made to become the hero of her own story by dealing with her fears of not being enough or taking chances. She shares about the catharsis of putting dark parts of herself in some of her characters and she and Paul talk about the awful feelings of jealousy or envy towards...more

  • Alt Depression Treatments - Shane Mauss

    Nov 24 2017

    The standup/podcaster (Here We Are podcast) shares about taking unconventional approaches to his battles with depression and hopelessness. He opens up about his kind but very religious and uncommunicative parents and the hometown where things weren't questioned and getting help was considered weak or weird. For more about Shane and his A Good Trip tour go to www.ShaneMauss.com Follow Shane on Twitter at @ShaneComedy Listen to his podcast at www.HereWeArepodcast.com or on Apple Podcasts here  Thi...more

  • Kelly's Shame and Secrets

    Nov 17 2017

    Growing up Kelly McCarron's home life wasn't chaotic or abusive but she still struggles mentally and emotionally. After filling out the show's Shame and Secrets survey she reads it aloud, touching on the issues of self-esteem, the aftermath of being sexually assaulted by a co-worker at 18, binge eating, social anxiety, BiPolar, loneliness, being bullied in middle school and giving up on a painful relationship with a sibling. Follow Kelly on YouTube  Check out her standup on Open Comedy Follow he...more

  • Success-Obsessed Parents & The Scapegoat Child

    Nov 10 2017

    30 year-old Mary M. left America for Europe to escape not only an American culture that was wearing on her but a family where she was tired of being the scapegoat to her golden-child brother.  An all-too-common scenario where her parents can only seem to support her financially but not emotionally. She discusses the prejudice she experiences as a queer woman of color, what she has learned by having a fiancee who is a trans man and the subtle politics of skin color within the black community. Oth...more

  • #355 Afraid To Leave The House - Sam Harriman

    Nov 02 2017

    Panic attacks, agoraphobia, anxiety and depression had brought Sam to a very dark place a few years ago and he decided he needed help. Bit by bit he began to see how his childhood and negative self-beliefs had to be re-examined. A new clarity on the dysfunction in his family (a disinterested workaholic dad and a controlling, angry mother) gave him the hope to began protecting himself from the pain of having them in his life. A great episode on self-care, cutting contact with parents, re-parentin...more

  • #354 Surviving Suicide - Kelechi Ubozoh

    Oct 27 2017

    The 32 year-old poet, mental health advocate and daughter of a Nigerian immigrant father and Brooklyn mother opens up to Paul about her emotional and mental turnaround after years of feeling suicidal and several times attempting it. She details the ways her depression, disconnection and fear of taking off her "mask" as the perfect, popular girl played in leading her to believe it was a good idea. She and Paul discuss possible ways loved ones can reach out to someone who is talking about suicide ...more

  • #353 Andy Kindler - OCD, ADD, Twitter Fights & More

    Oct 20 2017

    Paul's longtime friend, standup (Letterman) and actor (Everybody Loves Raymond) shares about his struggles with OCD, ADD and feeling the need to control people's opinions about his behavior even after lashing out at someone. He talks about his childhood and the negative self-beliefs and self-hatred that he's now understanding have been driving his behaviors and fears.   For more on Andy go to www.AndyKindler.com  www.Facebook.com/AndyKindler or www.Twitter.com/AndyKindler   This ep is sponsored ...more

  • #352 Caitlin Doughty: Death, OCD & Being a Mortician

    Oct 13 2017

    The mortician, TED Talk speaker and author of Smoke Gets In Your Eyes, talks about her childhood OCD and fascination with death as a result of witnessing a tragedy, how she'd like to see the American funeral industry change and how death is viewed/embraced around the world via a read excerpt from her new book From Here To Eternity: Traveling the World To Find The Good Death.   Follow Caitlin on Instagram @TheGoodDeath Follow Caitlin on Twitter @TheGoodDeath Check out her website www.CaitlinDough...more

  • #351 Fears, Loves, Filth & Mortality w Greg Behrendt

    Oct 05 2017

    The comedian, co-author of He's Just Not That Into You and longtime friend of Paul drops by to lighten his day up. They laugh at their fears, loves and thoughts about mortality and getting older.   Check out Greg's PODCAN podcast network Here is the episode with Paul that he talked about Follow him on Twitter @GregoryBehrendt Check out his website http://www.gregorybehrendt.com/ Visit his Facebook Page   This ep is sponsored by BetterHelp online therapy.  To try a week of counseling for free go ...more

  • #350 Intrusive Thoughts OCD aka "Pure OCD" - Kimberley Quinlan LMFT

    Sep 29 2017

    Specializing in treating clients whose self-judgement of their thoughts results in obsession and compulsions, Kimberley sits down with Paul and talks about the different forms OCD can take and how to treat it or support someone you love without enabling their compulsions.  She and Paul also play a game she plays with clients called "One Up" where they try to outdo each other in sharing "disgusting" things that pop into their brains to show we all have thoughts pop into our heads that make us unc...more

  • #349 Emotionally Coercive Sex - Perfectionism - Dissociating

    Sep 22 2017

    Paul's support group friend Meredith opens up about being raised by parents who lacked a sense of privacy or sexual boundaries; being sexualized by her father, mother (who has a long history of "accidentally" showing her vagina) and step-mother in covert but damaging ways, being comfortable giving help but not taking it or asking for it; being a perfectionist, self-harm, being attracted to emotionally unavailable men ( #loveaddiction ) and being on both ends of manipulative/coercive sexual exper...more

  • #348 Manhattan Party Girl - Fielding Edlow

    Sep 15 2017

    Raised in financial privilege but emotional poverty, the actor/writer/standup reflects on her "don't give a fuck" eating disorder, drug and alcohol years trying to stuff the real feelings of abandonment, not being good enough, anxiety, anger and feeling invisible especially in comparison to her golden-child brother. She gets honest about the "self-centered demon inside me" that drove her actions until sobering up almost 20 years ago and learning to deal with her insecurities, fears and anger by ...more

  • #347 Paul Rust - Anxiety, OCD & Embarrassment

    Sep 08 2017

    The actor/writer/comedian known for the Netflix show Love, the movie Inglourious Basterds and IFC's Comedy Bang! Bang! opens up about his battles with anxiety, OCD, taking on other people's emotions, people pleasing, wanting attention, shame, fear of letting people down and the role vulnerability and therapy have played in him finding emotional stability and peace.   Follow Paul on Twitter @PaulRust Follow Paul on Instagram @PaulRust   This episode is sponsored by BetterHelp online counseling.  ...more

  • #346 Plane Crash Survivor: Carol E Miller

    Sep 01 2017

    The author (Every Moment of a Fall: Recovery Thru EMDR Therapy) opens up in front of a live audience in Oakland about the years she abused herself through bad relationships, booze and sex before therapy and EMDR helped her confront her true feelings about her predatory father, passive mother, abusive step-father and the plane crash she survived as a 16 year-old. Visit Carol's website www.Carol-E-Miller.com Buy her book Every Moment of a Fall: Recovery Thru EMDR Therapy This episode is sponsored...more

  • #345 Food, Porn, Shame, Vulnerability & Losing a Sibling - Matt Shepherd

    Aug 24 2017

    Paul's support group friend shares about recovery and battles with binge-eating, shame, compulsive exercise, not knowing what he looks like, porn addiction, love addiction, fear of leaving relationships, feeling like he "is enough", growing up in a family where one sibling takes up all the parents' attention and energy, surviving the suicide of his brother and the huge impact learning to be vulnerable has had on his healing and life in general. Find out more about Matt at: Youtube: www.youtube.c...more

  • #344 If Only You Knew This Secret

    Aug 18 2017

    YouTube personality Sarah Sterling is 26 and was obsessed with Harry Potter (and Disney) since day one. At a convention she met a singer who captivated her. He was 24 and she was 16. Looking back, she sees it as statutory rape and is processing that. What's possibly even harder to process for her is that she still hasn't told her overly-protective easily-overreactive mom. Sarah talks about how she has always felt the need to protect her mom from information that would set off her anxiety and the...more

  • #343 British Therapist Louise M

    Aug 11 2017

    Louise (a pseudonym) shares about the moment in her otherwise mostly happy childhood that things changed.  She shares about the abuse at a posh Harry-Potteresque school when she was six by a headmaster who walked the dark halls with a torch; her mom's drinking, letting go of childhood shame, fear of conflict, how parents can support an abused child, when kids sexually abuse other kids, inner child work, Britain's NHS, and trying to cope with past trauma thru drugs and sex.   This episode is spon...more

  • #342 When Your Trauma Informs Your Turn Ons

    Aug 04 2017

    Why do some people enjoy physical pain or become aroused by it? For Kal, the discovery came with a lot of complications; he was a young boy and it was at the hands of a powerful and sadistic pedophile Rabbi (Heshy Brier) who is now a fugitive living in Israel. Kal shares about his years of self-destruction and bottoming out before eventually getting sober and starting the process of healing and advocating for other survivors. This episode is sponsored by BetterHelp online therapy. To try a week ...more

  • #341 80's Childhood Shitshow! - Dana Eagle

    Jul 28 2017

    Imagine getting gay hate mail from your own family.  Or finding a letter where your parents talk about you in a way that confirms your worst fears.  How does Bipolar 2 compare to having something like cancer?  Comedian and author (How To Be Depressed: A Guide) Dana Eagle opens up about being a lonely kid in the 80s whose parents couldn't relate to her perhaps b/c her dad was alcoholic or her mom was thriving in her corporate job.  Or is it genetic?  Paul and Dana talk about art, comedy, shame, m...more

  • #339 I Wrote A Hit Now What?!! - Seth Swirsky

    Jul 14 2017

    He's authored Grammy-nominated hits for the biggest artists, put out his own albums, written best-selling books on baseball, and directed a documentary on the Beatles.  And for as long as he can remember he has struggled with anxiety, panic attacks and feeling disconnected.  What happens when you're achieving your dreams but you haven't dealt with the feelings underneath the drive to be recognized?  Seth got his masters in clinical psychology.  He opens up about his life and his approach to deal...more

  • #338 Dear Food: I Want To See Other People

    Jul 07 2017

    Fat-shamed as a child by her mother and classmates, writer-performer Chelsea Frank, now 24, opens up about the complex role food plays in her life.  She talks about her struggles with weight, self-hatred, bingeing and restricting, going to "fat camps", life inside an eating disorder rehab and cutting contact with her abusive mother. Follow Chelsea on Twitter @ChelseaSFrank and on Instagram @ChelseaFrank This episode is sponsored by BetterHelp online counseling.  To try a free week go to www.Bett...more

  • #337 - Raised in Repression & BPD - Anne from Berlin

    Jun 30 2017

    Creative and sensitive, born and raised in 1980's communist East Germany by a dysfunctional family, Anne's abuse was not dramatic, more like death by 1000 cuts.  Bearing the brunt of being a first child and resented for her intelligence, she developed BPD (Borderline Personality Disorder) but has always turned the anger inwards, rarely if ever lashing out.  She talks about the benefits of learning DBT (Dialectical Behavior Therapy) as well as her struggles with anorexia, bingeing, cutting and be...more

  • #336 Jealousy & Internet Affairs - Mila

    Jun 23 2017

    What goes on in someone when they're jealous, possessive, obsessive or need to create drama?  Mila was born into a family where her parents "couldn't live with/couldn't live without each other"  and she found herself as an adult becoming like them, She also began snooping on her partners and engaging in online and in-person affairs despite knowing better and wanting to stop but unable to leave her cold and uninterested husband.   This episode is sponsored by BetterHelp online counseling.  To try...more

  • #335 From Hostile to Peaceful - JT

    Jun 16 2017

    19 year-old JT shares about the crippling anxiety, panic attacks and fear of abandonment he tried to alleviate for years through being hostile and controlling (of course it backfired) before finally deciding to get help. He shares with Paul the painful working-class childhood he had including the death of his parents when he was 8 and embracing his sexuality at 16. He talks about the importance mindfulness has played in helping him find the peace that has allowed him to deal with his anxiety. Th...more

  • #334 Abused By Her Therapist - Christina L

    Jun 09 2017

    Christina L (a pseudonym) shares about learning to stand up for herself after an abusive rehab therapist preyed on her as she was getting sober and the confusion of not knowing what he was doing was wrong.  She shares about her dysfunctional family, being bullied by boys in middle school, binge eating, and always being the "good child" by never making waves (unlike her sister who got most of the attention through speaking up or getting in trouble) but also never learning how to talk to her paren...more

  • #333 - When Sex Abuse Victims Become Adults & Avoiding Help/Work Burnout - Katie Vernoy LMFT

    Jun 01 2017

    LMFT therapist Katie Vernoy and Paul respond to listener questions around the topics of 1) How childhood sexual abuse affects the survivors when they become adults and 2) How can people avoid job or helping burnout. They talk about the specifics of self-care and coping tips, acceptance vs approval, forgiveness, anger, misguided generosity, overprotective parents, people who can't say no and is it possible for a younger child to sexually abuse an older child? Katie's website: www.evolvetothrivec...more

  • #332 Obsessive & Secret World of Classical Musicians - Ben Turner

    May 26 2017

    The Australian professional trombonist shares about the mental, emotional and logistical rigors of making a living as a classical musician and some insights into what drove him (and his peers) to such obsessive lengths. We get a peek behind the curtain into the dysfunction and sickness that can fester in such a high-pressure workplace and the poor coping mechanisms used by people who were raised to stuff emotions and just achieve to receive love. We touch on depression, anxiety, therapy, people ...more

  • #331 The Worst Day of My Life - Rhonda Britten

    May 19 2017

    Rhonda says "It took me 20 years to get thru that day" as she opens up about the event that changed her life forever when she was 14 years old.   She talks about how it changed her view of God, herself and the world around her, sending her on a path or self-destruction she barely survived until finally dealing with the pain and anger, eventually healing and finding her life's purpose. Follow Rhonda on twitter @RhondaBritten Check out her websites for the course she mentioned www.fearlessliving.o...more

  • #330 Co-Dep & Boundaries - Dr. Natalie Feinblatt

    Apr 30 2017

    Dr. Feinblatt shares her experience as a therapist in working with co-dependent clients; how is co-dependency defined, what are some characteristics and how can it be treated or managed? She also shares about the importance of codependents learning about setting, enforcing and respecting boundaries. This episode is sponsored by BetterHelp online counseling. To experience a free week go to www.BetterHelp.com/mental  In addition to her private practice Dr. Feinblatt also works at Westside Treatmen...more

  • #329 My Lovely Wife in the Psych Ward - Mark & Giulia Lukach

    Apr 30 2017

    Rarely do we talk about the spouse of someone battling a serious mental illness. Mark and Giulia had never heard of Bipolar I with psychosis until she broke from reality well into their marriage. Taped in front of an audience in Oakland, they bare their souls about the pain and confusion of her treatment and Mark realizing how much help spouses also need. Check out Mark's new book My Lovely Wife in the Psych Ward Visit his website www.MarkLukach.com  This episode is sponsored by Blue Apron. To g...more

  • #328 - Crack, Fights & Trying to Find Love - Charlie King

    Apr 28 2017

    Paul's support group friend has led an astoundingly painful life especially in regard to his mother (schizophrenia, depression), father (workaholic, hoarder), and sister (drug addict). He describes his descent into drugs (crack), emotionally damaged women and violence before finding the key to understanding his behavior. This episode is sponsored by BetterHelp. To see if online counseling is right for you go to www.BetterHelp.com/mental and experience a free week. Must be 18. This episode is spo...more

  • #327 Leaving Domestic Violence - Jenna Brister

    Apr 21 2017

    The comedian/storyteller (The Moth) shares about her whirlwind 86 day romance that led to a Vegas wedding to a man who soon turned into a man she didn't recognize, leaving her in fear for her life.  Jenna talks about her experience escaping from domestic violence and stalking, especially how family and friends reacted in terms of supporting her (or not).  She also shares about having to cut her mercurial, often emotionally abusive mother out of her life and the freedom she feels in learning how ...more

  • #326 I Was Born Afraid - Jenny Jaffe

    Apr 14 2017

    The comedic writer/performer and mental health advocate who started www.projecturok.org shares about the tremendous support she received from her family when depression anxiety and OCD had her close to suicide by age 10, and even more despondent from 15-17. Her story is a great example of parental support, the power of coping skills, and proof that even people from safe supportive homes with no trauma in their lives can suffer from mental illness because the issue is often one of chemical imbala...more

  • #325 I Am The Worst Person Ever: Mike Levine

    Apr 06 2017

    For most of his life Mike has been wracked with shame and self-hatred, convinced he was the worst person ever and fantasizing about suicide when he was hospitalized at 15. He and Paul talk about where his self-hate may come from as well as his ADHD, emotionally sterile and achievement-focused childhood, body dysmorphia, cross-dressing, kink as a submissive male, and how he finally summoned the courage and self-love to end an abusive friendship. Mike is a great example of someone learning to embr...more

  • #324 Literally Pulling Her Hair Out From PPD - Jennifer Tracy

    Mar 31 2017

    It wasn't until she began to literally pull chunks of her hair out she knew she might be battling something out of her control; postpartum depression. She talks about her battles with cyclical depression starting at an early age, being an only child with depressed, anxious and angry parents, not feeling seen or heard and being a high-bottom alcoholic who finally sobered up instead of self-medicating. She also touches on her body issues and how it was exacerbated during her few years as a model. ...more

  • #323 Family Secrets & Hiding Depression - Patricia McKee

    Mar 24 2017

    How does a family deal with its secrets? The PhD opens up about the inter-generational rage brewing beneath the surface of her extended family and the difficulty in trying to cope when favorites are played, a mother feels jealous of her daughter, trauma isn't discussed, emotions are stuffed and through depression a smile is mustered for the unsuspecting outside world. Patricia can be reached at her website www.PatriciaMcKee.com and on Twitter @Patricia_McKee This episode is sponsored by Stamps.c...more

  • #322 Being Trans in a Red State: Olivia Haidar

    Mar 16 2017

    The 29 year-old trans woman dispels myths about what it means to be trans, including those she used to believe. She shares about hormone therapy, gender reassignment surgery, the prejudice and stigma of "passing", feeling dysphoric growing up, coming out in her Indiana hometown and her upbringing by an overprotective mother, an absent father, an alcoholic and emotionally abusive stepfather. Follow Olivia on Twitter @hitherehaidar Follow her on Instagram @ohaidarling Follow her on Facebook at www...more

  • #321 Herpes from Date-Rape: Laura J

    Mar 09 2017

    Laura J. shares about contracting herpes by being date-raped and how she has navigated managing it logistically, sexually and emotionally with partners, including her husband. She was raised in an emotionally cold home by a psychiatrist father and image-obsessed mother. Her mother's response when Laura would say "I love you" has only ever been "thank you". Laura shares about having Bipolar 2, codependency, fear of intimacy, occasional paranoia, an eating disorder (compulsive eating), multiple st...more

  • #320 Fantasy & Love Addiction - Maia Akiva

    Mar 03 2017

    Paul's fellow support group friend shares about the huge role fantasy has played in her struggle to accept life; especially her love addiction. She talks about being unable to watch lesbian films in moderation (she is a lesbian) and how the CPTSD from her physical (and emotional) trauma at birth and being raised in an emotionally stifled home (where success was the only thing that mattered) have made intimacy and trust difficult especially with her struggles with low self-esteem. Inspired to hel...more

  • #319 - I Worry I'm Unlovable - Pauly David

    Feb 22 2017

    The co-host of YouTube's Pauly & Monks show shares about feeling unlovable, not being a good enough partner, trying to always "fix" other people, having to be an adult in his family at nine, learning to equate money with love and being rejected by relatives for being gay. Oh and his Bruce Willis-admiring grandfather shooting his grandmother.   Follow Pauly on Twitter @PaulyDavid and Instagram @PaulyDavid1 Check out the Pauly & Monks show on YouTube and on Twitter @PaulyandMonks Visit them on Fac...more

  • #318 I Can't Stop Worrying! - Giulia Rozzi

    Feb 17 2017

    The Moth Grand Slam winner, standup and podcaster (Hopefully We Don't Break Up) shares about being raised by Italian immigrant parents who worried a lot and her "high school brain" that still worries about being left out or gossiped about. Follow Giulia on Twitter @GiuliaRozzi Visit her website www.GiuliaRozzi.com  Check out her podcast www.HopefullyWeDontBreakup.com  Follow her on Instagram www.instagram.com/grozzi  This episode is sponsored by Young Health's Probimune. Sign up for automated d...more

  • #317 - Misophonia: Rage at Certain Sounds

    Feb 10 2017

    35 year-old barista (and listener) Charlynn Schmiedt shares about having misophonia which is a "fight or flight" physical response to certain everyday sounds, such as gum chewing, throat clearing etc. and the complications and misunderstanding that arise out of having to interact with people who don't think it is a "real thing".  Charlynn also shares about having an eating disorder in her 20s as well as depression and anxiety.  Her husband Patrick sits in to also share what it is like to live wi...more

  • #316: Kevin Allison on Owning Your Weirdness & Flaws

    Feb 03 2017

    The podcaster (RISK!) and sketch actor (The State) talks about learning to "own his weirdness".  From being a gay kid in a conservative town to being the black sheep in The State he has battled the paralysis and fear of not being perfect or even good enough.  He shares about his attempt at being a prostitute, the 12 year gap between The State ending and him starting Risk! and how he learned to find his authentic voice when he was at his lowest and how he still struggles to act and feel like a gr...more

  • #315 Jenny R - Raised in Wealth, Sadness & Anxiety

    Jan 27 2017

    The anxious only child of a drunk/rager mom and a passive dad shares about her family's combination of material wealth and emotional ignorance/poverty. She talks about her fear of "just being" instead of always "doing", including triathlons & rock climbing, her ongoing battles with disordered eating -especially binging- , her all-or-nothing thinking and struggles with intimacy while being married and having a family.   This episode is sponsored by BetterHelp online therapy.  To learn more (and g...more

  • #314 - Working With Sexually Violent Predators: Renee G-M

    Jan 20 2017

    The 40 year-old public administrator talks about "losing her humanity" being assigned to work on a criminal defense unit on behalf of sexually violent predators and the anxiety, panic and breakdowns that followed.   She also talks about her chaotic and abusive upbringing which included her father molesting her brother, domestic violence and her coping by becoming a rescuer.   This episode is sponsored by the online therapy provider BetterHelp.com  To try out a week of counseling for free go to w...more

  • #313 Neal Brennan

    Jan 13 2017

    The writer and director of Inside Amy Schumer, co-creator of Chapelle's Show and standup comic (3 Mics coming soon on Netflix) talks about being one of ten kids raised by a violent alcoholic father and his struggles today with trusting his feelings and needs and dealing with his anger especially with partners.  He also talks about his relationship with Dave Chapelle and the conflicts and emotions he experienced when Dave decided to stop doing the show. Neal's standup special 3 Mics debuts Jan 17...more

  • #312 Why Am I A Mess? My Parents Loved Me - Amanda Bloom

    Jan 06 2017

    The 30 year-old freelance journalist and Pilates teacher doesn't have anything dramatic to point to in her life, yet she has struggled to find her voice in life with bad relationships, eating disorders, depression, body dysmorphia, and intense fears of rejection and feeling excluded.  Paul and Amanda peel back the layers to try to find out what's underneath. To learn more about Amanda, go to www.AmandaBloom.com  Follow her on Twitter @AmandaJBloom This episode is sponsored by ZipRecruiter.com Li...more